None of Us Are

[Guest guest]

On Saturday, May 31, 2003, at 03:25 AM,

wrote:

 

> Bi-Polar illness is particularly nasty. Most people have been depressed

> at some point in their lives, so can understand that part but Bi-Polars

> get the opposite end, too, sort of a bonus gift. Mania is sort of like a

> bad cocaine high. Symptoms are are racing thoughts, fidgityness, and can

> also include dangerous or bad choices regarding sex/drugs and the like,

> spending too much money (I mean in a crippling fashion [i once spent

> $1000.00 I didn't have in a week]),

 

Ah, memory lane. *sigh*

 

> it's worst peaks can leave the person shcizoid.

 

Yes, I've been schizoid, too. Oh the fun. The disconnect. The world out

there, you in here. Charming, living behind glass, in a place where the

ghosts won't shut up.

 

> I know I spelled that wrong, sorry. The fatality rate is 20%, due to

> suicide, and my whole family is dealing with it. So little issues (food,

> who does the dishes, etc) can escalate into BIG issues rather quickly.

> And I keep reminding myself that they are really little issues after all.

 

Yes, blowing wee things into world-shaking importance. I also added OCD

in, just for variety I guess. lol

 

Just a couple days ago I was unpleasantly reminded of how I used to be

when I was slipped a Starbuck's mickey. I'd ordered decaf due to my heart

and blood pressure conditions, and because of my meds. They served me

full-bore high-octane caffeine. Worse, I'd ordered a Café Americano,

which is made with Espresso. In any case, I proceeded to go wild, back

into manic phase. Acted badly, wanted to kill this guy I hate, drove

erratically, etc. Then I was up until 5AM. Got up next day at 07:30, too

-- operated all yesterday on two and a half hours of sleep. All this from

one cup of regular coffee.

 

Fortunately there was no backlash depression, so I avoided that.

 

Obviously my meds bless me. They are what lifted me out of that cycle in

the first place; beta blockers, for high blood pressure. They remove the

fight-or-flight panic I had lived in for thirty-eight years.

 

So anyway, you are not alone. None of us are.

 

 

" Whatever I am, I'm not a physical me. I am not a thing, a noun. I seem to

be a verb. "

--R. Buckminster Fuller

[Guest guest]

I have been too busy with too much, and have not been able to

keep up with *all* the lists I just *had* to have!! LOL. At any rate, I

have missed the beginning of this thread.......but wanted to say,

how awful it was of them {starbucks} to have been so careless.

 

Also wanted to share that I have an odd reaction to caffeine.......It

puts me to sleep! [let me add here that I have Bipolar, OCD, GAD,

and a host of other things......]. Too much caffeine, like the drink

you mentioned, would make me nauseated, if I tried to stay awake.

A regular coffee would relax me if stressed, and put me out, if

already calm. Nobody has yet to find out why it reacts in me this

way..........

 

Pixx < always the oddball

 

> Just a couple days ago I was unpleasantly reminded of how I used to be

> when I was slipped a Starbuck's mickey. I'd ordered decaf due to my

> heart and blood pressure conditions, and because of my meds. They

> served me full-bore high-octane caffeine. Worse, I'd ordered a Café

> Americano, which is made with Espresso. In any case, I proceeded to go

> wild, back into manic phase. Acted badly, wanted to kill this guy I

> hate, drove erratically, etc. Then I was up until 5AM. Got up next day

> at 07:30, too -- operated all yesterday on two and a half hours of

> sleep. All this from one cup of regular coffee.

>

>

[Guest guest]

THANK YOU!!!! Sometimes I isolate so completely that my only contact with the

outside world is through my computer and my children. And I wonder about you

guys.

 

BTW-Am not schizoid, thank the deities for small favors, but so far, no meds

seem to be of any help. I've been trying for four years now. But, I am hearing

good things about Omega-3, so am consuming lots of flax meal.

 

 

 

>So anyway, you are not alone. None of us are.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Peace,

Starfrog

 

 

 

 

 

Free online calendar with sync to Outlook.

 

 

[Guest guest]

This pretty much sums up my human contact........except for the

little chinese woman around the corner, with those awesome egg

rolls............

 

I also tried the fish oil, for the Omega3......made me very sick.

That was before I succumbed to meds........been two years of

juggling different ones now............not trying to sound disparaging;

some have really helped.

 

On 31 May 2003 at 22:09, starfrog wrote:

 

>

> Sometimes I isolate so completely that my only contact

> with the outside world is through my computer and my children. And I

> wonder about you guys.

>

[Guest guest]

I feel the same way. I don't get out much at all. I avoid people most of the

time.

 

Janice

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Blessed are those who can laugh at themselves,

for they shall never cease to be amused.

 

-

starfrog

 

Sunday, June 01, 2003 12:09 AM

Re: None of Us Are

 

 

 

THANK YOU!!!! Sometimes I isolate so completely that my only contact with the

outside world is through my computer and my children. And I wonder about you

guys.

 

BTW-Am not schizoid, thank the deities for small favors, but so far, no meds

seem to be of any help. I've been trying for four years now. But, I am hearing

good things about Omega-3, so am consuming lots of flax meal.

 

 

 

>So anyway, you are not alone. None of us are.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Peace,

Starfrog

 

 

 

 

 

Free online calendar with sync to Outlook.

 

 

[Guest guest]

Well, I guess we are more or less human - most of the time ;=) I'm

always happy to chat, if that counts as contact *LOL*

 

Best,

Pat

>

> This pretty much sums up my human contact........except for the

> little chinese woman around the corner, with those awesome egg

> rolls............

>

> I also tried the fish oil, for the Omega3......made me very sick.

> That was before I succumbed to meds........been two years of

> juggling different ones now............not trying to sound disparaging;

> some have really helped.

 

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[Guest guest]

Wow, that is a different reaction to caffeine, but I have

heard of it before. Sometimes they give uppers to hyper

people to calm them down. Nicotein is an upper, too,

yet folks who smoke feel relaxed after smoking. I guess if

your body craves the speed it feels relaxed when it gets

it so perhaps this is why? I host a coffee list and several

people there have expressed this same sort of reaction to

caffeine; they just drink a cup of high-test and fall asleep.

I'd be bouncing off the walls if I had any after 5pm. *lol*

 

~ PT ~

 

On the whole, it is patience which makes the final difference

between those who succeed or fail in all things.Ê

~ John Ruskin (1819-1900)

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, " Pixx " <lists@p...> wrote:

 

> Also wanted to share that I have an odd reaction to

caffeine.......It

> puts me to sleep! [let me add here that I have Bipolar, OCD, GAD,

> and a host of other things......]. Too much caffeine, like the

drink

> you mentioned, would make me nauseated, if I tried to stay awake.

> A regular coffee would relax me if stressed, and put me out, if

> already calm. Nobody has yet to find out why it reacts in me this

> way..........

>

> Pixx < always the oddball