chrystal here with responces. (sorry for message length in advance)

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okay- well i would like to share this experience... no issues there.

 

 

let me start off by saying this:

what all this had led me to understand is that psychedelics led me to

kundalini and self awareness... but it felt like i cheated and it felt

CRUDE. from my research i am realizing, i probably wouldnt have even

needed to use drugs to come to this awaked state of mind and self. there

are people out there who have come to these understandings WITHOUT the

use of any drug. it was relieving to learn.

 

here i go:

it was under the influence of LSD. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/LSD)

i have tripped many times. no two trips are alike but they share similar

things.

normally there are visuals, understandings of the simple geometric

shapes and how the form into the complex ones, the understanding of what

it means to " connect " and to make " connections " . but this last trip,

which i feel caused my awakening, was very crude and earth shattering.

i had no previous insight into kundalini nor any other forms of yoga.

please read with open mind, for it was heavy with symbolism that aided

me into discovering kundalini.

 

my trip started out fairly simple- but 3 hours into it, my partner, who

was also tripping, became inhabited by loki. he also vaguely remembers

this.

(i am not religious, nor pagan. i just hope that you already know of

loki and his symbolism)

 

loki, begins to tell me that my spine is a grid, or a map, and that i

needed to " tap into the pinwheels that are surrounding me " and if i

follow them up my spine, i could " tap " into something.

 

i hesitated- i did not understand this but i went along.

i sat in half lotus and began with the area where my butt was touching

the ground and felt an uprising. (the base)

as it rose higher, energy was around me-

and i could manipulate it. i felt utter bliss.

 

i wish i could say it ended there and this led me here. that part did.

but there was more to my trip. you may stop here because this is how i

was led to kundalini. but if you interested in more of what happened and

what i am trying to grasp, i'll include it alllll the way at the end of

this message.

 

i have taken many psychedelics ranging from marijuana, lsd, mushrooms,

mescaline, dmt, ayahuasca etc.

mainly most of these allowed me to experience higher forms of self

awareness and my interaction with society etc.

 

dmt was quite different though. it felt like tapping into another

frequency of existence that is always around but normally we are blind

to it. many people report similar experience. please research this

before you try this tea. it will shed light, i am sure of this.

 

i am glad i could share.

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the rest of the trip:

 

after being able to manipulate the surrounding energy,

after the state of bliss.

everything around the room seemed to suggest we were to partake in a

ritual.

i became aware that i had super imposed on myself personality traits

that prevented me from obtaining a form of higher self.

i felt like i was tapping into universal consciousness. i remember

crying and promising myself to shed these things.

.... here is where things grew twisted.

 

i was excited- and my partner (inhabited by loki) took on this

starved look. he seemed to grow excited and extremely eager... like

trying to draw me into something...

i immediately closed up. i realized who was before me. a horned one.

all my layers and biased views build up and tried to reason.

he seemed very disappointed that i rejected what he was offering...

but he would not clarify what he was offering, it all seemed too

alluded!

 

when he explained that there was no such thing as good or evil,

these were just biased forces etc, i grew interested again.

he seemed to grow vibrant, but pressed the issue that i must make up my

mind because he grew tired and was draining himself to stimulate my

chakras.

 

suddenly he was my partner, no traces of loki to be found.

nor did he remember.

then BAM!!!

 

i felt this sudden urge. as if he was a small white innocent mouse. an

ignorant one. a sheep of society...

i suddenly felt myself draw on the surrounding energy- like giant plus

signs around me... I pushed aside the negative signs

i felt this sudden urge to seduce him. and not sexually.

it felt like i was throwing a glamour over his eyes... to try and lure

him. i had this understanding that i was the snake and he was the

mouse...

i felt powerful...

 

and then suddenly that vacant look left his eyes and was replaced by

that twinkle and smirk. -loki was showing me yet another lesson.

 

what it means to encompass this energy and how others who are the

unaware could be manipulated,stimulated etc.

 

this all seemed appealing but HORRIBLE.BAD.

i started repeated how fucked up it was and wanted no part of it.

loki seemed frustrated and annoyed. he took on this starved look again..

darkened eye rings, shriveled...

 

i was beginning to feel that if i took whatever he was offering, i

would be in this same state. enjoying temporary forms of sensory bliss-

but there was a cost. a draining effect. where i would have to draw more

and more energy and use and empower... it seemed like leaving one form

of social hierarchy for another...

 

it ended basically like that. i never made up my mind. and eventually

the trip led to other things...

 

i am not wiccan nor religious... but everything felt like a ritual.

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[Guest guest]

Interesting Chrystal. I feel you were being tested. To a degree I

feel you past the test, but there is more I think. -- blessings to you

and thank you for the gift of your sharing, please continue if you are

ok with it. - chrism