The Flux of Perception and Symptoms

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Hello-

 

I have noticed a few posts of individuals pondering the fluctuation

or diminishing of their energetic symptoms. To that I would like to

suggest that one need not be too concerned with this. For myself I

have faith that there is always movement even when there is nothing

noticeable.

 

During the first days of my opening many mystic perceptions would

occur, but I realized right away that I could not anticipate any of

these to happen again. I knew that this would be an attachment that

would cause me much pain due to the intensity of the experiences and

their elusive nature. But they came regardless.

 

I try to do the practice I have learned with great concentration and

intensity. Sometimes I break through, mostly I do not, and I feel a

need to be aware of the difference between the two. But I know that

the practice is all I can do to find what I am in training to find.

No desire, wishes or disappointment seem to have any effect, although

I feel these as well. I am now looking at this kind of effort and

participation as surrender.

 

Sometimes I can see something in my consciousness. Sometimes when

painting (my practice) and sometimes outside of it. I think seeing

this more and more consistently is my goal and I am finding progress

in this. For the most part I do not see it at all. Regardless I just

come back to the practice. But I also have faith that what I am

seeing and the movement that it represents is continuous even when I

do not see it.

 

Thanks for listening-

 

Bret