Random K Dreams and Conundrum!

March 26, 2007

I don't know what to do about something, and I thought I'd write you guys to see

what you

think because you all are kind, wise and unbiased.

Okay, so I have been in this relationship for 4 years this June. Nothing wrong

with it

whatsoever, he's a wonderful guy, someone whom I could easily spend the rest of

my life

with. The only issue is that I cannot stop dreaming about this guy I've known

since grade

one. We were best friends throughout elementary school (I loved him then but we

wanted

to `preserve our – childish – friendship'). His birthday is the day before mine.

For my first

year of high school my family and I moved to a new town and I only saw him very

rarely –

as in, every couple of years. One day when I was 18, however, I received a call

from him

(his name is Jeremy). He was having troubles with his girlfriend and needed to

escape for a

while, and he had hitchhiked to my town and had spent the night in a park (he

hadn't

found my phone number until after this.) To make a long story short, the day we

spent

together was flawless. It was as if no time had passed, except that our more

mature

personalities had grown to fit with one another. As we were saying goodbye the

next day,

we exchanged I love yous and promised to keep in touch.

That was five years ago. Because we did not have the opportunity to continue our

relationship I have, on and off had dreams about him. But ever since my

awakening in

November, I have dreamt of him a few times a week. I'm not sure if it's a

cyclical

subconscious/conscious pattern – that since I've been dreaming of him more I've

been

thinking of him more and thus dreaming of him again etc etc, but regardless, he

is in

there a LOT. And almost always the dream consists of being somewhere, anywhere,

whether it be a crowded room or a street, and we see each other and it, again,

is like no

time has passed, except that we have grown to fit each other. The other small

percentage

of the dreams, and these are the most perplexing, are blurry; I am weaker than

weak and

can barely move or speak and Jeremy starts speaking to me, telling me he misses

me, then

poof, he is gone.

What I can't stop wondering is if in these rare dreams if it is possible that he

is actually

communicating to me, and if the K is trying to tell me something, since the

frequency of

the dreams increased significantly since the awakening? I have tried searching

him out on

the internet (I lost his e-mail address long ago) to no avail. His mom isn't

even listed

anymore, nor have I had any success locating his old friends. It is frustrating

beyond belief

to not be able to locate him. The only possible conduit is his old friend's

parents, whom

I'm working up the courage to call. But there is no guarantee Jeremy is even

friends with

this guy anymore, since between 18 and 23 you change friends so much.

Now, I mean, this is heavy stuff. I know. Even if I DID find him and we

discovered we were

meant to be together this would be the most difficult decision of my life. If my

current

relationship was unhealthy obviously seeking Jeremy out would be a fruitful

endeavour if

even just to see how he's doing, excluding the whole `soul mate' thing. But it's

a great

relationship. The only thing is that I don't think that I could go the rest of

my life not

knowing. It's the classic story. And I'm by no means asking you guys to direct

me in this

giant conundrum, but if any of you have gone through anything similar, then

maybe you

have some insight? Mostly I just needed to get this off of my chest. I haven't

told anyone,

really, because all of my friends are my partner's friends and I don't want to

risk anyone

thinking that I have the intention on being deceitful or unfaithful.

Thanks for reading this elephant of a story...whew!!

Love

Kiwi

March 26, 2007

The sense that I get is that if you don't find him and

settle it it will continue to haunt you. imho Try this

link:

http://www.zabasearch.com/

Love, dhyana

--- kiwibird_222 <sktimms wrote:

> I don't know what to do about something, and I

> thought I'd write you guys to see what you

> think because you all are kind, wise and unbiased.

