Chris's K awakening

[Guest guest]

also i am very intrested to know.

shiva k

 

Kousik <r_koushik2003 wrote:

Hello Chris ,

 

Please tell us about your K awakening . What was your meditation ? what

were the ways you followed ? At which year ? How old were you ? . It

will help us i guess .I've heard many unique experiences ..I would like

to know about your experience.

 

Peace,

R.Koushik.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

When a person is born into this physicality they bring certain traits to the

body with them. As a baby and a young child the traits that came with me were

overwhelming. It took many years for me as a child and teenager to learn how to

turn them off - these traits. Some people would call them psychic traits. I

refer to them here as exalted skills, not to inflate the ego but to be truthful.

These skills left to a child are quite damaging and I had guidance but it was

still very difficult and most of the time in my first twenty one years I lived

in fear. Which is why I worked so hard to turn them of - the traits. I succeeded

for a time but they were still there waiting to be triggered back into full

expression.

 

When the traits returned I made a decision to go with them instead of fight them

and my development went at a brisk rate after that and I was able to use these

skills for certain purposes in my mundane life. I received permission to really

stretch my wings from a group of people led by a man named Lewis Bostwick. He

had an organization called the Berkley Psychic Institute. It was there that I

learned about how to control myself and in that process how to mitigate the

experiences that would occur. I took four months of classes from his group and

was taught on the Astral a few times that I remember. Mostly though it was the

permission that mattered as by that time I was using these precious skills

(ignorantly) but at least was ok with having them.

 

Having experienced astral projection as a child I became obsessed with

retrieving that skill and began to study it like a starving person eats food.

Four to six months passed before I could for certain know that " Yes that's me

sleeping and I am now OOB " Yeah! So I then began to experiment with some of

Carlos Castaneda's techniques. These worked for me as well. At this time I moved

to Yosemite Valley and began to feel the amplification of all those granite

crystals and negative ions. I fell in love and embarked upon a path of difficult

learning's.

 

My " traits " plus the permissive freedom, plus the crystals plus the negative

ionics - four and a half years of this - some encounters with spiritual beings

in Yosemite all began to add up. As the love relationship went sour and I

walked into my a room to see my fiance' sleeping with another, everything

collapsed for me and my Kundalini began to arouse. This was not a good thing.

Everything began to amplify. My traits caught on fire. I was angry and hurt and

full of deadly emotions. Even worse I began to know how to use them on purpose.

I had little guidance and was going to do some damage. The first person I

targeted was my ex-girlfriends lover. He was hit by a truck. Her second

boyfriend developed the flesh eating bacterium and almost died. At this point I

turned my anger and sorrow inward and began to contemplate suicide.

 

I cut my wrists and didn't do it right. I tried to hang myself but it hurt to

much, I tried to gas myself with the carbon monoxide but it ( for some reason)

would not work! I got frustrated with suicide. All the while my back would

writhe like a snake was inside it and I didn't know why and didn't care. I just

wanted out.

 

I became homeless for the next two and a half years. Excommunicated my family

and lived on the streets, in cars, etc. I seemed to be one of the few not

addicted to drugs, cigarettes or alcohol. I would see lights but had been able

to since I was a child. Entities and thoughts and OObs Not a big deal for me

anymore. I then began to go into places that were and are so horrible I will not

go into it here. Some things shouldn't EVER be mentioned and these places are in

that range. It was bad. Kundalini amplified it tremendously. Hell is a many

faceted place and I wandered there for a long time. All lower astral stuff.

Reaping what I had sown energetically. At this I tried to shut down the traits

again and was only marginal in success.

 

As I began to emerge from this self imposed prison I started volunteering at a

charitable hospital for homeless families and began to work with some very good

Md's. I still honor them and their willingness to reach into the poorest of the

poor to help and do the best they could do with extremely limited resources.

 

As I helped so was I in turn helped. So I began care giving and found that the

Kundalini responded very well to this even though I didn't know what to call it

at the time I definitely was feeling better. I also became a property manager

and rented rooms to students in a large home and lived there free. At this time

I began to go very deep into the Kundalini making the worst possible mistakes

along the way.

 

I meditated for a year straight. I had types of acupuncture done that was

another huge mistake as I would go far outside the protocols - making them up as

I felt the need. I learned about the Kundalini read Gopi Krishna's account and

said to myself " No way do I want that damn Kundalini! " So as I continued

meditating my skills became better and better. And as I read more and more about

the K I realized I was already deep inside it. I started feeling the inside out

bump at the brow of points and being able to move energy around the halo - pre

spinal sweep - and it was at this time that I went down to Brazil to visit " John

of God. " Thats a whole other story for another time but I did receive help and

kept in contact via scatterfield with that group as I came back to the states.

 

I have had three spinal sweeps and have been guided by the energy ever since.

It isn't me that Shaktipats and reads and gives advice it is the " Kundalini

inside. " The conscious force that is the Kundalini and its multidimensional

connectivity. I the me that I am " ego chris " isn't pulling the strings. He gets

in the way sometimes but always goes back to his seat. - all for now -

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

" Mr. Shiva k k " <shiva_mek wrote:

also i am very intrested to know.

shiva k

 

Kousik <r_koushik2003 wrote:

Hello Chris ,

 

Please tell us about your K awakening . What was your meditation ? what

were the ways you followed ? At which year ? How old were you ? . It

will help us i guess .I've heard many unique experiences ..I would like

to know about your experience.

 

Peace,

R.Koushik.

 

 

Get your email and more, right on the new .com

 

[Guest guest]

Hi Chrism,

 

What a story, amazing, thankyou. x x x You're an inspiration.

 

I wanted to ask you about alcohol and joints etc.

