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Hello

My name is Gunnar. I`m feeling me outside everything and also this

group. Because it is my lower urges that have brought me here I am ,

in a terrible, terrible situation. I have experimented with my

sexuality, and now I can`t understand myself and my past. Now I have

activated the K. in my body with its strong, strong tensions, and

therefore the

energy takes other routes outside my body. I feel that the energy has

burned out my skills of sensing the outer world. The nature has

become a stranger to me. Once I was a good musician, it was my job,

but now music is irritating me. My sexuality is gone. The worst

feeling is that my soul is gone , in the meaning: soulfilled

experiences and activities. Because the energy is moving upwards and

destroy more and more, I`m afraid of damnation, that this can never be

good again, never in any incarnation. I have no longings, moods,

dreams, only depression. That is my history and unfortunately I can

not write about any positive thing about the prosess,except

my arrogance that is gone. I feel I have lost everything, and I`m

afraid of going crazy in a hospital.

I will read some of the posts here, but not write so much, because

I don`t think it is so much I can do.

 

Regards, Gunnar