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Hello Vivien,

Thank you for expressing your ordeal, never be sorry to write your

personal story here. I know one of the first things that will be suggested

to you would be to practice the 'Safeties' right away. I understand the

anxiety

of not understanding the logic of what's happening, trust me I went

through it too.

This month of physical disturbance sounded horrible and frightening, but

just know

that you are not alone here. This awakening will soon be pleasant for

you, and you

will not be fearful anymore once you follow all that is suggested to you.

My honest opinion is to stop with the medicines for anxiety he

prescribed for you.

The other would to practice all the safeties and Tibetan exercises, and

also surround

yourself with nature if at all possible where you live. These are the

basic advice here in

the group and I apologize in advance if someone has posted this

information already

good luck and blessings!

Lisa

 

minerva_vino wrote:

>

> Hello,

>

> My name is Vivien and I believe I am going through a Kundalini

> awakening & I have to say that it is scary. I have been in a Yoga

> Teacher training program for almost 6 months now. I attended a

> Chakra workshop about a month ago, while there I also had my aura

> pictures taken. The ones before the workshop showed a lot of yellow

> all around me with orange to one side & green to the other. After

> the workshop, all you could see was the yellow, my face was barely

> showing & the orange & green were still on the sides. I also saw the

> movie " The Secret " that same weekend and really felt like a light

> turned on. About two days later, I was at work & I felt this surge,

> it started at the base of my neck and shot down my body. I thought I

> was going to pass out. Then my mind started racing & I felt like for

> the first time in my life I was having an anxiety attack. It scared

> me so bad, I thought I was going to die. I ended up leaving work &

> people commented that I looked ashy.

>

> For the next couple of days I could not work. I was throwing up &

> going to the bathroom non-stop. I couldn't eat for 4 days because

> nothing would stay down. I felt this constant tension in my body. I

> spoke to my yoga teachers who all seemed so happy for me that I was

> going through this " awakening " , of course I have not felt like this

> because the process is scary. I went to see my therapist who said I

> was going through some breakthrough but because I was crying at the

> drop of the hat & that made me more nervous, he prescribed me some

> Klonipin, which I have tried not to take on a regular basis.

> I tried to go back to work the next week but I was still throwing

> up. I ended up going home to my family since I live alone because

> they were concerned & wanted to take care of me. I have been out of

> work a month now & have had a myriad of tests on my stomach. I now

> have an inflammation of my duodenum and I have never had a stomach

> problem in my life.

>

> I have had some Cymatron healings and Reiki, I am also doing self-

> Reiki on myself. I go back to work on Monday which I am happy about

> because I can't believe that something that is so good for me is

> causing such chaos in my life. It's very hard talking about this to

> people. I used to think this kind of talk was for 'kooks', that no

> one really could go through some spiritual change like this. It

> makes me feel like I have really lost my mind. I think about life &

> death so much, I watch tv and see advertisements for things to buy &

> they all seem so trivial to me. I am worried about the destruction

> of our earth and what we can do to stop it. I have this constant

> underlying feeling of tension in my body. The violence in the news

> is really affecting me.

>

> I have had some bad things happen to me in the past but through

> therapy have overcome them but now memories of things I completely

> forgot have come back & it surprises me more than scares me.

> I'm sorry this is so long. I just need to get this out. I worry that

> I am going crazy & somehow can't bridge the gap between what makes

> sense & what doesn't. This doesn't seem logical to me. Thank you for

> taking the time to listen to me.

>

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