Where I am...

[Guest guest]

I haven't checked in for a bit so thought I would. Nice to read how

everyone is doing. I can relate to so many of you. I guess I love you

all, you are family now!

 

I just did the Tibetans and some compression prayer and I felt like a

radiator on high heat (not really sweating but HOT!) and now my back

is

prickling like crazy! Ringing in my ears now, too.

 

I haven't had the headache now for a bit. Thank goodness. And my

dreams

seem to be returning but they have a different feel...not sure how to

describe that. They have always been in color, epic in length and

greatly detailed. Still are but there is an element of reunion or

remembering in them. I'm visiting old friends and having the happiest

reunions. Old college friends, co-workers at the hospital I worked in

in my 20's that were my friends also. I've visited my grandparents at

their house that I remember fondly from childhood (both now dead and

house sold). Last night was a lovely dream of a reunion with my first

true love, someone I dream of often but this one felt like it had

some

resolution to it, things were OK finally. And I saw beautiful

Northern

Lights in the SW sky!!! It was on the news and everyone was looking

up

at the sky watching this amazing phenomenon. Some were even bursting

like fireworks. So some amazing dream scenarios.

 

Anyway, I have to admit that some days, it is difficult to fit in all

the Tibetans. I'll do one here, then later get a chanct to do

another.

On rare occaisions, I get to do all 5 one right after another all

together. I hope it's OK to do them throughout the day...better than

not at all? And I'm having trouble giving up some of the things for

the

safeties. I'm a huge coffee lover. I have gone from 2 cups a day to

just the weekends (maybe 1 in the week) and most of those are now

decaf. And the second thing is giving up wine! My husband and I are

both " foodies " , we love the taste, smell, color, texture of foods,

home-

cooked, gourmet, ethnic, some of it grown by myself in my organic

garden. And to go along with that, we are pretty much wine

afficiendos,

my husband more than me. And on the weekend, our little ritual is a

glass of good wine with supper, 2 maybe 3 nights a week. I am finding

that extremely difficult to give up. It's something we both enjoy so

much. I don't do strong alcohol, not a spirits or beer drinker. Just

wine. So, *sigh* that is what I'm having trouble with. And my husband

will not be supportive of this change in my life style. He is not

supportive, though not aggressive (so far) in my spiritual search. He

thinks all this stuff (metaphysical study in general) is quackery and

for weak-minded people so he frowns on mhy pursuit of it. So I keep

it

to myself. The diet isn't an issue. We eat red meat rarely (by which

I

mean not often...haha!) and 2 maybe more meals a week might be

vegetarian (we love Indian and Middle Eastern dishes which often are

veggies and rice). But the meditations and giving up caffeine and

wine

will send up red flags I'm afraid and I don't want to harm our

relationship. It has been wonderful. Now I feel like I'm about to

rock

the boat, especially knowing how he feels about " air-headed New-

agers " .

Which I have to say I am one of...either that or an old hippie!

 

So I'm in a funny position. Nevertheless, I am having results. Maybe

only minor, in the scheme of things but I'm happy to see things

happening in myself.

 

Anyway, that's my update and confessional. I needed to get that off

my

chest. Ha...Sarita, I hear you saying that explains some things. You

are right. It was there under the surface all along. Still, it's my

thing to work out and if possible I will keep my family happy as well

as myself.

 

Hugs to all. I sure appreciate all of you.

Valarie

[Guest guest]

Hi Valarie! Glad to hear that things are happening for you. I can't

answer about the diet thing, that would be Chrism's dept. I am

having trouble myself in that area, lol. But I am following my body

messages, which sometimes tell me to eat red meat. I have never been

a big red meat eater (mostly chicken/turkey), but have had more since

the K than I have in months. I guess that it is needed right now in

my journey. Some days I am ravenous and eat like a man and other

days I barely eat at all. I am just rolling with it.

