Chakras

[Guest guest]

Thank you kind Chrism.

I am having a bit of an issue in that I am closing my upper chakras

or sending energy away from them because of something I read here,

that this can be interference of spirit entities. I have noticed that

the sensations one can have in the chakras are very different at

different times. Sometimes I feel a flow in the third eye, and

sometimes I feel a blissful sensation, or sometimes heat. Sometimes I

feel energy circulating in it and connecting through the other

channels in my head. Intuition says this is the best! But I dont know

for sure, I'm sure some of these interactions are beneficial and some

not so beneficial.

A quick progress report: Doing a fair bit of tibetans and qigong, and

also dancing!! My infusing is getting deeper, and I'm trying to

assist it with lots of sleep. I feel I'm getting more K up to

swadisthana, and sometimes to manipura, where I feel the heat, and up

to the heart and throat. I'm coming up against a lot of emotions, and

its been helpful to see a counsellor, where I have been able to talk

about my experience. He was very supportive, and in fact ended up

agreeing with a lot of things I said about the psychiatric profession

being harmful and the need to incorporate spiritual ideas from eg

buddhism into psychotherapy. In the last session he said it had been

really inspiring talking to me, and that made me feel very different

about myself. It was a good way to confront my fear of psychiatry, as

the setup was similar, ie sit in a chair with a guy talking to you. I

can feel that blockages are so related to emotion, I can really feel

the chi flow when I get emotional. I know my attitude to women is

causing me blockages, and because I believe it is impossible for me

to get with a girl I like, I sometimes think life is impossible,

because its a very basic need of life. I reflected this morning that

the way I have thought about this issue my whole life, I have cheated

myself out of a natural part of myself. But maybe there were other

factors involved too. I don't know I just want to get rid of this

blockage that holds me back.

Sorry to put a downer on things. Someone once told me theres no such

thing as impossibilities, only stuck emotions. I really felt like I

hated myself this morning, for wasting so much of my life. I should

probably stop thinking about myself and do some selfless service, but

I'm in final year at uni and got little time! Going on climate change

march tomorrow, that can be my service!

With devotion,

El Japo