>

> Okay, so I have been in this relationship for 4

> years this June. Nothing wrong with it

> whatsoever, he's a wonderful guy, someone whom I

> could easily spend the rest of my life

> with. The only issue is that I cannot stop dreaming

> about this guy I've known since grade

> one. We were best friends throughout elementary

> school (I loved him then but we wanted

> to `preserve our – childish – friendship'). His

> birthday is the day before mine. For my first

> year of high school my family and I moved to a new

> town and I only saw him very rarely –

> as in, every couple of years. One day when I was

> 18, however, I received a call from him

> (his name is Jeremy). He was having troubles with

> his girlfriend and needed to escape for a

> while, and he had hitchhiked to my town and had

> spent the night in a park (he hadn't

> found my phone number until after this.) To make a

> long story short, the day we spent

> together was flawless. It was as if no time had

> passed, except that our more mature

> personalities had grown to fit with one another. As

> we were saying goodbye the next day,

> we exchanged I love yous and promised to keep in

> touch.

>

> That was five years ago. Because we did not have the

> opportunity to continue our

> relationship I have, on and off had dreams about

> him. But ever since my awakening in

> November, I have dreamt of him a few times a week.

> I'm not sure if it's a cyclical

> subconscious/conscious pattern – that since I've

> been dreaming of him more I've been

> thinking of him more and thus dreaming of him again

> etc etc, but regardless, he is in

> there a LOT. And almost always the dream consists of

> being somewhere, anywhere,

> whether it be a crowded room or a street, and we see

> each other and it, again, is like no

> time has passed, except that we have grown to fit

> each other. The other small percentage

> of the dreams, and these are the most perplexing,

> are blurry; I am weaker than weak and

> can barely move or speak and Jeremy starts speaking

> to me, telling me he misses me, then

> poof, he is gone.

>

> What I can't stop wondering is if in these rare

> dreams if it is possible that he is actually

> communicating to me, and if the K is trying to tell

> me something, since the frequency of

> the dreams increased significantly since the

> awakening? I have tried searching him out on

> the internet (I lost his e-mail address long ago) to

> no avail. His mom isn't even listed

> anymore, nor have I had any success locating his old

> friends. It is frustrating beyond belief

> to not be able to locate him. The only possible

> conduit is his old friend's parents, whom

> I'm working up the courage to call. But there is no

> guarantee Jeremy is even friends with

> this guy anymore, since between 18 and 23 you change

> friends so much.

>

> Now, I mean, this is heavy stuff. I know. Even if I

> DID find him and we discovered we were

> meant to be together this would be the most

> difficult decision of my life. If my current

> relationship was unhealthy obviously seeking Jeremy

> out would be a fruitful endeavour if

> even just to see how he's doing, excluding the whole

> `soul mate' thing. But it's a great

> relationship. The only thing is that I don't think

> that I could go the rest of my life not

> knowing. It's the classic story. And I'm by no means

> asking you guys to direct me in this

> giant conundrum, but if any of you have gone through

> anything similar, then maybe you

> have some insight? Mostly I just needed to get this

> off of my chest. I haven't told anyone,

> really, because all of my friends are my partner's

> friends and I don't want to risk anyone

> thinking that I have the intention on being

> deceitful or unfaithful.

>

> Thanks for reading this elephant of a story...whew!!

>

> Love

>

> Kiwi

>

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March 27, 2007

Hi Kiwi! I don't know if this will apply to your situation, but I

will tell you what happened to me and you can see if it feels right.

Years ago I was in a " triangle " when I was in a rotten marriage. I

fell in love with my then husband's best friend. It is a loooong

story and I won't bore you. It came down to the fact that I realized

that I kept growing spiritually and he didn't. So after I dumped my

ex, I couldn't be with him either. However, that didn't mean

that the love I felt for him disappeared or the connection was gone.

For years I continued to be haunted by feelings about him and from

him. I had this psychic connection with him where I would often know

his feelings and what was going on in his life. I knew how he felt

about me.

I met my soul mate almost 10 years ago and we are happily married

with a child now. This connection continued after I married my

husband and I finally realized that I had to figure it out once and

for all. My husband and I barely have to talk anymore we are so in

sync and I would never think of anyone else romantically, so I knew

something had to be off.

