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[Guest guest]

Please ask it again. Remember your questions are also on the minds of

those not comfortable asking. There are many posts and sometimes I will

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[Guest guest]

Dear Chrism,

Are you ok?

I miss talking to you.

I took a break from the list cos of what you said about people

focusing on you to receive energy and not doing their own work. I also

wanted to do some qigong on my own as I was really starting to feel my

tensions and blocks and wanted to work them open.

I'm looking at my kundalini awakening from a psychological

perspective, and I realise I have insecurities, sad emotions, fear and

attachments, which I have accumulated throughout my existence. Like

you said, I am reaching out to myself to try to accept the things I

feel and try to resensitise numbed aeas of my psyche which I may have

tried to block out in childhood. I found that crying is a good way to

accept how I feel, whereas taking up old conflicts with my mother to

try and resolve them needs more tact! This is a humbling way to look

at myself as it makes me realise actually I have emotional problems

and makes me conscious of the fact I shouldn't be egotistical about

kundalini awakening in me, or cling to it as an idea to help me feel

superior. I am still a bit scared of my dark side, but that's ok, I

accept that.

I hope this helps other people who feel uncomfortable. I know I always

feel uncomfortable when I try to present a one sided virtuous version

of myself, and try to hide my insecurities, fears, and confusion.

And thank you for replying to my message about Motoyama and his life

physics course at CIHS in California, I appreciated your input.

Thank you very much,

Bless and be merry!

James.

 

 

, " chrism "

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> Please ask it again. Remember your questions are also on the minds

of

> those not comfortable asking. There are many posts and sometimes I

will

> miss some so please remind me. -

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