Hi, I'm Richard...:dhyana :Appended

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, "richard" <eyeoneblack wrote:>> > I'm so touchy. I'm not internet savvy at all. You can't see a face,> hear inflection in a voice. That little remark was way off base. I was> very emotional yesterday Sorry.> > -richard>

Listen, I don't mind sharing what for others would be just too personal. If I have a problem you can be sure somebody else has it too. Maybe even in this group, although people like me don't often make it this far. Like I said, it's hard to escape the ghetto, the meanness there will have left it's imprint even if you do. And a person who escapes the ghetto had someone who loved him, made sacrifices for him, who kept the faith and the vision. I never had that person.

I was told when I was young I was too nice to get along in the world. Nice is a vice, not a virtue in the ghetto, and "love" is an instrument of punishment. It means tears, it means angry words, it means disappointment. It is something you can never have in the ghetto - that's what makes it a ghetto, after all.

Now a little drama, entirely of my own invention, just played out in this list. I hope you blinked and missed it, but I'm afraid you probably didn't. It's a script I take with me everywhere I go and I can't seem to lose it. I become offended for no good reason and I strike. Oh my, you ought to see me REALLY strike, it is something to behold – from a distance. I know I should have been an attorney, I even took the law school entrance exam last fall. I mean, you actually get paid for not being nice and I would have done well. But I don't want to make a career out of a damaged character. I want to heal and I'm hoping I can find some healing here.

Please bear with me and I'll try better to behave (I've said that before haven't I Chris?).

 

My heart to yours – richard

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Beloved Richard, I'm so glad we're back on track. I

pray that you will be able to let Love in. If you were

able to survive the ghetto and still love and have

compassion for others, then the next step is to

receive it as well...for the balance.

 

Hearing you makes me smile for two reasons. First, I

hear a lot of myself in your words; second, I have a

dear friend who sounds exactly like you. The reason he

lashed out was because he was deeply wounded by those

he loved, his heart needed love to heal. That love is

here for you, too. When you are offended and want to

lash out just know that it is your wounded heart that

is speaking. Comfort it, speak kindly to it, tell it

things are not as they appear. There is a greater

Vibration here, and your heart will begin to recognize

that the Light is shining in the darkness, and " yes "

Love does exist. hug Love, dhyana

 

--- richard <eyeoneblack wrote:

 

>

> Listen, I don't mind sharing what for others would

> be just too

> personal. If I have a problem you can be sure

> somebody else has it too.

> Maybe even in this group, although people like me

> don't often make

> it this far. Like I said, it's hard to escape the

> ghetto, the

> meanness there will have left it's imprint even if

> you do. And a

> person who escapes the ghetto had someone who loved

> him, made sacrifices

> for him, who kept the faith and the vision. I never

> had that person.

>

> I was told when I was young I was too nice to get

> along in the world.

> Nice is a vice, not a virtue in the ghetto, and

> " love " is an instrument

> of punishment. It means tears, it means angry

> words, it means

> disappointment. It is something you can never have

> in the ghetto -

> that's what makes it a ghetto, after all.

>

> Now a little drama, entirely of my own invention,

> just played out in

> this list. I hope you blinked and missed it, but

> I'm afraid you

> probably didn't. It's a script I take with me

> everywhere I go

> and I can't seem to lose it. I become offended for

> no good reason

> and I strike. Oh my, you ought to see me REALLY

> strike, it is something

> to behold – from a distance. I know I should have

> been an attorney,

> I even took the law school entrance exam last fall.

> I mean, you

> actually get paid for not being nice and I would

> have done well. But I

> don't want to make a career out of a damaged

> character. I want to

> heal and I'm hoping I can find some healing here.

>

> Please bear with me and I'll try better to behave

> (I've said

> that before haven't I Chris?).

>

>

>

> My heart to yours – richard

>

>

 

 

 

 

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