Forgiveness - Ruari

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Hello Ruari,

I feel this really isn't all about you or your process. It is

about the shaman and that persons level of tolerance for things different or not

common to her experience. Your increased sensitivity brings it to you, strongly,

and you may be reacting to this situation because of some guilt you may harbor

about how it all came about. Really though, its about the shamans lack of

tolerance, not your lack of forgiveness.

 

Forgiveness isn't just about having verbal and emotional balance through

overt communication. Sometimes , as in this instance perhaps, a complete

withdrawal of communication and the patience and consideration towards this

shaman can allow this person the time she needs to come into a more open and

tolerant co-existence than is now being expressed.

 

As a friend, you can find the inner strength to give her this " alone time "

even if it lasts for years. If she is truly the dear friend that you have

considered her to be then this will come about in her own good time irrespective

of your or others time line expectations. She will see that eventually and at

that time, perhaps, you can " catch up " .

 

This does not have to be a blockage for you. Kundalini isn't going to go away

or cause you problems due to this scenario. You may have that effect upon

yourself though. The little (i) as opposed to the High Self or big (I), the

little ( i ) can have that effect inside a situation that isn't conforming to

expectations.

 

So I would suggest that you completely release from her space. Take your

concerns and expectations of renewed friendship away from her and from yourself.

Allow yourself to be free of cares regarding this person and set the example by

co-existing without expectation of returned affections or acceptance. Clear your

heart and your mind of this persons influence upon your Kundalini process. Let

time and love for self and others breath a fresh breeze through your being and

release these concerns. Love for others is a form of tolerance and so you can

also demonstrate this quality by not keeping a " hope of change " alive for

another, as a prominent heart focus, or upon your expectations for this " hope

for a change " to occur. Set her free of your concerns.

 

This will free both of you. - my take -