I'm new to the group and have a question

[Guest guest]

Hi everyone

 

I am new to the group. I haven't had a chance to read through the posts here

yet, but I

would like to introduce myself and explain my situtation.

 

I experienced a sponaneous awakening about one year ago that was very intense.

It

continued throughout the year, without my understanding of what the experience

really

was. Many many visions, and spontaneous abilities such as bilocation, hands on

healing,

and psychic abilities appeared in me while I was unaware of the reason. I was

also

channeling without understanding what it was. I found out a few months back

that this

was all part of what is called kundalini awakening. I did see myself transform

into a more

loving person and very spiritual person, but also found a dark side come out

that still

haunts me a bit. I had visions about one man, I became obsessed with him, and I

am only

recently able to come to terms with the fact that he has no interest in me. I

have done

things like write him letters after he has asked me not to do so. It pains me

that I have

this one issue that keeps coming up where I seem to have shown a lack of love

and

allowed my ego to tell me that something was different from what it was. I have

created

discomfort for this person, and I am pained by this. Has anyone else seen

themselves go

through something that is an aggressive and inappropriate behavior during all of

this

other beautiful enlightening opening? I took huge forward leaps in so many

ways, and

found myself to be able to find love for people who were extremely difficult

personalities

in my life, and was able to do so much to help so many people during this time,

and then

there is this thing that I did to one person that is so obnoxious and painful.

At times, it

was seeming like channels doing it, like I was under the influence of other

spirits. There

was this big connection to Tibetan buddhism in some of my experiences, and that

is his

religion. But now, it feels like what has been left is just me and my ego doing

the same

thing, not letting go. I just finally told him that, as my doctor, he has to

drop me as a

client because I haven't managed to respect his requests. My last letter made

him angry,

and I feel terrible about being so insane and making him unhappy! I am doing

some work

with a healer who helps very much with this kind of issue, but I would just like

to hear

about it if I am not the only one who has let loose some kind of lunatic part of

me.

[Guest guest]

Hello Mandreastewart,

 

Welcome to the group. Regarding your experience: The kundalini energy

intensifies all emotions, and can bring about obsessive and extreme

behaviors just like it can do much to heal and enhance our

spirituality. After all, thoughts and emotions are energy, too... The

key is to retain awareness--to witness--one's emotions and thoughts

24/7. When a negative thought/emotion arises, observe it with

detachment, and let go of it. Surrender it gently, without engaging it

in a fight that would create attachment.

 

Hope this helps,

 

Sel

 

 

 

 

, " mandreastewart "

<mandreastewart wrote:

>

>

> Hi everyone

>

> I am new to the group. I haven't had a chance to read through the

posts here yet, but I

> would like to introduce myself and explain my situtation.

>

> I experienced a sponaneous awakening about one year ago that was

very intense. It

> continued throughout the year, without my understanding of what the

experience really

> was. Many many visions, and spontaneous abilities such as

bilocation, hands on healing,

> and psychic abilities appeared in me while I was unaware of the

reason. I was also

> channeling without understanding what it was. I found out a few

months back that this

> was all part of what is called kundalini awakening. I did see

myself transform into a more

> loving person and very spiritual person, but also found a dark side

come out that still

> haunts me a bit. I had visions about one man, I became obsessed

with him, and I am only

> recently able to come to terms with the fact that he has no interest

in me. I have done

> things like write him letters after he has asked me not to do so.

It pains me that I have

> this one issue that keeps coming up where I seem to have shown a

lack of love and

> allowed my ego to tell me that something was different from what it

was. I have created

> discomfort for this person, and I am pained by this. Has anyone

else seen themselves go

> through something that is an aggressive and inappropriate behavior

during all of this

> other beautiful enlightening opening? I took huge forward leaps in

so many ways, and

> found myself to be able to find love for people who were extremely

difficult personalities

> in my life, and was able to do so much to help so many people during

this time, and then

> there is this thing that I did to one person that is so obnoxious

and painful. At times, it

> was seeming like channels doing it, like I was under the influence

of other spirits. There

> was this big connection to Tibetan buddhism in some of my

experiences, and that is his

> religion. But now, it feels like what has been left is just me and

my ego doing the same

> thing, not letting go. I just finally told him that, as my doctor,

he has to drop me as a

> client because I haven't managed to respect his requests. My last

letter made him angry,

> and I feel terrible about being so insane and making him unhappy! I

am doing some work

> with a healer who helps very much with this kind of issue, but I

would just like to hear

> about it if I am not the only one who has let loose some kind of

lunatic part of me.

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Sel

thank you so much for this

 

I appreciate your input. I am hoping that now that I can tell what it is, I

will be able to take

your advice instead of letting this stuff wreak havoc.

 

m

 

 

 

, " selena230 "

<selena230

wrote:

>

> Hello Mandreastewart,

>

> Welcome to the group. Regarding your experience: The kundalini energy

> intensifies all emotions, and can bring about obsessive and extreme

> behaviors just like it can do much to heal and enhance our

> spirituality. After all, thoughts and emotions are energy, too... The

> key is to retain awareness--to witness--one's emotions and thoughts

> 24/7. When a negative thought/emotion arises, observe it with

> detachment, and let go of it. Surrender it gently, without engaging it

> in a fight that would create attachment.

>

> Hope this helps,

>

> Sel

>

>

>

>

> , " mandreastewart "

> <mandreastewart@> wrote:

> >

> >

> > Hi everyone

> >

> > I am new to the group. I haven't had a chance to read through the

> posts here yet, but I

> > would like to introduce myself and explain my situtation.

> >

> > I experienced a sponaneous awakening about one year ago that was

> very intense. It

> > continued throughout the year, without my understanding of what the

> experience really

> > was. Many many visions, and spontaneous abilities such as

> bilocation, hands on healing,

> > and psychic abilities appeared in me while I was unaware of the

> reason. I was also

> > channeling without understanding what it was. I found out a few

> months back that this

> > was all part of what is called kundalini awakening. I did see

> myself transform into a more

> > loving person and very spiritual person, but also found a dark side

> come out that still

> > haunts me a bit. I had visions about one man, I became obsessed

> with him, and I am only

> > recently able to come to terms with the fact that he has no interest

> in me. I have done

> > things like write him letters after he has asked me not to do so.

> It pains me that I have

> > this one issue that keeps coming up where I seem to have shown a

> lack of love and

> > allowed my ego to tell me that something was different from what it

> was. I have created

> > discomfort for this person, and I am pained by this. Has anyone

> else seen themselves go

> > through something that is an aggressive and inappropriate behavior

> during all of this

> > other beautiful enlightening opening? I took huge forward leaps in

> so many ways, and

> > found myself to be able to find love for people who were extremely

> difficult personalities

> > in my life, and was able to do so much to help so many people during

> this time, and then

> > there is this thing that I did to one person that is so obnoxious

> and painful. At times, it

> > was seeming like channels doing it, like I was under the influence

> of other spirits. There

> > was this big connection to Tibetan buddhism in some of my

> experiences, and that is his

> > religion. But now, it feels like what has been left is just me and

> my ego doing the same

> > thing, not letting go. I just finally told him that, as my doctor,

> he has to drop me as a

> > client because I haven't managed to respect his requests. My last

> letter made him angry,

> > and I feel terrible about being so insane and making him unhappy! I

> am doing some work

> > with a healer who helps very much with this kind of issue, but I

> would just like to hear

> > about it if I am not the only one who has let loose some kind of

> lunatic part of me.

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Definatly not alone with this one Mandrea. I wont go into detail but

know that your realization has been quite clean compared to others -

good job! -

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-

1 , " mandreastewart " <mandreastewart wrote:

>

>

> Hi everyone

>

> I am new to the group. I haven't had a chance to read through the

posts here yet, but I

> would like to introduce myself and explain my situtation.

>

> I experienced a sponaneous awakening about one year ago that was

very intense. It

> continued throughout the year, without my understanding of what

the experience really

> was. Many many visions, and spontaneous abilities such as

bilocation, hands on healing,

> and psychic abilities appeared in me while I was unaware of the

reason. I was also

> channeling without understanding what it was. I found out a few

months back that this

> was all part of what is called kundalini awakening. I did see

myself transform into a more

> loving person and very spiritual person, but also found a dark

side come out that still

> haunts me a bit. I had visions about one man, I became obsessed

with him, and I am only

> recently able to come to terms with the fact that he has no

interest in me. I have done

> things like write him letters after he has asked me not to do so.

It pains me that I have

> this one issue that keeps coming up where I seem to have shown a

lack of love and

> allowed my ego to tell me that something was different from what

it was. I have created

> discomfort for this person, and I am pained by this. Has anyone

else seen themselves go

> through something that is an aggressive and inappropriate behavior

during all of this

> other beautiful enlightening opening? I took huge forward leaps

in so many ways, and

> found myself to be able to find love for people who were extremely

difficult personalities

> in my life, and was able to do so much to help so many people

during this time, and then

> there is this thing that I did to one person that is so obnoxious

and painful. At times, it

> was seeming like channels doing it, like I was under the influence

of other spirits. There

> was this big connection to Tibetan buddhism in some of my

experiences, and that is his

> religion. But now, it feels like what has been left is just me

and my ego doing the same

> thing, not letting go. I just finally told him that, as my

doctor, he has to drop me as a

> client because I haven't managed to respect his requests. My last

letter made him angry,

> and I feel terrible about being so insane and making him unhappy!

I am doing some work

> with a healer who helps very much with this kind of issue, but I

would just like to hear

> about it if I am not the only one who has let loose some kind of

lunatic part of me.

>

[Guest guest]

thanks chrism

 

this helps

 

I also received a kind perspective from elsewhere that this person was also

drawing my

energy to learn a similar lesson, so that does make it feel less burdensome

 

 

 

, " chrism " <>

wrote:

>

> Definatly not alone with this one Mandrea. I wont go into detail but

> know that your realization has been quite clean compared to others -

> good job! -

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-

> 1 , " mandreastewart " <mandreastewart@> wrote:

> >

> >

> > Hi everyone

> >

> > I am new to the group. I haven't had a chance to read through the

> posts here yet, but I

> > would like to introduce myself and explain my situtation.

> >

> > I experienced a sponaneous awakening about one year ago that was

> very intense. It

> > continued throughout the year, without my understanding of what

> the experience really

> > was. Many many visions, and spontaneous abilities such as

> bilocation, hands on healing,

> > and psychic abilities appeared in me while I was unaware of the

> reason. I was also

> > channeling without understanding what it was. I found out a few

> months back that this

> > was all part of what is called kundalini awakening. I did see

> myself transform into a more

> > loving person and very spiritual person, but also found a dark

> side come out that still

> > haunts me a bit. I had visions about one man, I became obsessed

> with him, and I am only

> > recently able to come to terms with the fact that he has no

> interest in me. I have done

> > things like write him letters after he has asked me not to do so.

> It pains me that I have

> > this one issue that keeps coming up where I seem to have shown a

> lack of love and

> > allowed my ego to tell me that something was different from what

> it was. I have created

> > discomfort for this person, and I am pained by this. Has anyone

> else seen themselves go

> > through something that is an aggressive and inappropriate behavior

> during all of this

> > other beautiful enlightening opening? I took huge forward leaps

> in so many ways, and

> > found myself to be able to find love for people who were extremely

> difficult personalities

> > in my life, and was able to do so much to help so many people

> during this time, and then

> > there is this thing that I did to one person that is so obnoxious

> and painful. At times, it

> > was seeming like channels doing it, like I was under the influence

> of other spirits. There

> > was this big connection to Tibetan buddhism in some of my

> experiences, and that is his

> > religion. But now, it feels like what has been left is just me

> and my ego doing the same

> > thing, not letting go. I just finally told him that, as my

> doctor, he has to drop me as a

> > client because I haven't managed to respect his requests. My last

> letter made him angry,

> > and I feel terrible about being so insane and making him unhappy!

> I am doing some work

> > with a healer who helps very much with this kind of issue, but I

> would just like to hear

> > about it if I am not the only one who has let loose some kind of

> lunatic part of me.

> >

>

[Guest guest]

I too, have been going through a sacral activation and I understand the desires

and passions and obsessions.

I have been concerntrating on enjoying the sensations , being non attached to

the object of my desire, and then concerntrating on compassion and love of the

divine one within.

It xan be very intense , but it's all natural and don't feel bad about it in

anyway.

You can be free to talk about it here with us all, I find that honest

communication of my feelings helps me to process them, so I don't feel like a

volcano ready to erupt.

 

Much love Elektra x x x

 

chrism <> wrote:

Definatly not alone with this one Mandrea. I wont go into detail but

know that your realization has been quite clean compared to others -

good job! -

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-

1 , " mandreastewart " wrote:

>

>

> Hi everyone

>

> I am new to the group. I haven't had a chance to read through the

posts here yet, but I

> would like to introduce myself and explain my situtation.

>

> I experienced a sponaneous awakening about one year ago that was

very intense. It

> continued throughout the year, without my understanding of what

the experience really

> was. Many many visions, and spontaneous abilities such as

bilocation, hands on healing,

> and psychic abilities appeared in me while I was unaware of the

reason. I was also

> channeling without understanding what it was. I found out a few

months back that this

> was all part of what is called kundalini awakening. I did see

myself transform into a more

> loving person and very spiritual person, but also found a dark

side come out that still

> haunts me a bit. I had visions about one man, I became obsessed

with him, and I am only

> recently able to come to terms with the fact that he has no

interest in me. I have done

> things like write him letters after he has asked me not to do so.

It pains me that I have

> this one issue that keeps coming up where I seem to have shown a

lack of love and

> allowed my ego to tell me that something was different from what

it was. I have created

> discomfort for this person, and I am pained by this. Has anyone

else seen themselves go

> through something that is an aggressive and inappropriate behavior

during all of this

> other beautiful enlightening opening? I took huge forward leaps

in so many ways, and

> found myself to be able to find love for people who were extremely

difficult personalities

> in my life, and was able to do so much to help so many people

during this time, and then

> there is this thing that I did to one person that is so obnoxious

and painful. At times, it

> was seeming like channels doing it, like I was under the influence

of other spirits. There

> was this big connection to Tibetan buddhism in some of my

experiences, and that is his

> religion. But now, it feels like what has been left is just me

and my ego doing the same

> thing, not letting go. I just finally told him that, as my

doctor, he has to drop me as a

> client because I haven't managed to respect his requests. My last

letter made him angry,

> and I feel terrible about being so insane and making him unhappy!

I am doing some work

> with a healer who helps very much with this kind of issue, but I

would just like to hear

> about it if I am not the only one who has let loose some kind of

lunatic part of me.

>