Don't Do This !

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Last night I had a long distance phone call from my brother-in-law

grilling my wife and me about the home and hospital care we're

trying to provide for my manic-depressive father-in-law. For the

umpteenth time, he reduced my wife to tears and for the first time

in many years I 'lost it' and rebuked him with words which were

definitely not from a lush green awakened heart chakra. He hung up,

then rang back with a string of expletives. I didn't escalate, but

realising I'd spoken out of place, tried to apologise but was told

our friendship was over, he'd never talk to me again and so on.

 

Well a few minutes after the phone call, there was a rush of heat to

my cheeks, my forehead bunched into steel knots and the continuing

vibe in my spine became very strong with a line of energy rotating

around my scalp. After a troubled sleep, I tried to do the Tibetans

this morning and when I did the spins, instead of getting the usual

feeling of tingling in my fingertips, my arms fell to my sides like

a pair of broken wings. Moving into Rite 2 (legs and chest raised),

every muscle and bone in my spine and ribcage spasmed as I reverted

to prone position.

 

 

Gotta forgive both my brother-in-law and myself. So I've started

that process with an email and a recapitulation but a sense of self-

betrayal continues to hound me. As I speak, I've got an energy

quiver in my nostrils (probably a spreading of the foot-in-mouth

disease !!) and a strong spine energy flow that cuts out at my

shoulder blades.

 

Lessons:

 

1. Don't attempt to fight other peoples' (even your partner's)

battles.

 

2. Weigh every word before you speak it !!

 

I guess I've moved the Kundalini to a few new places but my guess is

that emotional outbursts create more blockages than they release.

 

 

Love and best wishes to all - (a repentant) John R.

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Wow. Point well taken.However (just playing Devil's advocate here...), isn't it excusable to stick up for one you love? I mean this instinct is apparaent in mother bears, lions, etc, etc.. Why be punished for it? He was being the @ss, not you!Maybe I missed something...Calm blessings,Ana <...> wrote: Last night I had a long distance phone call from my brother-in-law grilling my wife and me about the home and hospital care we're trying to provide for my manic-depressive

father-in-law. For the umpteenth time, he reduced my wife to tears and for the first time in many years I 'lost it' and rebuked him with words which were definitely not from a lush green awakened heart chakra. He hung up, then rang back with a string of expletives. I didn't escalate, but realising I'd spoken out of place, tried to apologise but was told our friendship was over, he'd never talk to me again and so on. Well a few minutes after the phone call, there was a rush of heat to my cheeks, my forehead bunched into steel knots and the continuing vibe in my spine became very strong with a line of energy rotating around my scalp. After a troubled sleep, I tried to do the Tibetans this morning and when I did the spins, instead of getting the usual feeling of tingling in my fingertips, my arms fell to my sides like a pair of broken wings. Moving into Rite 2 (legs and chest raised), every muscle

and bone in my spine and ribcage spasmed as I reverted to prone position. Gotta forgive both my brother-in-law and myself. So I've started that process with an email and a recapitulation but a sense of self- betrayal continues to hound me. As I speak, I've got an energy quiver in my nostrils (probably a spreading of the foot-in-mouth disease !!) and a strong spine energy flow that cuts out at my shoulder blades. Lessons: 1. Don't attempt to fight other peoples' (even your partner's) battles. 2. Weigh every word before you speak it !! I guess I've moved the Kundalini to a few new places but my guess is that emotional outbursts create more blockages than they release. Love and best wishes to all - (a repentant) John R.

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Congratulations for being aware of the process. Very important and

very powerful. You are doing great. And to catch yourself .... your

energy must have really been flowing.

 

BlessU

Sam

 

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> Last night I had a long distance phone call from my brother-in-law

> grilling my wife and me about the home and hospital care we're

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Hi John,

 

I think families can be the most difficult people to

keep it cool with as they have a way of turning the

screws like no others ;( *ouch*

 

I think it's only natural the way you acted so don't

be hard on yourself, it must be an emotional strain,

looking after the father, the brother moaning, not

your blood family yet you are still in the middle of

it all, yet it's not your place to be angry etc...

Can't do anything right?

What to do?

Just do your best and remember to love, no matter what

gets said by whom, relax and let it wash away, and

then stay well out of it from now on.

Forget it.

 

Or tell your brother to come and sort it out if he's

so bothered by it all, hee hee (my cheeky side

slipping out)

It looks to me that it's too stressful for him to deal

with so he's bailing out at the first chance you gave

him.

Maybe I'm way off the mark here.....

 

 

You are only human, not superman yet.

 

Love to you John, and your family,

Elektra x x x

 

 

 

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Well John, This to will pass. Remember how you might have felt if you had not defended your wife. Forgiving is needed but it can come in different ways. Ways that do not weaken your resolve or diminish your actions if they were a necessary response. You haven't weakened your Kundalini. You may have strengthened it by coming to the aid of one you love. Time heals all wounds and your brother in law may eventually see this -

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In a message dated 8/26/2006 4:41:56 AM GMT Standard Time, elektra.fire writes:

I think families can be the most difficult people tokeep it cool with as they have a way of turning thescrews like no others ;( *ouch*

 

 

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Amen to that! And to this whole post. Elektra has such a beautiful way with words. I know I still have my moments.

 

It makes me wonder how, the harder we try to be a good person and do the right things, the more it seems sometimes that we are being "tested." (Maybe that's not the case, but it definitely does SEEM that way sometimes.) Glad to know I'm not the only one who feels "pushed" sometimes.

 

I don't believe in a little horned devil, but more what I call (and have experienced as) "the other end of the spectrum." (The unpleasant end.) Recently a friend sent me a book that I read and it was a fictional novel by M. Scott Peck about the afterlife. In it, there was this section where the main character (named Daniel) was tempted in the afterlife by this beautiful woman who was trying to make him worship her for eternity. Daniel refused to promise this and was then sent back to a guide named Isabel and he questioned her as to why this happened. The guide told him that this was the highest compliment where Satan was not tempting him, but instead trying to "divert" him from his true intentions, which were to serve humanity. And that this IS the highest compliment and only happens to people with the best of intentions.

 

To me, Satan is merely a symbolic word or term for "the other end of the spectrum." (Evil, misery, whatever you want to call it.) This was a fictional novel, but it made a good point that I have thought about a lot since I read it. Only because I have always tried to have the best of intentions in my life, and have had many of my own little (and major) "tests." There have been times when I have failed miserably and beat myself up because of it, but I always learn something valuable from the experience. I just wish I would get the point already! Because these "tests" still seem to come when I am trying my very best to have the best of intentions. And they can be SO unpleasant and difficult.

 

It does make you think. How to handle this. How to make it stop.

 

Deb

 

 

 

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Something to check out.

 

http://www.angelfire.com/extreme/empoweringpeople/jedi.html

 

 

 

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Anastasia Allan

Saturday, August 26, 2006 12:04 AM

Re: Don't Do This !

 

 

Wow. Point well taken.However (just playing Devil's advocate here...), isn't it excusable to stick up for one you love? I mean this instinct is apparaent in mother bears, lions, etc, etc.. Why be punished for it? He was being the @ss, not you!Maybe I missed something...Calm blessings,Ana < (AT) iinet (DOT) net.au> wrote:

 

Last night I had a long distance phone call from my brother-in-law grilling my wife and me about the home and hospital care we're trying to provide for my manic-depressive father-in-law. For the umpteenth time, he reduced my wife to tears and for the first time in many years I 'lost it' and rebuked him with words which were definitely not from a lush green awakened heart chakra. He hung up, then rang back with a string of expletives. I didn't escalate, but realising I'd spoken out of place, tried to apologise but was told our friendship was over, he'd never talk to me again and so on. Well a few minutes after the phone call, there was a rush of heat to my cheeks, my forehead bunched into steel knots and the continuing vibe in my spine became very strong with a line of energy rotating around my scalp. After a troubled sleep, I tried to do the Tibetans this morning and when I did the spins, instead of getting the usual feeling of tingling in my fingertips, my arms fell to my sides like a pair of broken wings. Moving into Rite 2 (legs and chest raised), every muscle and bone in my spine and ribcage spasmed as I reverted to prone position. Gotta forgive both my brother-in-law and myself. So I've started that process with an email and a recapitulation but a sense of self-betrayal continues to hound me. As I speak, I've got an energy quiver in my nostrils (probably a spreading of the foot-in-mouth disease !!) and a strong spine energy flow that cuts out at my shoulder blades.Lessons: 1. Don't attempt to fight other peoples' (even your partner's) battles. 2. Weigh every word before you speak it !! I guess I've moved the Kundalini to a few new places but my guess is that emotional outbursts create more blockages than they release.Love and best wishes to all - (a repentant) John R.

 

 

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