Guest guest Posted December 13, 2008 Report Share Posted December 13, 2008 Words...how do I find the words? A few days ago I was playing with Ucun in the nursery forest. He was full of life, making his way to me as soon as I appeared. Settling in my lap and playing endlessly with my hands and feet and begging for tickles by showing me precisely where to tickle him. He squeezed my nose, I am sure expecting it to squeak like so many of the soft toys the babies have. He gently touched my eyelashes, sucked on my chin, and and clutched at my curls. I wrote just one sentence about him: " Ucun now seems to be my best friend in Nursery. " Today, Ucun began his third day of seriously high fever. Now on an IV as well as oxygen, head babysitter Yati tried to bring down his fever with cold water compresses. I went back to the house to get frozen compresses, and we wrapped them up in soft flannel and applied them to his forehead, back of neck and armpits. Ucun was nearly unconscious, but every 5 minutes or so, his small body writhed in pain as his body cramped, his hands and feet clenched. Yati whispered his name gently to him over and over, coaxing him to pull through the seizures. And they would stop, and we'd sigh a sigh of relief that it was over this time. But minutes later, they began again. There was little more I could do. I knew Ucun was in the best hands. Yati has worked with us since the beginning, and has nursed countless orangutans through their toughest days. The medics were visiting regularly, and second test for malaria was being run, the first having been negative. I'd been asked to take some photos of some of the others in nursery, and being my last day at the project, I knew this had to be done. I left Ucun with Yati and a second babysitter and went to nursery forest to photograph the charming antics of the likes of Diego and Pickle. But first I looked in on Inka. She was sitting up in her basket, drinking a bottle, and the babysitter was brushing some sand off her face. I asked how the sand came to be on her face, and the babysitter proudly announced that Inka not only had taken her first steps out of her basket, she had climbed and played as well. And as if to prove the point, Inka stretched up from her basket, clutched the nearest branch of the climbing frame in which she was situated, and heaved herself out of the basket and along the branch using all four hands and feet! Her almost inaudible squeaks betrayed her delight at this triumph. I moved onto the isolation unit, to photograph Nita, Kle, Clara, Pista and Frankie. Poor Frankie has been sick off and on the whole time he has been at Nyaru Menteng. The past two days he has been flat out, barely conscious, on both IV and oxygen. But today, he was off IV, sitting up and his eyes wide open and clear. When Clara was offered a bottle, Frankie's eyes lit up, signalling he'd like the same, and the babysitters quickly obliged him. He drank 4 full bottles one after the other, and then had a little burp! Everyone was delighted. As I sat with Frankie, he had a little chat with me, and he placed my hands around his tummy and guided me to pat him. It was raining hard outside, so the whole group was in, and we had got out loads of toys that squeaked and rattled and sang, and Kle was doing his best to beat them all unconscious. Pista used a towel to dress up as Mother Theresa, and Nita sucked on the ears of a toy elephant. The 2 babysitters with me were so good with the orangutans, and gave them so much love and attention. Of course they all do, but at this moment, these 2 stood out, and I thought, I must mention these two to Lone as exceptional. Just then Hanni walked in, looked at all of us, and said, " Ucun baru meninggal " -- " Ucun has just died. " How quickly joy turns to heartache with just 3 words. Silence descended on the room, as each of us looked at the other. Indonesians seldom cry in front of others. But tears welled up in the eyes of Hanni and both the babysitters. The babies played on, not noticing the despair, as we wiped our eyes. The doctor carried Ucun's body back to the clinic in a sarang, and Hanni invited me to see Ucun one last time. She also let babysitter Dewi know that Ucun's body had arrived from nursery. Dewi was Ucun's favourite babysitter, and Ucun was Dewi's favourite baby. In the moments before we stepped into the autopsy room, Dewi and I embraced, and she broke down, " I have known Ucun since he was the tiniest baby. He is so precious. " Ucun's body was lifted from the deep freeze, onto the table, and Dewi gently unwrapped the sarong from the still body. He looked perfect. His eyes were open and his mouth slightly opened, and his body looked relaxed. He hadn't died in seizure. He wasn't blue...he was just the colour he should have been, just the colour he had been hours before. He was only slightly cool to the touch and his skin so soft like velvet. And it all seemed so very, very wrong. We said goodbye to Ucun, Dewi wrapped him up again, cradled his lifeless body in her arms and kissed his head before handing him back to the doctor. And now, as I write, the tears run down my face and I can find no words to describe the loss and pain when someone so innocent and young should suffer and die. All I can do is write what happened, and hope that someone out there will read this and understand and care, and agree that it is so very, very wrong. Michelle Desilets International Campaigns Director Borneo Orangutan Survival International www.savetheorangutan.org.uk " Primates Helping Primates " Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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