I consulted my spirit guide and she led me through a regression. The

three of us had been in a triangle in a past life. She showed me the

details and it helped to release me from this connection. Since

then, I feel nothing from him or about him. I understand why I felt

certain ways without explanation and why we all reacted to situations

the way we did.

I wish you luck. I know how intense something like this can get.

Sarita

, " kiwibird_222 "

<sktimms wrote:

>

> I don't know what to do about something, and I thought I'd write

you guys to see what you

March 27, 2007

Kiwi,

After my awakening 7 years ago, I remembered who my soul mate was.

He is someone I met briefly in college (the meeting had been both

explosive and ultimately devastating, despite the limited conscious

interaction). I had had superconscious interaction with him and

blocked it out (I dissociated all my supernormal activity back

then). During my awakening, it all came back.

When I remembered our history, I began to obsess on him to some

degree and tried to track him down, so I can relate to what you're

going through. I felt the onus was on me to reestablish a

connection, though it made me uncomfortable calling his work, etc.

Long story short, I am still expecting we will meet one day and be

together, but I also realise and remember that we planned and agreed

not to meet again until we were both ready, so that the relationship

would last and be solid.

I also was shown several different ways we could meet again and was

told we " can meet however you want. " All this inspired in me a faith

that things would work out in their own time and that my higher self

was in control, even if I felt in the dark about certain things.

Unlike you, though, I am not with anyone right now, so there is no

conflict going on concerning my affections.

I suggest you pray about this and send your intentions into the

universe to follow the optimal path for your discovery, development

and joy in this life. Pray for " clarity of course " and then rest

with gratitude in a state of patient expectation for whatever answer

comes to you in whatever time it takes. Pray for these men who you

care about as well.

We may feel out of control at times, but our higher selves and

guidance are behind the wheel, not us. When we let the car take us

where it will instead of grabbing for the wheel, we reap the benefits

of having a driver that is both skilled and has all the road maps.

Love whoever you are able to as much as your heart will allow and

trust that if you are meant to be with this old friend, that avenue

will present itself most definitely, as will that which extricates

yourelf from your current boyfriend.

You will but have to recognise it, and since you are aware of this

possibility now, you will surely not let such an opportunity pass, if

it arises and presents itself to you in a natural way, as if fate had

a hand. This is how it will feel. If you hear your guides, they

will even prepare you for this meeting.

With soulmates, timing is everything. You don't want to do anything

prematurely because it could end very heart-breakingly if both

parties aren't prepared for the union.

One more thing. There was a boy I knew in high school with whom I

could communicate telepathically. We dated for awhile. I have

thought about him from time to time later, first in college when I

was lonely then later after my awakening and remembering our

superconscious communication. This type of connection alone is

enough to make you think of and desire someone.

Though you may not be meant to be together, you may be yearning for

that most natural soul connection that was tasted during your

interraction with him, if in fact something similar connects you and

this old friend. Even if you don't remember telepathy, this can

occur on an unconscious level. It may well explain the feeling of

fitting perfectly with someone.

So, a couple of things that I can think of could be going on. The

fact that these longings have occurred concurrently with awakening

make them hard to dismiss as non-spiritual in origin.

Conduct yourself with emotional integrity and dignity, expanding your

trust and expectations of being guided along the right course and

also your ideas of love and limits. When something is meant to

happen, it does. That simple. Trust the universe and your higher

self to take care of the logistics. Send him love and love your

boyfriend, as well, as your heart is moved. One day at a time, in

the eternal now.

You may be being prepared for something. Or you may be able to

remember aspects of your connection with the old friend via self

hypnosis, meditation or trance. You may also find some answers in

dreams, lucid dreams or OBEs.

x,

Droxine

, " kiwibird_222 "

<sktimms wrote:

>

> I don't know what to do about something, and I thought I'd write

you guys to see what you

> think because you all are kind, wise and unbiased.

