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[Guest guest]

Hi-

 

What I have been noticing lately reminds me of the early days of the

K when there was nothing out there to relate to my experience to and

I was trying to peer into and surrender to the physical/psychological/

spiritual movement that was enveloping my life. Those were heady

times and it feels as if these times are starting to be as well.

 

I find again something in the way I draw, the involuntary direction

of the pen. I think I have focused so on the emanation of the K in my

body to know how to access it that I haven't looked too much on how

it moves. But something in the way I draw keeps showing up, something

I felt before I tried to crack open what was happening, a real

feeling of being directed. The two things I focus most on when

drawing now are a deep relaxation in my lower back and bringing the

spirit forward, that is allowing myself to be directed. These two

work together but the first is essential. However if I do not focus

on the later then my body shakes vehemently. If I do focus on the

later as well as the former and let myself be directed then the

experience is that much more intense over all. So I am beginning to

see a difference in initiating the movement and in directing it. This

direction, oddly enough, has to do with resistance, resisting the

initial shock to movement. This is also something I did in the early

days. I am coming back to it and finding it very effective when I can

keep my concentration up. I think in a way this is related to the

blessings I give, which generate a huge response as well, but I do

not see a distinction between initiating and directing when doing this.

 

I also am feeling very charged, perhaps with energy, as if something

is imminent. This is exciting but not so comfortable. However I know

it is where I need to go. I am having a hard time not resisting. The

resistance hurts but when I can loosen it then I feel even more

charged and can be sent way deep. So I feel a bit in between a rock

and a hard place (though nothing is dire here.) I know I need to

begin to start eating very lightly and regularly. I crave eating

heavy things maybe as an effort to hold me down, but when I do it

hurts. And in the same way eating lightly opens up my head space in a

way which I recognize but never feels so familiar. There are also

some others changes I need to make as well but I am not finding my

efforts so consistent.

 

When I do relax and it comes on I am in a wonderland. Sometimes I

sense some folks at my sides. My thoughts tend to be non-linear which

has a poetic feel to it (I cannot think of a better way to say

this.) This is also reminiscent of earlier days. I can be rather

intense. I just try to be cool in it. That's it.

 

Kiss-

 

Bret

[Guest guest]

dear chrism and friends... today's early morning dreams included three dreams

where i felt

incredibly blissful. in one of them i received a transmission of this bliss by

a man who

seemed to be some kind of spiritual master. he stood behind me and i felt

enveloped by

this loving energy. in the other dreams i shared this feeling with people. i

just thought i'd

mention this since i've never had this kind of dream before.

love,

-steve f

[Guest guest]

Hello Steve, use this memory as a tracing tool that can take you back into that place or presence. -

[Guest guest]

Hi Steve,

 

Having a loving being standing behind you and

enveloping you with love is what happens to me when I

am going to channel the being.

 

This is the way I was taught to channel...they enter

through the heart centre from the back. Don't go

ahead and let them in just because I said so though

some training is needed. Mainly learning the lower

from the higher energies.

 

This is also the way the Christ came to me when my

sister was dying....he appeared behind me, enveloped

me with love and compassion then stepped into me and

spoke to her....holding her hand and telling her it

was time to go home....a special miracle that I was

grateful to experince.

 

If it continues to happen maybe you could talk to the

Master and ask some details about him/her....maybe

it's a guide for you.

 

love

Amaargi

 

 

--- " deepdance1 " <deepdance1

wrote:

 

> dear chrism and friends... today's early morning

> dreams included three dreams where i felt

> incredibly blissful. in one of them i received a

> transmission of this bliss by a man who

> seemed to be some kind of spiritual master. he stood

> behind me and i felt enveloped by

> this loving energy. in the other dreams i shared

> this feeling with people. i just thought i'd

> mention this since i've never had this kind of dream

> before.

> love,

> -steve f

>

>

 

 

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