Speaking to God

[Guest guest]

When I read Sri.Palaniappan's post reagrding " Who do I speak to " ,I was

prompted to write this post. Some years back,it used to be my only way

of praying or worship.Govinda being the personal god(Kuladevatha) whom I

adore and worship,was my everything and I would consistently speak to

him addressing him as my father and in turn he would address me as

" Kuzhandai " (child).Every doubt, every pain, every pleasure ,every moment

I would share with him and this constant mental dialogue would keep

going on inside me. Sometimes, I would wonder whether I would become a

Schizophrenic,as i was lost so much in these conversations.

Suddenly,one day while I was having such a dialogue, I stopped and

asked myself, " when I say -Sarvam Govindamayam-i.e. everything is

Govinda, Who was doing the talking to Govinda. The mind stopped and I

found no answer. Today, after traversing Bhagavan Ramana's path, I

realise what the whole communication was and where it would have

ultimately led me if I had persisted. Well, now the quest has started

,ofcourse ,with some aids , as the I thought ,is not so easy to give up.

Resting in Self /Govinda/Ramana.