>

> Okay, so I have been in this relationship for 4 years this June.

Nothing wrong with it

> whatsoever, he's a wonderful guy, someone whom I could easily spend

the rest of my life

> with. The only issue is that I cannot stop dreaming about this guy

I've known since grade

> one. We were best friends throughout elementary school (I loved him

then but we wanted

> to `preserve our – childish – friendship'). His birthday is the day

before mine. For my first

> year of high school my family and I moved to a new town and I only

saw him very rarely –

> as in, every couple of years. One day when I was 18, however, I

received a call from him

> (his name is Jeremy). He was having troubles with his girlfriend

and needed to escape for a

> while, and he had hitchhiked to my town and had spent the night in

a park (he hadn't

> found my phone number until after this.) To make a long story

short, the day we spent

> together was flawless. It was as if no time had passed, except that

our more mature

> personalities had grown to fit with one another. As we were saying

goodbye the next day,

> we exchanged I love yous and promised to keep in touch.

>

> That was five years ago. Because we did not have the opportunity to

continue our

> relationship I have, on and off had dreams about him. But ever

since my awakening in

> November, I have dreamt of him a few times a week. I'm not sure if

it's a cyclical

> subconscious/conscious pattern – that since I've been dreaming of

him more I've been

> thinking of him more and thus dreaming of him again etc etc, but

regardless, he is in

> there a LOT. And almost always the dream consists of being

somewhere, anywhere,

> whether it be a crowded room or a street, and we see each other and

it, again, is like no

> time has passed, except that we have grown to fit each other. The

other small percentage

> of the dreams, and these are the most perplexing, are blurry; I am

weaker than weak and

> can barely move or speak and Jeremy starts speaking to me, telling

me he misses me, then

> poof, he is gone.

>

> What I can't stop wondering is if in these rare dreams if it is

possible that he is actually

> communicating to me, and if the K is trying to tell me something,

since the frequency of

> the dreams increased significantly since the awakening? I have

tried searching him out on

> the internet (I lost his e-mail address long ago) to no avail. His

mom isn't even listed

> anymore, nor have I had any success locating his old friends. It is

frustrating beyond belief

> to not be able to locate him. The only possible conduit is his old

friend's parents, whom

> I'm working up the courage to call. But there is no guarantee

Jeremy is even friends with

> this guy anymore, since between 18 and 23 you change friends so

much.

>

> Now, I mean, this is heavy stuff. I know. Even if I DID find him

and we discovered we were

> meant to be together this would be the most difficult decision of

my life. If my current

> relationship was unhealthy obviously seeking Jeremy out would be a

fruitful endeavour if

> even just to see how he's doing, excluding the whole `soul mate'

thing. But it's a great

> relationship. The only thing is that I don't think that I could go

the rest of my life not

> knowing. It's the classic story. And I'm by no means asking you

guys to direct me in this

> giant conundrum, but if any of you have gone through anything

similar, then maybe you

> have some insight? Mostly I just needed to get this off of my

chest. I haven't told anyone,

> really, because all of my friends are my partner's friends and I

don't want to risk anyone

> thinking that I have the intention on being deceitful or

unfaithful.

>

> Thanks for reading this elephant of a story...whew!!

>

> Love

>

> Kiwi

>

March 27, 2007

It sounds a lot like my story but me and this man I've been dreaming

about don't really know each other,we only saw each other a few

times and each time he looked different and I did not know he was

the same person but now I know.I've been remembering stuff like I've

always dreamed about him and I even saw him before but I've been too

scared of getting into another relationship after I left my ex-

husband.We keep seeing each other and I know we'll see each other

again real soon and that time we will talk to each other.I've been

having this dreams about this man and my awakening was triggered by

the most intense dream I've ever had with him.The feelings of love

and happiness in that dream made me panic and I wanted to experience

those feelings again after shunning all men since I left my ex-

husband.I am still searching for understanding those dreams and I

wish you find some understanding too.You will have to meditate and

ask your real self for guidance.

