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Hi everybody,

 

This afternoon i watched the Secret.

A sentence in it made me feel very fragile suddenly, all my beliefs were

broken. All my armor fell. All my mental construction always intouchable

disapeared.

This sentence is " If eating a salami sandwich make you feel good then eat

it, your thoughts are creating your feelings etc.. " .

Since this sentence all my choices since years was vulnerable, suddenly i

wanted everything i stoped.

My belief that all those food were nefast vanished and i thought i can eat

them if my brain think it s good for me. And right now my brain think it s

good for me.

I tried to fight for 5 hours, sat in a restaurant then escaped using a

pretext. I looked like a junkie all the restaurant on my way back from work.

My desire of all this food was incontrolable, i bought some very nice fruits

and green salad and eat some but nothing worked. My flatmate who never ever

come home with made food enter in the kitchen with a indian take away I

never saw that in 8 months.

I tried to speak about my frustration she said that i should eat once a week

normal food. I explained that i wanted to do this 6 months 100% raw without

cheating to see the real result. She took her meal and went to eat it in her

room.

I tried to stay home to relax to change my mind but impossible and suddenly

i was in the street looking for some restaurant to eat meat, fish, cheese,

chocolate, sweets...

I was obsessed it was like those horrible compulsions i had before i need it

now RIGHT NOW and as much as it s possible to have !!!

I tried to oriented a maximum my choice i tried to control myself, like when

you slip on water with your incontroling car, i avoid the caribbean, the

fried take away, the kebab take away, it was incredible how i felt the urge

of eating right now all those food. I tried to control and ran aground a

vegan restaurant, i asked for two sides dishes : garlic bread with vegan

cheese and a salad of asian noodle.

I was impatient i would almost walked in the kitchen to shout on them to

hurry up because i needed it now, i felt like a junkie, i was in a second

state.

When my meals arrived i took the bread first, bit in it and then... no

taste, just a disgusting mix of flour not very well cooked with seeds in eat

too much flavours to appreciate anything and the false cheese more chemical

than ever was almost the worst thing i ever tasted.

I fell from three thousand meters and hit the reality I was completely

surprised.

I thought that it would have been amazing and it was just simply terribly

sad and tasteless. I thought of the taste of the apples, watermelon and

bananas.

Then I tried the noodle and ditto no taste, sad and boring. I was shocked.

Just a fucking lie. Desillusion.

But i needed more i couldnt believe it. I thought it s because it s a vegan

restaurant i want meat i want fast food i want everything. I paid and went

out.

My urge was incontrolable i saw Mac Donald in the next street i entered.

I didn t entered in a mac donald since maybe 8 years (i m 29) i chose the

thing i used to eat a kind of deluxe chicken nuggets with a chilli sweet

sauce. I received 3 little poor things struggling in a carton box.

I bit in it, very impatient, i could only taste the spices in the fried

stuff around and the chicken under was just a texture of a kind of

marshmallow not very well cooked. I ate them and was shocked " A fruitarian

raw foodist vegan for 6 months and vegetarian for years and against

mondialisation fast food junk food since my 18 years, ME i was eating in a

mac donald a crap poor chicken from industrial farm full of hormones and

finally killed in horrible condition " .

I decided to stay cool with my self and to accept my experience.

I went out of the macdo and my false hunger was still unsatisfied.

All the strange looks of the people since i decided to eat different (not

just raw even veggie) popped up in my head :

" Me ! i need meat or i can t live "

" Vegetarian it s boring "

" You dont even drink alcohol "

" So what do you do ? "

" How you have fun ? "

" Vegan ? how did you get your protein ? "

" Raw foodist ? Are you a saint or frustrating yourself ? "

" Be carefull it can be very dangerous. "

" I heard about someone that died after x years of veggie, veganism... "

" We are omnivorus it s good to eat a little bit of everything "

" Where did you get your nutrients ? "

" organic or industrial it s the same "

" Shelton died at 78 years old "

" I prefer a short life with a lot of fun "

" How can you do that ? "

" You never crave for anything. Me when i craved for something i just eat

it " .

" I m impressed " .

" You mean you don t even eat cooked vegetables. "

" I don t like fruits " .

" That s very strange what you eat. No thank you i don t want it " .

" Would you like some chocolate " .

" I bought cake for everyone " .

" Sorry i ve got nothing for you " .

" I will never do that " .

" You re too hard on yourself " .

" Sorry i don t have any fruit or vegetables but there is some rice if you

want. Oh you don t eat rice neither then sorry there is nothing " .

" Do you mind if i eat a steak? "

" You are an extremist ! "

" The human being is made to eat animals " .

" I could never live without this or this " .

" Too much fruit can put too much acid in your body and take of your

minerals " .

