Laura

April 29, 2007

How have you been doing with the instructions offerred? - blessings -

chrism

April 30, 2007

Hi Chrism,

I have been working with the instructions, the grounding, eating,

forgiveness, feeling the Christ Consciousness energy in my core, strongly

working with just being myself (feeling my personal essence) even admist

this which involves reclaiming my functioning where I can, doing

somato-respiratory integration, etc...just doing alot of healing and prayer

work done daily.

This has definitely had an impact on my quality of life, improved my daily

functioning, helped me reclaim my spiritual center, improved my health, and

many more positive changes.

I really love the Essene Prayer, and vary it a bit to also deeply connect

with the Divine Earth energy.

However, I still have not been able to effect the shift needed to close to

portal or end the chords (however to understand it) with the beings in the

" other realm " . I need this to shift, I think it is needed on both sides. I

don't belong " there " ...I still end up with attacks that most of the time I

can ignore or meditate through, and also forgive, but my sleep has been so

disrupted by them, that this can become a challenge, and my inner world is

occupied in a way that makes me have to do a lot of damage control in ways I

otherwise wouldn't. The forgiveness still comes.

So I know I am getting to a better place, more hope, doing alot to clear and

balance my energy channels, deepening my acceptance of what is happening in

the midst of all of it, and committing to love and compassion for myself

through this. I am definitely finding my places of power or control that I

can reclaim at this time.

I would still be very greatful for an incursion, or more instruction towards

it, since with all of this, the worlds are still linked (I don't know the

best way to describe that), and this is still a hardship. I just haven't

been able to figure it out, or effec the change.

Many thanks for checking in, and for your suggestions.

Peace,

Laura

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April 30, 2007

Hello Laura,

If you would please have a look at where the chords are

attaching to you and let me know. Please continue with what you are

doing for the allotted time. Your making great progress! -

May 2, 2007

Hi Chrism,

It was going quite well until yesterday, when a new extremely virulent

attack began, they are putting some energetic form of a poison, like

cyanide, into my body and meridian system. This is making me quite sick and

disoriented.

I could use some help, but don't know what to ask for.

I am not sure where the chords are attaching. I " see " their attachment in

various ways (it seems to change form and evolve).

I can't write alot right now, I need to get through this one, but thanks for

checking in.

Peace,

Laura

On 4/30/07, chrism <> wrote:

>

> Hello Laura,

> If you would please have a look at where the chords are

> attaching to you and let me know. Please continue with what you are

> doing for the allotted time. Your making great progress! -

>

May 2, 2007

Hello Laura,

Keep doing the prayer of the Essenes. Your meridian and

energetic systems are fine regardless of what you percieve or feel.

Try not to buy into what is being presented. Please increase your

magnesium levels to 300 mgs per day. -

May 3, 2007

Hi Laura,

I do not claim to have any knowledge of what you are going through, that being

said,

have you prayed for Arch Angel Michael's protection and help?

If you believe in such beings.

Whenever I am in need of protection or in need of help cutting chords, I call

AA Michael, with his mighty sword of blue flame to cut the chords in all

directions and then seal them so they cannot reattach and then send love and

forgiveness out in all directions.

I keep calling on him until I feel finished.

Just a thought, perhaps you have already tried this?

I wish you many blessings and I call AA Michael to your side to love and

protect you.

Much love Elektra x x x

L K <spacegypsie wrote:

Hi Chrism,

It was going quite well until yesterday, when a new extremely virulent

attack began, they are putting some energetic form of a poison, like

cyanide, into my body and meridian system. This is making me quite sick and

disoriented.

I could use some help, but don't know what to ask for.

I am not sure where the chords are attaching. I " see " their attachment in

various ways (it seems to change form and evolve).

I can't write alot right now, I need to get through this one, but thanks for

checking in.

Peace,

Laura

On 4/30/07, chrism wrote:

>

> Hello Laura,

> If you would please have a look at where the chords are

> attaching to you and let me know. Please continue with what you are

> doing for the allotted time. Your making great progress! -

>

May 5, 2007

Hi & List,

I am still doing the Essene prayer, amping up my grounding, intake of B

vits, adaptogens, brain foods (like omega 3s & avocados) and waiting to get

my cal/mag supplement. I have been doing a combo of forgiveness and

practicing acceptance/the witness.

Its wierd, the more normal/back to myself I become in the face of everything

I am experiencing, the more " they " are amping up their attacks/drive to kill

me. While I have progressively gotten much more grounded and back in my

spiritual center, I am still somehow not shifting this.

Just to go dualistically, is hard for me to understand if these beings are a

force within my psyche, or without (if it is without, it seems my psychic

protection would have greater impact), or both (dimensional breach?). If it

is just within, I don't understand. I love myself, have compassion for

myself/others, shadow sides and all...I can't make sense of what is

happening/how i manifested this or how this manifested through me.

Maybe it is good to not ask how, and focus on pragmatics.