Love,Nicole

, " kiwibird_222 "

<sktimms wrote:

>

> I don't know what to do about something, and I thought I'd write

you guys to see what you

> think because you all are kind, wise and unbiased.

>

> Okay, so I have been in this relationship for 4 years this June.

Nothing wrong with it

> whatsoever, he's a wonderful guy, someone whom I could easily

spend the rest of my life

> with. The only issue is that I cannot stop dreaming about this guy

I've known since grade

> one. We were best friends throughout elementary school (I loved

him then but we wanted

> to `preserve our – childish – friendship'). His birthday is the

day before mine. For my first

> year of high school my family and I moved to a new town and I only

saw him very rarely –

> as in, every couple of years. One day when I was 18, however, I

received a call from him

> (his name is Jeremy). He was having troubles with his girlfriend

and needed to escape for a

> while, and he had hitchhiked to my town and had spent the night in

a park (he hadn't

> found my phone number until after this.) To make a long story

short, the day we spent

> together was flawless. It was as if no time had passed, except

that our more mature

> personalities had grown to fit with one another. As we were saying

goodbye the next day,

> we exchanged I love yous and promised to keep in touch.

>

> That was five years ago. Because we did not have the opportunity

to continue our

> relationship I have, on and off had dreams about him. But ever

since my awakening in

> November, I have dreamt of him a few times a week. I'm not sure if

it's a cyclical

> subconscious/conscious pattern – that since I've been dreaming of

him more I've been

> thinking of him more and thus dreaming of him again etc etc, but

regardless, he is in

> there a LOT. And almost always the dream consists of being

somewhere, anywhere,

> whether it be a crowded room or a street, and we see each other

and it, again, is like no

> time has passed, except that we have grown to fit each other. The

other small percentage

> of the dreams, and these are the most perplexing, are blurry; I am

weaker than weak and

> can barely move or speak and Jeremy starts speaking to me, telling

me he misses me, then

> poof, he is gone.

>

> What I can't stop wondering is if in these rare dreams if it is

possible that he is actually

> communicating to me, and if the K is trying to tell me something,

since the frequency of

> the dreams increased significantly since the awakening? I have

tried searching him out on

> the internet (I lost his e-mail address long ago) to no avail. His

mom isn't even listed

> anymore, nor have I had any success locating his old friends. It

is frustrating beyond belief

> to not be able to locate him. The only possible conduit is his old

friend's parents, whom

> I'm working up the courage to call. But there is no guarantee

Jeremy is even friends with

> this guy anymore, since between 18 and 23 you change friends so

much.

>

> Now, I mean, this is heavy stuff. I know. Even if I DID find him

and we discovered we were

> meant to be together this would be the most difficult decision of

my life. If my current

> relationship was unhealthy obviously seeking Jeremy out would be a

fruitful endeavour if

> even just to see how he's doing, excluding the whole `soul mate'

thing. But it's a great

> relationship. The only thing is that I don't think that I could go

the rest of my life not

> knowing. It's the classic story. And I'm by no means asking you

guys to direct me in this

> giant conundrum, but if any of you have gone through anything

similar, then maybe you

> have some insight? Mostly I just needed to get this off of my

chest. I haven't told anyone,

> really, because all of my friends are my partner's friends and I

don't want to risk anyone

> thinking that I have the intention on being deceitful or

unfaithful.

>

> Thanks for reading this elephant of a story...whew!!

>

> Love

>

> Kiwi

>

March 27, 2007

Droxi,

I find the " soul mate " idea interesting and meaningful. I find that

there are numerous people in this life time that I am inexorably

attracted to being with. Some romantically but most in other loving

ways. I have met people that I " know " immediately and yearn for more

time with and others who I am satisfied to spend just the time

allocated by this life time.