" Fruits and vegetables are very expansive " .

" Are you on a diet ? "

etc...

And all this thoughts explosed in my head like. Suddenly the door was opened

and i let them go away.

I felt in a second state, i wasn t in a normal state i had the impression to

be dreaming or " nightmaring " .

Then i was still trying to find another restaurant i was looking at the

pizza hut, no fast food already done pizza too big, and then i saw a noodle

bar.

I entered in a restaurant for the third time tonight, accepting my state. I

ordered the meal i used to eat wan ton soup and a kind of mixture of meats

seafood vegetables and noodles. I was so impatient observing the waiter and

the cooker in the reflection of the window. It stinked the fried oil in the

air. I felt very bizarre.

Then my soup arrived, i was happy and impatient to taste it, first i burnt

my tongue and my throat then i took a bit in the wan ton so hot that i

swallow it directly. I tried a second one and couldn t recognized the

mixture (and having the thought that it was a very strange meat like i dont

want to know which part of the animals and wich animal) mixed with a very

disgusting superficial taste of seasoning. I left it aside then the meal

with all meats appeared on my table. It was enormous, i tasted all of them,

seafood, beef, chicken etc... then i begin to eat more noodles and after few

bit i finally choose the kind of green vegetables of the plate. I felt in

five minutes really bad, i needed to stop or i was going to throw out right

now.

I paid the waiter he asked me why i didnt finish. Touched my belly gave a

smile and went out.

In the street of London i felt that i had twin in my belly, my walk was

heavy and awkward. I couldnt understand how i used to eat this shit how i

could enjoy it, my mouth was asking for some fresh fruits and water. I

understood why i chose to eat like i do, why it gives me strength and

health.

But then i couldnt stand the taste of all this in my mouth, i was missing my

fruit breath banana Perfume or Water of melon...

I needed a chewing gum. I entered in a shop and then i saw the chocolate and

to the point i was it was good to get rid of all my false frustrations, i

chose a double mars and a sweet and some chewing gums. I ate them in the

street. Then entered in a last shop chose a very acid sweet my favorite kid

s stuff. But couldnt stand the acidic chemical taste so i trew the half

away. The gum in it sticked to my teeth even after my teeth brushing. I had

to try many time before to get rid of it.

Arrived in my house my belly is terribly painfull nothing to see with the

last detox i had, it s swollen and painfull everywhere from my throat to my

bowels. I feel depressed and unhappy. It reminds me the first time i quit

smoking and tried again, i almost faint and went to trow up directly after.

It s exactly the same we used our body to the worst food on earth that we re

not enought sensitive to feel the danger of it.

But my god it s horrible how bad i feel right now, i would do everything for

the pain to stop i know that my night will not be very good.

But it s a very good experience, because i know that a salami sandwich and

all the other crap food do not make me feel good at all. All the contrary !

It s a nightmare on earth.

I perhaps destroy my 100% raw first month but i know that i m stronger in my

choices and that this experience is really positive for me. Even if i really

feel crap right now, i ve got a big pain in my belly and i can t breath

properly because of the swollen.

I wish you a very good night at least you will be able to sleep. And hope my

experience on a living human being didn t chocked you too much and could

help you in your choice.

I want to precise that i really recommend the Secret to everybody and that i

really believe in the power of the thoughts and that we can have everything

on earth. One of my wish is to have a perfect health and a blossomed beauty,

rawfood gave it to me so i will keep it.

Good night.

Alix.

xxx

 

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[Guest guest]

Hi Alix,

 

Oh. My. Gosh. I. Feel. Your. Pain. !! Literally...

 

I have been gradually eating more raw over the past couple yrs. For

a long time, I have been eating 2 fruit meals and one cooked meal per

day, with some periods of all-raw lasting from a few days to 30

days. The past 4 days, I've eaten fruits, greens, and celery only.

But tonight my husband was eating pizza and I thought, I'll just have

a bite...which led to munching on chips and cheese and chocolate

chips! Right away, I started feeling the " fuzzy head " I get from

junk. Then my heart started beating fast, and I started sweating.

 

You're so right--we (people in general) only think a salami sandwich

makes us feel good because we are so polluted we've lost our

sensitivity to what is healthy! I guess you and I (and lots of

others here) are regaining our sensitivity!

 

Thanks for sharing so much of your experience. Hope you feel better

soon! I'll probably be awake all night, too! :-)

 

Laurie

[Guest guest]

Regarding the increased sensitivity brought on by good eating,

I definitely agree. For example, overconsumption of alcohol

is not an issue for me any more since I get the " hangover "

immediately!

 

As for your chocolate cravings, have you considered using

the raw cacao beans/powders espoused by David Wolfe? I do.

 

 

-Erin

www.zenpawn.com/vegblog