My work in China is a bit similar to Debs situation, it is a part of the

culture to drink, smoke and eat together. If I say no to everything I am seen as

an outsider, not friendly. Difficult.

So, I find myself partaking in substances that perhaps I don't really want.

I do however love smoking socially, joints, not cigarettes.

Will the K help me to gradually alter this?

 

I'm not attached to it as such, it's more a social thing.

 

But, I find myself getting a little miserable when I have to give up

everything, at once, sugar, milk, cakes, coffee, tea, bread, rice, citrus fruit,

nuts, alcohol, smoking. I have food allergies and all ready can't eat many

things.

I'll be living on air soon and have nothing to do socially with the people

here, this concerns my mind a bit.

 

I hate to always be an outsider, whats the balance ?

Does it come or should I force it more ?

 

My mind wanders as to what to do.

 

Much love Elektra x x x

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

" ...It isn't me that Shaktipats and reads and gives advice it is

the " Kundalini inside. " The conscious force that is the Kundalini

and its multidimensional connectivity. I the me that I am " ego

chris " isn't pulling the strings. He gets in the way sometimes but

always goes back to his seat... "

 

Awe :x

Thank you Chris for sharing this with us.

 

Namaste

A.

 

 

 

, chrism

<> wrote:

>

> When a person is born into this physicality they bring certain

traits to the body with them. As a baby and a young child the traits

that came with me were overwhelming. It took many years for me as a

child and teenager to learn how to turn them off - these traits.

Some people would call them psychic traits. I refer to them here as

exalted skills, not to inflate the ego but to be truthful. These

skills left to a child are quite damaging and I had guidance but it

was still very difficult and most of the time in my first twenty one

years I lived in fear. Which is why I worked so hard to turn them

of - the traits. I succeeded for a time but they were still there

waiting to be triggered back into full expression.

>

> When the traits returned I made a decision to go with them instead

of fight them and my development went at a brisk rate after that and

I was able to use these skills for certain purposes in my mundane

life. I received permission to really stretch my wings from a group

of people led by a man named Lewis Bostwick. He had an organization

called the Berkley Psychic Institute. It was there that I learned

about how to control myself and in that process how to mitigate the

experiences that would occur. I took four months of classes from his

group and was taught on the Astral a few times that I remember.

Mostly though it was the permission that mattered as by that time I

was using these precious skills (ignorantly) but at least was ok

with having them.

>

> Having experienced astral projection as a child I became obsessed

with retrieving that skill and began to study it like a starving

person eats food. Four to six months passed before I could for

certain know that " Yes that's me sleeping and I am now OOB " Yeah! So

I then began to experiment with some of Carlos Castaneda's

techniques. These worked for me as well. At this time I moved to

Yosemite Valley and began to feel the amplification of all those

granite crystals and negative ions. I fell in love and embarked upon

a path of difficult learning's.

>

> My " traits " plus the permissive freedom, plus the crystals plus

the negative ionics - four and a half years of this - some

encounters with spiritual beings in Yosemite all began to add up.

As the love relationship went sour and I walked into my a room to

see my fiance' sleeping with another, everything collapsed for me

and my Kundalini began to arouse. This was not a good thing.

Everything began to amplify. My traits caught on fire. I was angry

and hurt and full of deadly emotions. Even worse I began to know how

to use them on purpose. I had little guidance and was going to do

some damage. The first person I targeted was my ex-girlfriends

lover. He was hit by a truck. Her second boyfriend developed the

flesh eating bacterium and almost died. At this point I turned my

anger and sorrow inward and began to contemplate suicide.

>

> I cut my wrists and didn't do it right. I tried to hang myself but

it hurt to much, I tried to gas myself with the carbon monoxide but

it ( for some reason) would not work! I got frustrated with suicide.

All the while my back would writhe like a snake was inside it and I

didn't know why and didn't care. I just wanted out.

>

> I became homeless for the next two and a half years.

Excommunicated my family and lived on the streets, in cars, etc. I

seemed to be one of the few not addicted to drugs, cigarettes or

alcohol. I would see lights but had been able to since I was a

child. Entities and thoughts and OObs Not a big deal for me anymore.

I then began to go into places that were and are so horrible I will

not go into it here. Some things shouldn't EVER be mentioned and

these places are in that range. It was bad. Kundalini amplified it

tremendously. Hell is a many faceted place and I wandered there for

a long time. All lower astral stuff. Reaping what I had sown

energetically. At this I tried to shut down the traits again and was

only marginal in success.

>

> As I began to emerge from this self imposed prison I started

volunteering at a charitable hospital for homeless families and

began to work with some very good Md's. I still honor them and their

willingness to reach into the poorest of the poor to help and do the

best they could do with extremely limited resources.

>

> As I helped so was I in turn helped. So I began care giving and

found that the Kundalini responded very well to this even though I

didn't know what to call it at the time I definitely was feeling

better. I also became a property manager and rented rooms to

students in a large home and lived there free. At this time I began

to go very deep into the Kundalini making the worst possible

mistakes along the way.

>

> I meditated for a year straight. I had types of acupuncture done

that was another huge mistake as I would go far outside the

protocols - making them up as I felt the need. I learned about the

Kundalini read Gopi Krishna's account and said to myself " No way do

I want that damn Kundalini! " So as I continued meditating my skills

became better and better. And as I read more and more about the K I

realized I was already deep inside it. I started feeling the inside

out bump at the brow of points and being able to move energy around

the halo - pre spinal sweep - and it was at this time that I went

down to Brazil to visit " John of God. " Thats a whole other story for

another time but I did receive help and kept in contact via

scatterfield with that group as I came back to the states.