Then there are the others whom I have not, and probably will not, meet

in this life time yet I miss them very much. I see them " out there "

on occasion but not " here " .

I was reading " The Time Traveler's Wife " the other day and it struck a

vibrant cord in me. It brought up memories that I felt very strange

about. Hard to describe exactly but, I have, " been there " .

My wife and I have always been close and our life together is magical

in most every sense of the word. Not that unusual though ... anyway.

I got the strong sense that we hadn't planned our life necessarily to

be together this life time but just couldn't keep ourselves apart.

She thinks we planned it completely this way. Maybe she was the

master planner and I am just her love (not speaking physically here)

slave. I do have the sense that one of my purposes here is to do

things to make her life wonderful. She is the Goddess. Hope this

doesn't sound too sappy.

nice to see you posting again. : )

BlessU

Sam

, " droxine5 "

<Droxine1 wrote:

>

> Kiwi,

>

> After my awakening 7 years ago, I remembered who my soul mate was.

> He is someone I met briefly in college (the meeting had been both

> explosive and ultimately devastating, despite the limited conscious

> interaction). I had had superconscious interaction with him and

> blocked it out (I dissociated all my supernormal activity back

> then). During my awakening, it all came back.

>

March 27, 2007

Dear Kiwi,

Follow your heart on this. Soul connections never leave you, they are

part of you. Your dreams are important.

That said, not all soul connections are romantic but they are deeply

founded in love. You can have a " friend " as a soul " mate " (austrailian

term) or a friend as a soul twin (same soul family). Even soul groups

exist. Some are forming now in this group.

:)Troy

March 27, 2007

Thank you so much, Droxine and Sarita! I totally relate to this issue. For some

years, and still today, I have dreams concerning an old boyfriend from College

that I had a connection with I'd never felt before. The love was so intense, on

a level I hadn't had before. We were to gether 5 years. But his committment

level was low. I was looking for a lifetime partneer and he wanted to be

independent. And so I moved on, married someone else. This ex-boyfriend told me

he had wanted to marry me but it was too late by then. We parted with his wish

being we not stay in touch. To this day I think of him, though. He turns up in

my dreams regularly for us to reconnect and catch up on what we've done and

where we are now. They are loving, happy reunions. And I have this theme turn up

several times a month and it has for years now, almost to obsession. And in my

waking hours, whenever I read " soul mate " his face is the one that pops into my

mind. I love my current husband dearly and we

have a child, too. But it has never gotten to the mental level of mind reading

that it did with that earlier boyfriend. It's making me crazy!

So I thank you for these thoughts. They have shed some light on the issue for

me. And I hope that at some future date our paths will cross again (the

exboyfriend), even though I live in the West and he is in the East.

Peace to us all,

Valarie

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March 27, 2007

That's not sappy Sam, those are beautiful sentiments! I too have met

people that I " know " on site. The old love I had to disconnect from

was one of those as was my ex husband. The funny thing is, when I

first met my ex I was actually repelled by him initially. But it was

an experience I needed to go through, probably agreed to go through.

I have a lot of what I call " soul friends " , people I feel I have known

forever upon meeting. I have been blessed to have found a lot of them

in my lifetime.

Sarita

, " Sam "

<dallyup52 wrote:

>

> Droxi,

>

> I find the " soul mate " idea interesting and meaningful.

March 29, 2007

Sam,

First, let me mention Sam, it doesn't sound sappy, it is very touching,

romantic, and very spiritual in many ways. I understand where you are coming

from, the experiences you are talking about, I have experienced those same

things with people including my husband. My best friend in the world, she and I

knew from the beginning eons ago that we were meant to be in each others lives,

we often remark on how parallel our lives are now and in the past and how when

we finish each others sentences we are connected, and that our meeting in this

world was no consistence. From the very first day we met we felt as if we had

known each other for always and forever. So I know what you are talking about,

all of it!

Love,

Katherine

Sam <dallyup52 wrote: