Guest guest Posted September 10, 2006 Report Share Posted September 10, 2006 I wanted to tell a story that inspired me years ago as a young girl. My father started taking us to a Baptist church when we were 12 and 13. I thought the place was calm and the people were nice. This was the church my father was baptized at. I'm telling this as I believe my father had a spontaneous K awakening that he was not ready for. He ended up schizophrenic when I was about this age. During mass, my father walked up to the front of the church in front of all the people after the priest asked anyone who wanted to speak on behalf of God and their experiences. I never noticed my father walked to the front and saw that my brother was slouched down and turning red from embarrassment. I thought my heart stopped as I knew my father was 'different'. He spoke of angels and how they called his name. My father's name was 'Angel', and how he had wonderful feelings of the presence of God. To this day, I've always wondered if I was right about his K awakening...he was indeed not ready, far from it actually. Soon after that I was asked to go to a night mass dedicated to the children of the church. The priest asked anyone who wished to be reborn to Baptism, to please step forward. At this point, I was tired of the church and had too many unanswered questions. But this request had a certain calling for me.I was curious, I wasn't really interested in Baptism or the church or to be involved as one of the members. My feet started to move without my conscious mind thinking about it first. I was now standing in front of the church with a hand full of others. As a few of us sat in another room resiting verses from the bible, my perception of 'now' was changed. I studied the priest as he read and I wondered if the words he read meant anything to him, or anything to the people around me. I wondered if he knew how powerful we all were as eternal souls and not God fearing people. I remembered him asking me questions as we continued my 'ritual'. I thought the questions were odd and after the second one I chuckled. I believe the questions were something like, Will you be a servant of God and do you fear God....., The priest told me this was not funny and to stop laughing. I didn't realize that I did and apologized. As he continued to read passages, I thought to myself that I was not a servant of God, because I was a child of God, he was my father, my creator and I have no fear in something that is everything that I am. But I gave away my sins, or what I saw was evil in my heart. All the bad thoughts, words, deeds, emotions that I experienced in my life were washed away at this moments. I approved of this cleansing. As I walked out of the church, I was bigger and wiser and clearer than 2 hours before. Perhaps this was a necessary step in my soul searching and evolution of me. I had the realization that I had the power to cleanse myself through the oneness of God. With that being said, I was 13. As a teenager in the 80's, I was weight conscious. I weighed myself every morning! When I got home from the church, I felt as if I needed to explode with emotion. I ran to our restroom downstairs and cried for a very long time. I had no reason to cry, but I cried to release all negative energy that resided in my heart. After I was done, of course, I stepped on the scale. I lost 7 pounds within the day!! I was already skinny to start with. I was completely beside myself. This was the physical proof I needed to see back then. I started to think more for myself and turned into a leader rather than a follower. It is so important that we are guided by those who hold more knowledge than ourselves, so that one day we can hold the hands of someone else who needs that guidance. Clean hearts to all Lisa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 11, 2006 Report Share Posted September 11, 2006 I do not think this is out of the question. First though, thank you for sharing this Lisa, and, for me the most important aspect was your realization of the necessity of the cleansing and of the use of the ritual for that cleansing. A great guided moment for you. As far as the weight goes I strongly feel that vision has weight so it isn't a stretch for me to see your perceived sins, for you at that time, as having a substance. - Just my take on this though - blessings - chrism Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 11, 2006 Report Share Posted September 11, 2006 That was a beautiful dear Lisa Thank you for sharing Namaste A. , lisa dermenof <lisadermenof wrote: > > I wanted to tell a story that inspired me years ago as a young girl. My > father started taking us to a Baptist church when we were 12 and 13. I > thought the place was calm and the people were nice. This was the church > my father was baptized at. I'm telling this as I believe my father had a > spontaneous K awakening that he was not ready for. He ended up > schizophrenic when I was about this age. During mass, my father walked > up to the front of the church in front of all the people after the > priest asked anyone who wanted to speak on behalf of God and their > experiences. I never noticed my father walked to the front and saw that > my brother was slouched down and turning red from embarrassment. I > thought my heart stopped as I knew my father was 'different'. > He spoke of angels and how they called his name. My father's name was > 'Angel', and how he had wonderful feelings of the presence of God. To > this day, I've always wondered if I was right about his K awakening...he > was indeed not ready, far from it actually. > Soon after that I was asked to go to a night mass dedicated to the > children of the church. The priest asked anyone who wished to be reborn > to Baptism, to please step forward. At this point, I was tired of the > church and had too many unanswered questions. But this request had a > certain calling for me.I was curious, I wasn't really interested in > Baptism or the church or to be involved as one of the members. My feet > started to move without my conscious mind thinking about it first. I was > now standing in front of the church with a hand full of others. > As a few of us sat in another room resiting verses from the bible, my > perception of 'now' was changed. > I studied the priest as he read and I wondered if the words he read > meant anything to him, or anything to the people around me. I wondered > if he knew how powerful we all were as eternal souls and not God fearing > people. I remembered him asking me questions as we continued my > 'ritual'. I thought the questions were odd and after the second one I > chuckled. I believe the questions were something like, Will you be a > servant of God and do you fear God....., The priest told me this was not > funny and to stop laughing. I didn't realize that I did and apologized. > As he continued to read passages, I thought to myself that I was not a > servant of God, because I was a child of God, he was my father, my > creator and I have no fear in something that is everything that I am. > But I gave away my sins, or what I saw was evil in my heart. All the bad > thoughts, words, deeds, emotions that I experienced in my life were > washed away at this moments. I approved of this cleansing. As I walked > out of the church, I was bigger and wiser and clearer than 2 hours before. > Perhaps this was a necessary step in my soul searching and evolution of > me. I had the realization that I had the power to cleanse myself through > the oneness of God. > With that being said, I was 13. As a teenager in the 80's, I was weight > conscious. I weighed myself every morning! When I got home from the > church, I felt as if I needed to explode with emotion. I ran to our > restroom downstairs and cried for a very long time. I had no reason to > cry, but I cried to release all negative energy that resided in my > heart. After I was done, of course, I stepped on the scale. I lost 7 > pounds within the day!! I was already skinny to start with. I was > completely beside myself. This was the physical proof I needed to see > back then. I started to think more for myself and turned into a leader > rather than a follower. > It is so important that we are guided by those who hold more knowledge > than ourselves, so that one day we can hold the hands of someone else > who needs that guidance. > Clean hearts to all > Lisa > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 11, 2006 Report Share Posted September 11, 2006 Hi Lisa, I think you may be correct, people always talk about the light, being lighter is the idea of a diet. That which is not of the light is more dense. Through the fall of humanity we became more dense, due to our "sins". And, the more I release the past, the thinner and lighter I become, I've noticed that. This maybe the diet idea of the century, cleanse your sins for thinner limbs!!! Love Elektra x x x Cars NEW - sell your car and browse thousands of new and used cars online search now Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 11, 2006 Report Share Posted September 11, 2006 " This maybe the diet idea of the century, cleanse your sins for thinner limbs!!! " That cracked me up LOL Thank you for the laughs dear Elektra ))) Namaste A. , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > Hi Lisa, > > I think you may be correct, people always talk about the light, being lighter is the idea of a diet. > That which is not of the light is more dense. Through the fall of humanity we became more dense, due to our " sins " . > > And, the more I release the past, the thinner and lighter I become, I've noticed that. > > This maybe the diet idea of the century, cleanse your sins for thinner limbs!!! > > Love Elektra x x x > > > > > > Cars NEW - sell your car and browse thousands of new and used cars online search now > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 11, 2006 Report Share Posted September 11, 2006 Hi Elektra You have me rolling all over the couch. I love you poetry. Much Love John M. On Behalf Of Elektra FireMonday, 11 September 2006 11:19 PM Subject: Re: Re: Sins contain matter/weight? Hi Lisa, I think you may be correct, people always talk about the light, being lighter is the idea of a diet. That which is not of the light is more dense. Through the fall of humanity we became more dense, due to our "sins". And, the more I release the past, the thinner and lighter I become, I've noticed that. This maybe the diet idea of the century, cleanse your sins for thinner limbs!!! Love Elektra x x x Cars NEW - sell your car and browse thousands of new and used cars online search now --Version: 7.1.405 / Virus Database: 268.12.2/442 - Release 8/09/2006 -- Version: 7.1.405 / Virus Database: 268.12.2/442 - Release 8/09/2006 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 11, 2006 Report Share Posted September 11, 2006 Yes, this is a great theory LOL Thank you all for your input! Lisa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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