>

> I have had three spinal sweeps and have been guided by the energy

ever since. It isn't me that Shaktipats and reads and gives advice

it is the " Kundalini inside. " The conscious force that is the

Kundalini and its multidimensional connectivity. I the me that I

am " ego chris " isn't pulling the strings. He gets in the way

sometimes but always goes back to his seat. - all for now -

 

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

" Mr. Shiva k k " <shiva_mek

wrote: also i am very intrested to

know.

> shiva k

>

> Kousik <r_koushik2003 wrote:

> Hello Chris ,

>

> Please tell us about your K awakening . What was your

meditation ? what

> were the ways you followed ? At which year ? How old were you ? .

It

> will help us i guess .I've heard many unique experiences ..I

would like

> to know about your experience.

>

> Peace,

> R.Koushik.

>

>

>

> Get your email and more, right on the new .com

>

>

[Guest guest]

Wonderful story. I need to recommit to practice... Daily Tibetans

and meditation. Anything else? Bless you Chris, we're all glad you

survived those difficult times and made it through hell. James.

 

, chrism

<> wrote:

>

> When a person is born into this physicality they bring certain

traits to the body with them. As a baby and a young child the traits

that came with me were overwhelming. It took many years for me as a

child and teenager to learn how to turn them off - these traits.

Some people would call them psychic traits. I refer to them here as

exalted skills, not to inflate the ego but to be truthful. These

skills left to a child are quite damaging and I had guidance but it

was still very difficult and most of the time in my first twenty one

years I lived in fear. Which is why I worked so hard to turn them

of - the traits. I succeeded for a time but they were still there

waiting to be triggered back into full expression.

>

> When the traits returned I made a decision to go with them instead

of fight them and my development went at a brisk rate after that and

I was able to use these skills for certain purposes in my mundane

life. I received permission to really stretch my wings from a group

of people led by a man named Lewis Bostwick. He had an organization

called the Berkley Psychic Institute. It was there that I learned

about how to control myself and in that process how to mitigate the

experiences that would occur. I took four months of classes from his

group and was taught on the Astral a few times that I remember.

Mostly though it was the permission that mattered as by that time I

was using these precious skills (ignorantly) but at least was ok

with having them.

>

> Having experienced astral projection as a child I became obsessed

with retrieving that skill and began to study it like a starving

person eats food. Four to six months passed before I could for

certain know that " Yes that's me sleeping and I am now OOB " Yeah! So

I then began to experiment with some of Carlos Castaneda's

techniques. These worked for me as well. At this time I moved to

Yosemite Valley and began to feel the amplification of all those

granite crystals and negative ions. I fell in love and embarked upon

a path of difficult learning's.

>

> My " traits " plus the permissive freedom, plus the crystals plus

the negative ionics - four and a half years of this - some

encounters with spiritual beings in Yosemite all began to add up.

As the love relationship went sour and I walked into my a room to

see my fiance' sleeping with another, everything collapsed for me

and my Kundalini began to arouse. This was not a good thing.

Everything began to amplify. My traits caught on fire. I was angry

and hurt and full of deadly emotions. Even worse I began to know how

to use them on purpose. I had little guidance and was going to do

some damage. The first person I targeted was my ex-girlfriends

lover. He was hit by a truck. Her second boyfriend developed the

flesh eating bacterium and almost died. At this point I turned my

anger and sorrow inward and began to contemplate suicide.

>

> I cut my wrists and didn't do it right. I tried to hang myself but

it hurt to much, I tried to gas myself with the carbon monoxide but

it ( for some reason) would not work! I got frustrated with suicide.

All the while my back would writhe like a snake was inside it and I

didn't know why and didn't care. I just wanted out.

>

> I became homeless for the next two and a half years.

Excommunicated my family and lived on the streets, in cars, etc. I

seemed to be one of the few not addicted to drugs, cigarettes or

alcohol. I would see lights but had been able to since I was a

child. Entities and thoughts and OObs Not a big deal for me anymore.

I then began to go into places that were and are so horrible I will

not go into it here. Some things shouldn't EVER be mentioned and

these places are in that range. It was bad. Kundalini amplified it

tremendously. Hell is a many faceted place and I wandered there for

a long time. All lower astral stuff. Reaping what I had sown

energetically. At this I tried to shut down the traits again and was

only marginal in success.

>

> As I began to emerge from this self imposed prison I started

volunteering at a charitable hospital for homeless families and

began to work with some very good Md's. I still honor them and their

willingness to reach into the poorest of the poor to help and do the

best they could do with extremely limited resources.

>

> As I helped so was I in turn helped. So I began care giving and

found that the Kundalini responded very well to this even though I

didn't know what to call it at the time I definitely was feeling

better. I also became a property manager and rented rooms to

students in a large home and lived there free. At this time I began

to go very deep into the Kundalini making the worst possible

mistakes along the way.

>

> I meditated for a year straight. I had types of acupuncture done

that was another huge mistake as I would go far outside the

protocols - making them up as I felt the need. I learned about the

Kundalini read Gopi Krishna's account and said to myself " No way do

I want that damn Kundalini! " So as I continued meditating my skills

became better and better. And as I read more and more about the K I

realized I was already deep inside it. I started feeling the inside

out bump at the brow of points and being able to move energy around

the halo - pre spinal sweep - and it was at this time that I went

down to Brazil to visit " John of God. " Thats a whole other story for

another time but I did receive help and kept in contact via

scatterfield with that group as I came back to the states.

>

> I have had three spinal sweeps and have been guided by the energy

ever since. It isn't me that Shaktipats and reads and gives advice

it is the " Kundalini inside. " The conscious force that is the

Kundalini and its multidimensional connectivity. I the me that I

am " ego chris " isn't pulling the strings. He gets in the way

sometimes but always goes back to his seat. - all for now -

 

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

" Mr. Shiva k k " <shiva_mek

wrote: also i am very intrested to

know.

