Update

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Much has been going on. I've been surrendering more and more to the

Kriyas my body goes into. When I read my mind/heart/gut? sometimes

automatically completes a thought before I complete the word I am

reading. This tells me what I am really thinking when I focus on it

and that in turn brings up different emotions that lead to Kriyas. I

am also payiing more attention to the " random " things that go on. I'm

trusting more and more that they might have a meaning. " Mistakes " I

make etc. I don't work at the moment so I'm staying home much. Whnever

I want to venture out though I feel like I'm getting signs that it's a

bad idea. Considering what my body just did I guess it's good that I

wasn't on a subway platform when it happened.

 

If anyone can share with me what their experience was like and how

they coped. How they fit it into a daily life. How long it lasted. I'm

trying not to rush but at the same time I'm impatient. Things people

say to me are setting me off sometimes but I look at what it is I'm

feeling let it rise go into a Kriya and that's it. Made me laugh

afterwards the first time. I also recognized that the euphoria I was

feeling was another emotion but since it wasn't fear I started to feel

cocky and restless.

 

And i've been having thoughts about things I read on this site and one

of the link sites. Especially about religion existing to keep people

from discovering this. The fear of snakes. I've been thinking about

teh Greek myths from childhood, Athena, the Gorgon, etc...I keep on

trying to anticipate what it will be like to see one if that in fact

happens. I am starting to feel like this has been happening for years.

 

I'm thinking of dreams I've been having for a while and how in some

I've seen people I never met before and I'm trying to match it up to

what I read about reincarnation or maybe they're people I haven't met

yet who are out there but I'm not sure.

 

I am keeping forgiveness in my mind and trying to be honest about when

I'm not forgiving and trying to inderstand why as well.

 

It's difficult to find blind spots but I'm finding that whenever there

is something I am not understanding, or rejecting it's because I have

a stake in it that I don't want to give uop so I'm leading to that

direction.

 

And one last thing Here in New York City there is a Rubin Museum of

Art and they're going to have an exhibit in Sept. about Sikh art. It's

called " I See No Stranger " . It immediately made me think of L'Etranger

or " The Stranger " which I read in high schoold for french class.

Just a thought about the difference in thoughts. If anyone is

unfamiliar with the book it's about a man who has no feeling and is an

outsider even to himself as opposed to what I was reading about the

Sikh religion where there are no others, at least it's taught there

aren't supposed to be.

 

Thank you.