 

I just wanted to bring up something to you. I don't know if this is

the case for you, but have you considered that the situation with

your husband is a " challenge " or " test " ? It can be very difficult to

deal with a naysayer when trying to elevate yourself. My ex husband

made any spiritual pursuits very difficult for me, which is why my

progress was derailed for several years. I guess I have been making

up for lost time this year, lol.

 

I will keep you in my prayers. You never know, something may happen

to change your husband's mind about " new agers " and spirituality.

The universe works in mysterious ways...

 

Sarita

 

 

 

 

 

, " vjvousden "

<vjvousden wrote:

>

> I haven't checked in for a bit so thought I would. Nice to read how

> everyone is doing. I can relate to so many of you. I guess I love

you

> all, you are family now!

>

> I just did the Tibetans and some compression prayer and I felt like

a

> radiator on high heat (not really sweating but HOT!) and now my

back

> is

> prickling like crazy! Ringing in my ears now, too.

>

> I haven't had the headache now for a bit. Thank goodness. And my

> dreams

> seem to be returning but they have a different feel...not sure how

to

> describe that. They have always been in color, epic in length and

> greatly detailed. Still are but there is an element of reunion or

> remembering in them. I'm visiting old friends and having the

happiest

> reunions. Old college friends, co-workers at the hospital I worked

in

> in my 20's that were my friends also. I've visited my grandparents

at

> their house that I remember fondly from childhood (both now dead

and

> house sold). Last night was a lovely dream of a reunion with my

first

> true love, someone I dream of often but this one felt like it had

> some

> resolution to it, things were OK finally. And I saw beautiful

> Northern

> Lights in the SW sky!!! It was on the news and everyone was looking

> up

> at the sky watching this amazing phenomenon. Some were even

bursting

> like fireworks. So some amazing dream scenarios.

>

> Anyway, I have to admit that some days, it is difficult to fit in

all

> the Tibetans. I'll do one here, then later get a chanct to do

> another.

> On rare occaisions, I get to do all 5 one right after another all

> together. I hope it's OK to do them throughout the day...better

than

> not at all? And I'm having trouble giving up some of the things for

> the

> safeties. I'm a huge coffee lover. I have gone from 2 cups a day to

> just the weekends (maybe 1 in the week) and most of those are now

> decaf. And the second thing is giving up wine! My husband and I are

> both " foodies " , we love the taste, smell, color, texture of foods,

> home-

> cooked, gourmet, ethnic, some of it grown by myself in my organic

> garden. And to go along with that, we are pretty much wine

> afficiendos,

> my husband more than me. And on the weekend, our little ritual is a

> glass of good wine with supper, 2 maybe 3 nights a week. I am

finding

> that extremely difficult to give up. It's something we both enjoy

so

> much. I don't do strong alcohol, not a spirits or beer drinker.

Just

> wine. So, *sigh* that is what I'm having trouble with. And my

husband

> will not be supportive of this change in my life style. He is not

> supportive, though not aggressive (so far) in my spiritual search.

He

> thinks all this stuff (metaphysical study in general) is quackery

and

> for weak-minded people so he frowns on mhy pursuit of it. So I keep

> it

> to myself. The diet isn't an issue. We eat red meat rarely (by

which

> I

> mean not often...haha!) and 2 maybe more meals a week might be

> vegetarian (we love Indian and Middle Eastern dishes which often

are

> veggies and rice). But the meditations and giving up caffeine and

> wine

> will send up red flags I'm afraid and I don't want to harm our

> relationship. It has been wonderful. Now I feel like I'm about to

> rock

> the boat, especially knowing how he feels about " air-headed New-

> agers " .

> Which I have to say I am one of...either that or an old hippie!

>

> So I'm in a funny position. Nevertheless, I am having results.

Maybe

> only minor, in the scheme of things but I'm happy to see things

> happening in myself.

>

> Anyway, that's my update and confessional. I needed to get that off

> my

> chest. Ha...Sarita, I hear you saying that explains some things.

You

> are right. It was there under the surface all along. Still, it's my

> thing to work out and if possible I will keep my family happy as

well

> as myself.

>

> Hugs to all. I sure appreciate all of you.

> Valarie

>