> shiva k

>

> Kousik <r_koushik2003 wrote:

> Hello Chris ,

>

> Please tell us about your K awakening . What was your

meditation ? what

> were the ways you followed ? At which year ? How old were you ? .

It

> will help us i guess .I've heard many unique experiences ..I

would like

> to know about your experience.

>

> Peace,

> R.Koushik.

>

>

>

> Get your email and more, right on the new .com

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thank you Chris for sharing your story with us.

love and blessings, Robin

-

Thursday, September 14, 2006 3:02 AM

Re: Chris's K awakening

 

 

When a person is born into this physicality they bring certain traits to the

body with them. As a baby and a young child the traits that came with me were

overwhelming. It took many years for me as a child and teenager to learn how to

turn them off - these traits. Some people would call them psychic traits. I

refer to them here as exalted skills, not to inflate the ego but to be truthful.

These skills left to a child are quite damaging and I had guidance but it was

still very difficult and most of the time in my first twenty one years I lived

in fear. Which is why I worked so hard to turn them of - the traits. I succeeded

for a time but they were still there waiting to be triggered back into full

expression.

 

When the traits returned I made a decision to go with them instead of fight

them and my development went at a brisk rate after that and I was able to use

these skills for certain purposes in my mundane life. I received permission to

really stretch my wings from a group of people led by a man named Lewis

Bostwick. He had an organization called the Berkley Psychic Institute. It was

there that I learned about how to control myself and in that process how to

mitigate the experiences that would occur. I took four months of classes from

his group and was taught on the Astral a few times that I remember. Mostly

though it was the permission that mattered as by that time I was using these

precious skills (ignorantly) but at least was ok with having them.

 

Having experienced astral projection as a child I became obsessed with

retrieving that skill and began to study it like a starving person eats food.

Four to six months passed before I could for certain know that " Yes that's me

sleeping and I am now OOB " Yeah! So I then began to experiment with some of

Carlos Castaneda's techniques. These worked for me as well. At this time I moved

to Yosemite Valley and began to feel the amplification of all those granite

crystals and negative ions. I fell in love and embarked upon a path of difficult

learning's.

 

My " traits " plus the permissive freedom, plus the crystals plus the negative

ionics - four and a half years of this - some encounters with spiritual beings

in Yosemite all began to add up. As the love relationship went sour and I walked

into my a room to see my fiance' sleeping with another, everything collapsed for

me and my Kundalini began to arouse. This was not a good thing. Everything began

to amplify. My traits caught on fire. I was angry and hurt and full of deadly

emotions. Even worse I began to know how to use them on purpose. I had little

guidance and was going to do some damage. The first person I targeted was my

ex-girlfriends lover. He was hit by a truck. Her second boyfriend developed the

flesh eating bacterium and almost died. At this point I turned my anger and

sorrow inward and began to contemplate suicide.

 

I cut my wrists and didn't do it right. I tried to hang myself but it hurt to

much, I tried to gas myself with the carbon monoxide but it ( for some reason)

would not work! I got frustrated with suicide. All the while my back would

writhe like a snake was inside it and I didn't know why and didn't care. I just

wanted out.

 

I became homeless for the next two and a half years. Excommunicated my family

and lived on the streets, in cars, etc. I seemed to be one of the few not

addicted to drugs, cigarettes or alcohol. I would see lights but had been able

to since I was a child. Entities and thoughts and OObs Not a big deal for me

anymore. I then began to go into places that were and are so horrible I will not

go into it here. Some things shouldn't EVER be mentioned and these places are in

that range. It was bad. Kundalini amplified it tremendously. Hell is a many

faceted place and I wandered there for a long time. All lower astral stuff.

Reaping what I had sown energetically. At this I tried to shut down the traits

again and was only marginal in success.

 

As I began to emerge from this self imposed prison I started volunteering at a

charitable hospital for homeless families and began to work with some very good

Md's. I still honor them and their willingness to reach into the poorest of the

poor to help and do the best they could do with extremely limited resources.

 

As I helped so was I in turn helped. So I began care giving and found that the

Kundalini responded very well to this even though I didn't know what to call it

at the time I definitely was feeling better. I also became a property manager

and rented rooms to students in a large home and lived there free. At this time

I began to go very deep into the Kundalini making the worst possible mistakes

along the way.

 

I meditated for a year straight. I had types of acupuncture done that was

another huge mistake as I would go far outside the protocols - making them up as

I felt the need. I learned about the Kundalini read Gopi Krishna's account and

said to myself " No way do I want that damn Kundalini! " So as I continued

meditating my skills became better and better. And as I read more and more about

the K I realized I was already deep inside it. I started feeling the inside out

bump at the brow of points and being able to move energy around the halo - pre

spinal sweep - and it was at this time that I went down to Brazil to visit " John

of God. " Thats a whole other story for another time but I did receive help and

kept in contact via scatterfield with that group as I came back to the states.

 

I have had three spinal sweeps and have been guided by the energy ever since.

It isn't me that Shaktipats and reads and gives advice it is the " Kundalini

inside. " The conscious force that is the Kundalini and its multidimensional

connectivity. I the me that I am " ego chris " isn't pulling the strings. He gets

in the way sometimes but always goes back to his seat. - all for now - blessings

- chrism

 

" Mr. Shiva k k " <shiva_mek wrote: also i am very intrested to know.

shiva k

 

Kousik <r_koushik2003 wrote:

Hello Chris ,

 

Please tell us about your K awakening . What was your meditation ? what

were the ways you followed ? At which year ? How old were you ? . It

will help us i guess .I've heard many unique experiences ..I would like

to know about your experience.

