Guest guest Posted October 22, 2006 Report Share Posted October 22, 2006 I'm in a weird mood...feel a little out of it...I watched the movie Vanilla SKy. Not sure why now I thought that was a " good " idea. ANyways, now its got my head spinning. I am thinking about the whole concept of the " present " , the eternal NOW, the opportunities I have pre-sent myself to remember myself. I feel like I am again " waking up " more in this moment, and I find myself going into fear. I recognize it and am praying, visualizing myself grounded deep in the earth. I am attempting to embrace it, to allow it to flow through me. AGain, the laughing and the crying...mood swings. Last night I dreamt that some guy (I didn't recognize him) told me I was ready for the next step. I feel myself stepping. Okay...this perception, this making stuff up, the re-acting...I feel like it could all end in a second, or that maybe I could see the all of it in the NOW. Ahh, scatterbrained! Went from almost sweating to freezing cold. I know this is all okay. I wonder why I fear the " waking up " ...could this possibly be the brain trying to hold its " control " ..it's ability to " make sense " ? I feel like its trying to hold on... I've read I believe from this group something about how we fit everyone else in our picture, our perception, have a purpose for them or what not...(I know, I can't remember exactly how this was explained). How do I learn to not get in anyones way, or my own way? I don't want to play with people. I hope that I'm not. Hmmm...I don't know if this made any sense but I feel like I just needed to get it out of my head. Any comments would be appreciated. Love to all, ~Jessica Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 22, 2006 Report Share Posted October 22, 2006 Hello Jessica, It is the ego that is pulling at you to "Stay in Control!" She is worried that she may not be the same and it is discomforting for her to think that as you awaken she will no longer be around. Talk to your "ego" . Comfort her and let her know all will be well and she will be loved and cared for and continue on. Watch your hydration levels and keep your tongue up. If you are drying out an added strain on the kidneys and adrenals can occur causing anxiety and a certain level of fight or flee hormonal expression - fear. This is a time for surrender. Not to fears or wanderings of the mind but to the process of kundalini. Let her take you into the womb of her next level for you - allow - with complete serenity and love. It may feel strange and yes a bit scary but it is only of the unknown quality that scares us here. So "know" this Jessica. Your path has been trod by Saints and sinners alike. From the lowliest to the Highest they come to these crossroads for their in-light-in-meant. We will always be here to help. If the list isn't working, or the computer down and you wish to reach and touch you have only to go as far as your own aura and the tiny scatterfield waiting for you to say- Hello! - Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 22, 2006 Report Share Posted October 22, 2006 Hi Jessica, I completely understand of what you speak. I have had similar moments recently, a feeling of being on the brink of disolving my "ego" and stepping into the higher-self. And wondering what it is actually like to fully exist like that. When I feel any fear I just carry on releasing it and trust that this is me waking up and remembering my true self. Going home. I know that when the moment arrives to fully let go, it will be graceful and safe as the releasing techniques will assure that. I would say that you are an amazing girl, doing a fantastic job, you are a blessing to the world as your light shines for many. With love Elektra x x xJessica <jdehne88 wrote: I'm in a weird mood...feel a little out of it...I watched themovie Vanilla SKy. Not sure why now I thought that was a "good" idea.ANyways, now its got my head spinning. I am thinking about the wholeconcept of the "present", the eternal NOW, the opportunities I havepre-sent myself to remember myself. I feel like I am again "wakingup" more in this moment, and I find myself going into fear. Irecognize it and am praying, visualizing myself grounded deep in theearth. I am attempting to embrace it, to allow it to flow through me.AGain, the laughing and the crying...mood swings. Last night I dreamt that some guy (I didn't recognize him) told meI was ready for the next step. I feel myself stepping. Okay...this perception, this making stuff up, the re-acting...Ifeel like it could all end in a second, or that maybe I could see theall of it in the NOW. Ahh, scatterbrained! Went from almostsweating to freezing cold. I know this is all okay. I wonder why Ifear the "waking up"...could this possibly be the brain trying to holdits "control"..it's ability to "make sense"? I feel like its tryingto hold on...I've read I believe from this group something about how we fiteveryone else in our picture, our perception, have a purpose for themor what not...(I know, I can't remember exactly how this wasexplained). How do I learn to not get in anyones way, or my own way?I don't want to play with people. I hope that I'm not. Hmmm...I don't know if this made any sense but I feel like I justneeded to get it out of my head. Any comments would be appreciated. Love to all,~Jessica Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2006 Report Share Posted October 25, 2006 Sounds like you are experiencing the power of now. You are becoming more aware of you and your existance. You are 'thinking' and this is a good thing. I would suggest you do this more often, be aware of you and how you are feeling. Look deep inside yourself as often as you can. Look around you and watch people and things, and once you start doing (its worked for me) you begin to awaken and know more about life and its purpose. Maybe that movie triggered a part of you that wants to awaken? Good Luck and keep it positive, its just life, do you best. lisa Jessica wrote: > > I'm in a weird mood...feel a little out of it...I watched the > movie Vanilla SKy. Not sure why now I thought that was a " good " idea. > ANyways, now its got my head spinning. I am thinking about the whole > concept of the " present " , the eternal NOW, the opportunities I have > pre-sent myself to remember myself. I feel like I am again " waking > up " more in this moment, and I find myself going into fear. I > recognize it and am praying, visualizing myself grounded deep in the > earth. I am attempting to embrace it, to allow it to flow through me. > AGain, the laughing and the crying...mood swings. > Last night I dreamt that some guy (I didn't recognize him) told me > I was ready for the next step. I feel myself stepping. > Okay...this perception, this making stuff up, the re-acting...I > feel like it could all end in a second, or that maybe I could see the > all of it in the NOW. Ahh, scatterbrained! Went from almost > sweating to freezing cold. I know this is all okay. I wonder why I > fear the " waking up " ...could this possibly be the brain trying to hold > its " control " ..it's ability to " make sense " ? I feel like its trying > to hold on... > I've read I believe from this group something about how we fit > everyone else in our picture, our perception, have a purpose for them > or what not...(I know, I can't remember exactly how this was > explained). How do I learn to not get in anyones way, or my own way? > I don't want to play with people. I hope that I'm not. > Hmmm...I don't know if this made any sense but I feel like I just > needed to get it out of my head. Any comments would be appreciated. > > Love to all, > ~Jessica > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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