It is hard to not feel like my life is at risk with some of the things

" they " are doing to attack me, my body has been under alot of stress for

along time and is showing signs of it. Emotionally, I have been getting

killed for so long now, I am almost not even noticing...but I don't think

my ability to ignore it is necessarily a good thing - my body-self needs

love and kindness and recovery, not adaptation to being under attack.

I am trying to trust I am safe, trust the Divine, trust the earth and trees,

trust that my body can handle this stressful process and come out of it, and

also trust that at some point something will shift.

I can understand that these " beings " are not conscious or sentient and they

really don't know what they are doing and why. That is helping me stay in

the witness rather than engaging with them (which leads to dissassociation,

and my body needs the energy right now, it is also fruitless for me when I

do...does not result in positive shifts).

But I love myself and really need this to stop. I am not giving up faith

that there is a way to shift this.

Well, I am going to keep the faith and healing practices going, and try to

get an appointment with a local tibetan lama soon...I don't have a question

really, I am just reaching out. As always, I am deeply greatful for insight

or guidance.

Thanks to all those who have supported me so far, on the list and in my

life.

Peace,

Laura

On 5/2/07, chrism <> wrote:

>

> Hello Laura,

> Keep doing the prayer of the Essenes. Your meridian and

> energetic systems are fine regardless of what you percieve or feel.

> Try not to buy into what is being presented. Please increase your

> magnesium levels to 300 mgs per day. -

>

May 6, 2007

I understand what is happening with you Laura. This kind of

experience isn't uncommon with the Kundalini. It happens the most

for those who awaken it without any guidance or help and get wrapped

up in making physical dimensional comparisons and decisions based

upon those comparisons for spiritual dimensional issues.

What is occurring is a mixed bag of different interference. Some of

these entities are brought on by you and the recognition you have

given them i.e. recognition can equal existence for a being that

starts out as a spiritual fragment.

The recognition backed up by an awakened Kundalini can make it even

stronger. Then there are those that feed off the fear that you have

been experiencing through the death scenarios. This interferes with

your ability to surrender to the Kundalini causing you to fight it

which in turn causes you to have a very unhealthy action upon you by

the Kundalini.

This is what can do the most harm. As the process is continued, and

it will continue, your attitude inside of this process has been

infected with fear and pain and all you want for it is to stop. You

didn't ask for this and you feel it is a mistake and an unnecessary

trauma. And even in this attitude are you still fighting the

Kundalini. Which will amplify the worst aspects of your inner

natures as it is fed this from your subconscious.

The Essenes prayer and the safeties are all part of the incursion I

have spoken to you about as these actions act as conditioner for

what the scatterfield will do. They also act as a validation of your

control over what is occurring. A validation that comes with

a " responsibility " for what is occurring. Taking the " victim " out of

the situation.

This must become a point of strength for you Laura. You are not a

victim!

Force yourself to eat well. Forced yourself to hydrate your body

liberally. Take the cal mag and also I suggest you begin taking a

vit. C complex consisting of at least 1000 mgs of ascorbic acid and

80 mgs of bio flavinoids and 80 mgs of rutin. At least once a day

with food. This is to help build and protect the immune system as

the Kundalini is going to dump toxins continuously until you begin

to shift your awareness of what is occurring and embrace the process.

What day are you inside the previous instructions I gave you? -

May 6, 2007

Laura you have had Kundalini for a while now. Have these

issues " just " come up for you lately in the past three months or have

they been with you from prior to 2001. -

May 6, 2007

Hi Chrism,

Each time you name owning my ground (discarding the victim), the reclamation

process sinks deeper. I still feel I have some major surrenduring to do to

what is happening. Even though I am still going into states of fear, it did

really help having you name that my meridians and chakras are fine...I have

been reprogramming around safety. I will keep amping it up.

I think it has been about 4 days since you recommended the magnesium (should

get that Monday), and close to 2 weeks since you first mentioned the

incursion.

This current experience/issues have only been with me since late

January...though I am myself, so maybe it is just the form my issues are

presenting themselves now that is very different and more intense than what

I am used to - and more bizarre than my (still) western mind was prepared

for. It is true that I started having a spiritual emergence/emergency

process before 2001, and at that time became aware of kundalini. But there

was just me in my head so to speak...

Could you tell me more about what you meant when you said making physical

dimensional comparisons and decisions based upon comparisons for spiritual

dimensional issues? This resonated with me but I am not quite clear yet.

Peace,

Laura

On 5/5/07, chrism <> wrote:

>

> Laura you have had Kundalini for a while now. Have these

> issues " just " come up for you lately in the past three months or have

> they been with you from prior to 2001. -

>

May 6, 2007

Dear Laura,

I really think you are doing great.

Everything is God and everything is one, so I know that you will find your

answers and get there , you are obviously learning some very important things

and when you come through this, you will look back and think " wow " I did that

and learnt so much.

You just keep up what you are doing, be patient with yourself and remember

that you have the power to do anything.

I believe in you one hundred percent.

Also, I know you know that death is not real, so, remember that this is all an

illusion.

Life is eternal, you are the life, you are the light.

Lots of love and support,

Hugz Elektra x x x