 

Peace,

R.Koushik.

 

 

Get your email and more, right on the new .com

 

[Guest guest]

Great Story Chris .Thanks for sharing with us

 

Peace,

Koushik.

, chrism

<> wrote:

>

> When a person is born into this physicality they bring certain

traits to the body with them. As a baby and a young child the traits

that came with me were overwhelming. It took many years for me as a

child and teenager to learn how to turn them off - these traits. Some

people would call them psychic traits. I refer to them here as

exalted skills, not to inflate the ego but to be truthful. These

skills left to a child are quite damaging and I had guidance but it

was still very difficult and most of the time in my first twenty one

years I lived in fear. Which is why I worked so hard to turn them of -

the traits. I succeeded for a time but they were still there waiting

to be triggered back into full expression.

>

> When the traits returned I made a decision to go with them instead

of fight them and my development went at a brisk rate after that and

I was able to use these skills for certain purposes in my mundane

life. I received permission to really stretch my wings from a group

of people led by a man named Lewis Bostwick. He had an organization

called the Berkley Psychic Institute. It was there that I learned

about how to control myself and in that process how to mitigate the

experiences that would occur. I took four months of classes from his

group and was taught on the Astral a few times that I remember.

Mostly though it was the permission that mattered as by that time I

was using these precious skills (ignorantly) but at least was ok with

having them.

>

> Having experienced astral projection as a child I became obsessed

with retrieving that skill and began to study it like a starving

person eats food. Four to six months passed before I could for

certain know that " Yes that's me sleeping and I am now OOB " Yeah! So

I then began to experiment with some of Carlos Castaneda's

techniques. These worked for me as well. At this time I moved to

Yosemite Valley and began to feel the amplification of all those

granite crystals and negative ions. I fell in love and embarked upon

a path of difficult learning's.

>

> My " traits " plus the permissive freedom, plus the crystals plus the

negative ionics - four and a half years of this - some encounters

with spiritual beings in Yosemite all began to add up. As the love

relationship went sour and I walked into my a room to see my fiance'

sleeping with another, everything collapsed for me and my Kundalini

began to arouse. This was not a good thing. Everything began to

amplify. My traits caught on fire. I was angry and hurt and full of

deadly emotions. Even worse I began to know how to use them on

purpose. I had little guidance and was going to do some damage. The

first person I targeted was my ex-girlfriends lover. He was hit by a

truck. Her second boyfriend developed the flesh eating bacterium and

almost died. At this point I turned my anger and sorrow inward and

began to contemplate suicide.

>

> I cut my wrists and didn't do it right. I tried to hang myself but

it hurt to much, I tried to gas myself with the carbon monoxide but

it ( for some reason) would not work! I got frustrated with suicide.

All the while my back would writhe like a snake was inside it and I

didn't know why and didn't care. I just wanted out.

>

> I became homeless for the next two and a half years.

Excommunicated my family and lived on the streets, in cars, etc. I

seemed to be one of the few not addicted to drugs, cigarettes or

alcohol. I would see lights but had been able to since I was a child.

Entities and thoughts and OObs Not a big deal for me anymore. I then

began to go into places that were and are so horrible I will not go

into it here. Some things shouldn't EVER be mentioned and these

places are in that range. It was bad. Kundalini amplified it

tremendously. Hell is a many faceted place and I wandered there for a

long time. All lower astral stuff. Reaping what I had sown

energetically. At this I tried to shut down the traits again and was

only marginal in success.

>

> As I began to emerge from this self imposed prison I started

volunteering at a charitable hospital for homeless families and began

to work with some very good Md's. I still honor them and their

willingness to reach into the poorest of the poor to help and do the

best they could do with extremely limited resources.

>

> As I helped so was I in turn helped. So I began care giving and

found that the Kundalini responded very well to this even though I

didn't know what to call it at the time I definitely was feeling

better. I also became a property manager and rented rooms to students

in a large home and lived there free. At this time I began to go very

deep into the Kundalini making the worst possible mistakes along the

way.

>

> I meditated for a year straight. I had types of acupuncture done

that was another huge mistake as I would go far outside the

protocols - making them up as I felt the need. I learned about the

Kundalini read Gopi Krishna's account and said to myself " No way do I

want that damn Kundalini! " So as I continued meditating my skills

became better and better. And as I read more and more about the K I

realized I was already deep inside it. I started feeling the inside

out bump at the brow of points and being able to move energy around

the halo - pre spinal sweep - and it was at this time that I went

down to Brazil to visit " John of God. " Thats a whole other story for

another time but I did receive help and kept in contact via

scatterfield with that group as I came back to the states.

>

> I have had three spinal sweeps and have been guided by the energy

ever since. It isn't me that Shaktipats and reads and gives advice it

is the " Kundalini inside. " The conscious force that is the Kundalini

and its multidimensional connectivity. I the me that I am " ego chris "

isn't pulling the strings. He gets in the way sometimes but always

goes back to his seat. - all for now -

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

" Mr. Shiva k k " <shiva_mek

wrote: also i am very intrested to

know.

> shiva k

>

> Kousik <r_koushik2003 wrote:

> Hello Chris ,

>

> Please tell us about your K awakening . What was your meditation ?

what

> were the ways you followed ? At which year ? How old were you ? .

It

> will help us i guess .I've heard many unique experiences ..I would

like

> to know about your experience.

>

> Peace,

> R.Koushik.

>

>

>

> Get your email and more, right on the new .com

>

>

[Guest guest]

Chrism,

 

Even in the " tough " times you touched and " healed " many.

Thank-you for sharing this.

 

BlessU

Sam

, chrism

<> wrote:

>

> When a person is born into this physicality they bring certain

traits to the body with them. As a baby and a young child the traits

that came with me were overwhelming. It took many years for me as a

[Guest guest]

Thank you Chris for sharing your story with all of us!

 

Much Love and Peace for Eternity,

Katherine

 

chrism <> wrote:

When a person is born into this physicality they bring certain traits

to the body with them. As a baby and a young child the traits that came with me

were overwhelming. It took many years for me as a child and teenager to learn

how to turn them off - these traits. Some people would call them psychic traits.

I refer to them here as exalted skills, not to inflate the ego but to be

truthful. These skills left to a child are quite damaging and I had guidance but

it was still very difficult and most of the time in my first twenty one years I

lived in fear. Which is why I worked so hard to turn them of - the traits. I

succeeded for a time but they were still there waiting to be triggered back into

full expression.

 

When the traits returned I made a decision to go with them instead of fight them

and my development went at a brisk rate after that and I was able to use these

skills for certain purposes in my mundane life. I received permission to really

stretch my wings from a group of people led by a man named Lewis Bostwick. He

had an organization called the Berkley Psychic Institute. It was there that I

learned about how to control myself and in that process how to mitigate the

experiences that would occur. I took four months of classes from his group and

was taught on the Astral a few times that I remember. Mostly though it was the

permission that mattered as by that time I was using these precious skills

(ignorantly) but at least was ok with having them.

 

Having experienced astral projection as a child I became obsessed with

retrieving that skill and began to study it like a starving person eats food.

Four to six months passed before I could for certain know that " Yes that's me

sleeping and I am now OOB " Yeah! So I then began to experiment with some of

Carlos Castaneda's techniques. These worked for me as well. At this time I moved

to Yosemite Valley and began to feel the amplification of all those granite

crystals and negative ions. I fell in love and embarked upon a path of difficult

learning's.

 

My " traits " plus the permissive freedom, plus the crystals plus the negative

ionics - four and a half years of this - some encounters with spiritual beings

in Yosemite all began to add up. As the love relationship went sour and I walked

into my a room to see my fiance' sleeping with another, everything collapsed for

me and my Kundalini began to arouse. This was not a good thing. Everything began

to amplify. My traits caught on fire. I was angry and hurt and full of deadly

emotions. Even worse I began to know how to use them on purpose. I had little

guidance and was going to do some damage. The first person I targeted was my

ex-girlfriends lover. He was hit by a truck. Her second boyfriend developed the

flesh eating bacterium and almost died. At this point I turned my anger and

sorrow inward and began to contemplate suicide.

 

I cut my wrists and didn't do it right. I tried to hang myself but it hurt to

much, I tried to gas myself with the carbon monoxide but it ( for some reason)

would not work! I got frustrated with suicide. All the while my back would

writhe like a snake was inside it and I didn't know why and didn't care. I just

wanted out.

 

I became homeless for the next two and a half years. Excommunicated my family

and lived on the streets, in cars, etc. I seemed to be one of the few not

addicted to drugs, cigarettes or alcohol. I would see lights but had been able

to since I was a child. Entities and thoughts and OObs Not a big deal for me

anymore. I then began to go into places that were and are so horrible I will not

go into it here. Some things shouldn't EVER be mentioned and these places are in

that range. It was bad. Kundalini amplified it tremendously. Hell is a many

faceted place and I wandered there for a long time. All lower astral stuff.

Reaping what I had sown energetically. At this I tried to shut down the traits

again and was only marginal in success.

 

As I began to emerge from this self imposed prison I started volunteering at a

charitable hospital for homeless families and began to work with some very good

Md's. I still honor them and their willingness to reach into the poorest of the

poor to help and do the best they could do with extremely limited resources.

 

As I helped so was I in turn helped. So I began care giving and found that the

Kundalini responded very well to this even though I didn't know what to call it

at the time I definitely was feeling better. I also became a property manager

and rented rooms to students in a large home and lived there free. At this time

I began to go very deep into the Kundalini making the worst possible mistakes

along the way.

 

I meditated for a year straight. I had types of acupuncture done that was

another huge mistake as I would go far outside the protocols - making them up as

I felt the need. I learned about the Kundalini read Gopi Krishna's account and

said to myself " No way do I want that damn Kundalini! " So as I continued

meditating my skills became better and better. And as I read more and more about

the K I realized I was already deep inside it. I started feeling the inside out

bump at the brow of points and being able to move energy around the halo - pre

spinal sweep - and it was at this time that I went down to Brazil to visit " John

of God. " Thats a whole other story for another time but I did receive help and

kept in contact via scatterfield with that group as I came back to the states.

 

I have had three spinal sweeps and have been guided by the energy ever since. It

isn't me that Shaktipats and reads and gives advice it is the " Kundalini

inside. " The conscious force that is the Kundalini and its multidimensional

connectivity. I the me that I am " ego chris " isn't pulling the strings. He gets

in the way sometimes but always goes back to his seat. - all for now - blessings

- chrism

 

" Mr. Shiva k k " <shiva_mek wrote: also i am very intrested to know.

shiva k

 

Kousik <r_koushik2003 wrote:

Hello Chris ,

 

Please tell us about your K awakening . What was your meditation ? what

were the ways you followed ? At which year ? How old were you ? . It

will help us i guess .I've heard many unique experiences ..I would like

to know about your experience.

 

Peace,

R.Koushik.

 

 

 

Get your email and more, right on the new .com

 

 

[Guest guest]

Decide, without judgement, how you wish to live your life. Live your

life in that fashion and the rest will follow. There will be no need

to " control " it.

 

BlessU

Sam

 

, Elektra Fire

<elektra.fire wrote:

>

> Hi Chrism,

>

> What a story, amazing, thankyou. x x x You're an inspiration.

>

> I wanted to ask you about alcohol and joints etc.

> My work in China is a bit similar to Debs situation, it is a part

of the culture to drink, smoke and eat together. If I say no to

everything I am seen as an outsider, not friendly. Difficult.

[Guest guest]

What an incredible past. I am so glad it turned out the way it did, or

there wouldn't be this group and all these

wonderful people here. I know what's it like to fight off AP, I tried

to do it for many years as a teenager. You mentioned seeing 'lights',

are you referring

to orb/spark type lights? If so, they are quite frequent at times these

days.

Will they increase or evolve into something more?

Thank you so much for sharing your past. I had this thought to write a

screenplay on your life,

it would be a block buster

love and light

lisa

 

chrism wrote:

>

> When a person is born into this physicality they bring certain traits

> to the body with them. As a baby and a young child the traits that

> came with me were overwhelming. It took many years for me as a child

> and teenager to learn how to turn them off - these traits. Some people

> would call them psychic traits. I refer to them here as exalted

> skills, not to inflate the ego but to be truthful. These skills left

> to a child are quite damaging and I had guidance but it was still very

> difficult and most of the time in my first twenty one years I lived in

> fear. Which is why I worked so hard to turn them of - the traits. I

> succeeded for a time but they were still there waiting to be triggered

> back into full expression.

>

> When the traits returned I made a decision to go with them instead of

> fight them and my development went at a brisk rate after that and I

> was able to use these skills for certain purposes in my mundane life.

> I received permission to really stretch my wings from a group of

> people led by a man named Lewis Bostwick. He had an organization

> called the Berkley Psychic Institute. It was there that I learned

> about how to control myself and in that process how to mitigate the

> experiences that would occur. I took four months of classes from his

> group and was taught on the Astral a few times that I remember. Mostly

> though it was the permission that mattered as by that time I was using

> these precious skills (ignorantly) but at least was ok with having them.

>

> Having experienced astral projection as a child I became obsessed with

> retrieving that skill and began to study it like a starving person

> eats food. Four to six months passed before I could for certain know

> that " Yes that's me sleeping and I am now OOB " Yeah! So I then began

> to experiment with some of Carlos Castaneda's techniques. These worked

> for me as well. At this time I moved to Yosemite Valley and began to

> feel the amplification of all those granite crystals and negative

> ions. I fell in love and embarked upon a path of difficult learning's.

>

> My " traits " plus the permissive freedom, plus the crystals plus the

> negative ionics - four and a half years of this - some encounters with

> spiritual beings in Yosemite all began to add up. As the love

> relationship went sour and I walked into my a room to see my fiance'

> sleeping with another, everything collapsed for me and my Kundalini

> began to arouse. This was not a good thing. Everything began to

> amplify. My traits caught on fire. I was angry and hurt and full of

> deadly emotions. Even worse I began to know how to use them on

> purpose. I had little guidance and was going to do some damage. The

> first person I targeted was my ex-girlfriends lover. He was hit by a

> truck. Her second boyfriend developed the flesh eating bacterium and

> almost died. At this point I turned my anger and sorrow inward and

> began to contemplate suicide.

>

> I cut my wrists and didn't do it right. I tried to hang myself but it

> hurt to much, I tried to gas myself with the carbon monoxide but it (

> for some reason) would not work! I got frustrated with suicide. All

> the while my back would writhe like a snake was inside it and I didn't

> know why and didn't care. I just wanted out.

>

> I became homeless for the next two and a half years. Excommunicated my

> family and lived on the streets, in cars, etc. I seemed to be one of

> the few not addicted to drugs, cigarettes or alcohol. I would see

> lights but had been able to since I was a child. Entities and thoughts

> and OObs Not a big deal for me anymore. I then began to go into places

> that were and are so horrible I will not go into it here. Some things

> shouldn't EVER be mentioned and these places are in that range. It was

> bad. Kundalini amplified it tremendously. Hell is a many faceted place

> and I wandered there for a long time. All lower astral stuff. Reaping

> what I had sown energetically. At this I tried to shut down the traits

> again and was only marginal in success.

>

> As I began to emerge from this self imposed prison I started

> volunteering at a charitable hospital for homeless families and began

> to work with some very good Md's. I still honor them and their

> willingness to reach into the poorest of the poor to help and do the

> best they could do with extremely limited resources.

>

> As I helped so was I in turn helped. So I began care giving and found

> that the Kundalini responded very well to this even though I didn't

> know what to call it at the time I definitely was feeling better. I

> also became a property manager and rented rooms to students in a large

> home and lived there free. At this time I began to go very deep into

> the Kundalini making the worst possible mistakes along the way.

>

> I meditated for a year straight. I had types of acupuncture done that

> was another huge mistake as I would go far outside the protocols -

> making them up as I felt the need. I learned about the Kundalini read

> Gopi Krishna's account and said to myself " No way do I want that damn

> Kundalini! " So as I continued meditating my skills became better and

> better. And as I read more and more about the K I realized I was

> already deep inside it. I started feeling the inside out bump at the

> brow of points and being able to move energy around the halo - pre

> spinal sweep - and it was at this time that I went down to Brazil to

> visit " John of God. " Thats a whole other story for another time but I

> did receive help and kept in contact via scatterfield with that group

> as I came back to the states.

>

> I have had three spinal sweeps and have been guided by the energy ever

> since. It isn't me that Shaktipats and reads and gives advice it is

> the " Kundalini inside. " The conscious force that is the Kundalini and

> its multidimensional connectivity. I the me that I am " ego chris "

> isn't pulling the strings. He gets in the way sometimes but always

> goes back to his seat. - all for now -

>

> " Mr. Shiva k k " <shiva_mek <shiva_mek%40>>

> wrote: also i am very intrested to know.

> shiva k

>

> Kousik <r_koushik2003 <r_koushik2003%40>> wrote:

> Hello Chris ,

>

> Please tell us about your K awakening . What was your meditation ? what

> were the ways you followed ? At which year ? How old were you ? . It

> will help us i guess .I've heard many unique experiences ..I would like

> to know about your experience.

>

> Peace,

> R.Koushik.

>

>

>

> Get your email and more, right on the new .com

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hello Elektra,

You must source yourself and as you do your source will let

you know what is best. -

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

??Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote:

Hi Chrism,

 

What a story, amazing, thankyou. x x x You're an inspiration.

 

I wanted to ask you about alcohol and joints etc.

My work in China is a bit similar to Debs situation, it is a part of the

culture to drink, smoke and eat together. If I say no to everything I am seen as

an outsider, not friendly. Difficult.

So, I find myself partaking in substances that perhaps I don't really want.

I do however love smoking socially, joints, not cigarettes.

Will the K help me to gradually alter this?

 

I'm not attached to it as such, it's more a social thing.

 

But, I find myself getting a little miserable when I have to give up

everything, at once, sugar, milk, cakes, coffee, tea, bread, rice, citrus fruit,

nuts, alcohol, smoking. I have food allergies and all ready can't eat many

things.

I'll be living on air soon and have nothing to do socially with the people

here, this concerns my mind a bit.

 

I hate to always be an outsider, whats the balance ?

Does it come or should I force it more ?

 

My mind wanders as to what to do.

 

Much love Elektra x x x

 

 

All new Mail " The new Interface is stunning in its simplicity and ease

of use. " - PC Magazine

 

[Guest guest]

Dear Sam and Chrism,

Thankyou as always for input.

I have no problem with the way I live, I really

believe that all is God, so how can anything be bad

really?

Isn't that a manmade idea ?

I think that other people make judgements about what

is good for you , what is sacred and what is not. But

surely everything is perfect and sacred all of the

time, so how can anythying be wrong?

 

Thanks for everything, all is good.

 

So much love, Elektra x x x

PS

I am sourcing myself I think, my inner voice guides me

clearly.

x x x

 

--- chrism <> wrote:

 

>

> Hello Elektra,

> You must source yourself and as

> you do your source will let you know what is best. -

>

>

>

>

??Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote:

> Hi Chrism,

>

> What a story, amazing, thankyou. x x x You're an

> inspiration.

>

> I wanted to ask you about alcohol and joints etc.

> My work in China is a bit similar to Debs

> situation, it is a part of the culture to drink,

> smoke and eat together. If I say no to everything I

> am seen as an outsider, not friendly. Difficult.

> So, I find myself partaking in substances that

> perhaps I don't really want.

> I do however love smoking socially, joints, not

> cigarettes.

> Will the K help me to gradually alter this?

>

> I'm not attached to it as such, it's more a

> social thing.

>

> But, I find myself getting a little miserable

> when I have to give up everything, at once, sugar,

> milk, cakes, coffee, tea, bread, rice, citrus fruit,

> nuts, alcohol, smoking. I have food allergies and

> all ready can't eat many things.

> I'll be living on air soon and have nothing to do

> socially with the people here, this concerns my mind

> a bit.

>

> I hate to always be an outsider, whats the

> balance ?

> Does it come or should I force it more ?

>

> My mind wanders as to what to do.

>

> Much love Elektra x x x

>

>

>

> All new Mail " The new Interface is stunning

> in its simplicity and ease of use. " - PC Magazine

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

[Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hello all,

Yes, my activation was a difficult one under very trying

circumstances. This was as it should be though as I came through it anyway

somewhat intact. Yours will not be this way if you study and practice what is

given here. I needed to have it the way I received it in order to put the

safeties in place, and the techniques and the practice. There are many

traditions contained in the practice we have here. Bhakti, Tibetan, Christian,

Islam, Buddha, Tao among many others. This was designed to be as inclusive as

possible as Kundalini is a trans-cultural phenomena.

 

So when you read my experience and there is much more. Do not feel that this

is the way your going to go - it isn't. Unless you need it to be. The fact that

your here reading this is an indication that you do not need it to be the way I

experienced it and that you are ready to embrace a powerful love based

physio-spiritual activity waiting to be or already released within you. -

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

A good treatise which is an immence inspiration for beginners like me.

with all my love thank u chris.

shiva k

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

Blessings Shiva K - chrism

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

, chrism

<> wrote:

>

Dear Chris,

 

Why did you have three spinal sweeps? Reason due to blockages at

chakras? ..as the kundalini went into a blockage ..instead of

shooting out of the crown ?

 

I know that i have blockages at 3rd eye ..assume that if my kundalini

comes up like a bullet train..what would happen if it encounters the

blockages at 3rd eye ? .

 

Peace,

KOushik.

>

> I have had three spinal sweeps and have been guided by the energy

ever since. It isn't me that Shaktipats and reads and gives advice it

is the " Kundalini inside. " The conscious force that is the Kundalini

and its multidimensional connectivity. I the me that I am " ego chris "

isn't pulling the strings. He gets in the way sometimes but always

goes back to his seat. - all for now -

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

" Mr. Shiva k k " <shiva_mek

wrote: also i am very intrested to

know.

> shiva k

>

> Kousik <r_koushik2003 wrote:

> Hello Chris ,

>

> Please tell us about your K awakening . What was your meditation ?

what

> were the ways you followed ? At which year ? How old were you ? .

It

> will help us i guess .I've heard many unique experiences ..I would

like

> to know about your experience.

>

> Peace,

> R.Koushik.

>

>

>

> Get your email and more, right on the new .com

>

>