introduction to group

May 10, 2007

Hello everyone,

I've been a long time lurker (guilty as charged) (:

I've been lurking around trying to figure out if my Kundlini has been

activated and more about it. I really appreciate reading all the

posts. Honestly I still don't know for sure. Just over a decade ago

when my kids were little, I use to read them a book at bedtime and

lay there until they fell asleep (because I wanted them to feel safe

and secure while they fell asleep...I know what a wimp I am) anyway

sometimes it only took 1/2 hr a night for them to fall asleep and

sometimes much longer. Not knowing what the heck I was doing, I use

to just concentrate on how much I appreciated having them in my life

and how much I loved them and everything else in the world. I should

mention that I don't belong to a religion even though I was raised

Catholic, I had steered away from formal religion. I also use to

listen to a lot of beautiful music, and nature sounds ect. Well after

a couple months I started noticing tingles everywhere and strange

energy currents running up my legs which felt very nice. As this

continued and I continued focusing on love and appreciation, a bunch

of stuff started happening almost at once. In the middle of the night

I would wake up with what felt like strong seizures. I fought it so

hard because all I could think of was that I was going to die and my

children needed me. The harder I fought the more I shook. I also

wasnt sure if that was it or if I was in the middle of an earthquake.

And I'm thinking whats wrong with my husband, " why is he sleeping

through all this? " Anyway my pjs would be soaked in sweat and while

it seemed an eternity of shaking, it would finally stop. However this

went on for a couple of months every night. And while at a business

seminar, this speaker started to talk about a personal trial he went

through, and I guess I started really appreciating him and the next

thing I know, I get this kinda tunnel vision and start to feel this

strong electric current going up my back. I was freaking out and

couldnt move, and I had this awful feeling that if it got to my head

I was going to do something really embarrassing in front of hundreds

of people. The more the speaker talked about his story the stronger

the current was...so I figured out I had better stop listening. Since

I couldnt move, I started singing the ABC's in my head to try to stop

from hearing him. It settled down, and after that I just knew I had

to stop all this meditation I was doing. So I did. I had noone to

talk to about it, and had some other phenomena going on. Well about

two long months of stopping the nightly meditations, the what I now

know is vibrating in the middle of the night stopped. Because I

really didnt know what I was doing, I was scared and kinda had some

other not so pleasant things happen that I know now were some deep

seated fears attracting scary situations. (also good stuff)

Sorry this is so long. Since then I feel a lot of tingles and a bunch

of stuff on top of my head. I can cry alot sometimes for no reason,

and I seem to be sensitive to foods, and weather and all sort of

stuff. I keep thinking I see things out of the corner of my eye and

when I look, its gone. I do remember most of my dreams and have a lot

of lucid dreams. Not that I really know what they are about. I also

of course love the flying in them. I know pretty much what others are

thinking if they are around me. I don't like crowds. ( Doesnt this

describe a whole lot of people?) some other stuff too

Chrisms' story also brought to light something else. I have been

upset because I thought someone was mad at me(that I care about)and I

kept e-mailing them and they wouldnt respond. I didnt know if I said

or did something to upset them, and I have been really upset all

month by it. Everytime I started thinking about it, I was getting sad

or mad or something. Anyway I noticed everytime I walked in a room

the lights were flickering on and off and I kept blowing bulbs. I

thought our house had an electical problem and that I needed to call

an electrician. Well today I spoke to them and found out that they

didn't get any of my e-mails and she sounded very sincere and so

happy to hear from me. So was that a coincidence with all the bulbs

or that I have an electic problem or my energy out of whack because

I've been so upset? I guess for an unknowing lurker, better to blow a

bulb then produce/attract? a snake. (:

Anyway I still am not sure if I'm activated or not. While I feel

tingles all over my back and other places, I really do not have an

energy current running up it anymore. Also, maybe my electic is bad.

And maybe some of the other things are just my age and PMS related!

HA Although there is other stuff going on, I'm not sure. But most of

all just wanted to say how much I appreciate everyones posts, because

I've learned so much! Too bad I was such a wuss when this all

started. Wonder if I lost my chance. I one time read on another

message board that the only real sin, was the nonacceptance of the

awakening. I would tell you that I don't believe that and I don't,

but I notice that I keep remembering it.

Really sorry about how long this is. See I lurk and lurk and now you

can't shut me up. I will keep other posts short. Thanks, from

the " use to be almost activated " or unknowing lurker

Deb

May 10, 2007

I do not have time to read this atm. But i just wanted to say check

out the forums =p

http://www.kundaliniawakeningsystems.co.nr/

,

" flowerpowers7777 " <flowerpowers7777 wrote:

>

> Hello everyone,

> I've been a long time lurker (guilty as charged) (:

> I've been lurking around trying to figure out if my Kundlini has

been

> activated and more about it. I really appreciate reading all the

> posts. Honestly I still don't know for sure. Just over a decade ago

> when my kids were little, I use to read them a book at bedtime and

> lay there until they fell asleep (because I wanted them to feel

safe

> and secure while they fell asleep...I know what a wimp I am) anyway

> sometimes it only took 1/2 hr a night for them to fall asleep and

> sometimes much longer. Not knowing what the heck I was doing, I use

> to just concentrate on how much I appreciated having them in my

life

> and how much I loved them and everything else in the world. I

should

> mention that I don't belong to a religion even though I was raised

> Catholic, I had steered away from formal religion. I also use to

> listen to a lot of beautiful music, and nature sounds ect. Well

after

> a couple months I started noticing tingles everywhere and strange

> energy currents running up my legs which felt very nice. As this

> continued and I continued focusing on love and appreciation, a

bunch

> of stuff started happening almost at once. In the middle of the

night

> I would wake up with what felt like strong seizures. I fought it so

> hard because all I could think of was that I was going to die and

my

> children needed me. The harder I fought the more I shook. I also

> wasnt sure if that was it or if I was in the middle of an

earthquake.

> And I'm thinking whats wrong with my husband, " why is he sleeping

> through all this? " Anyway my pjs would be soaked in sweat and while

> it seemed an eternity of shaking, it would finally stop. However

this

> went on for a couple of months every night. And while at a business

> seminar, this speaker started to talk about a personal trial he

went

> through, and I guess I started really appreciating him and the next

> thing I know, I get this kinda tunnel vision and start to feel this

> strong electric current going up my back. I was freaking out and

> couldnt move, and I had this awful feeling that if it got to my

head

> I was going to do something really embarrassing in front of

hundreds

> of people. The more the speaker talked about his story the stronger

> the current was...so I figured out I had better stop listening.

Since

> I couldnt move, I started singing the ABC's in my head to try to

stop

> from hearing him. It settled down, and after that I just knew I had

> to stop all this meditation I was doing. So I did. I had noone to

> talk to about it, and had some other phenomena going on. Well about

> two long months of stopping the nightly meditations, the what I now

> know is vibrating in the middle of the night stopped. Because I

> really didnt know what I was doing, I was scared and kinda had some

> other not so pleasant things happen that I know now were some deep

> seated fears attracting scary situations. (also good stuff)

> Sorry this is so long. Since then I feel a lot of tingles and a

bunch

> of stuff on top of my head. I can cry alot sometimes for no reason,

> and I seem to be sensitive to foods, and weather and all sort of

> stuff. I keep thinking I see things out of the corner of my eye and

> when I look, its gone. I do remember most of my dreams and have a

lot

> of lucid dreams. Not that I really know what they are about. I also

> of course love the flying in them. I know pretty much what others

are

> thinking if they are around me. I don't like crowds. ( Doesnt this

> describe a whole lot of people?) some other stuff too

> Chrisms' story also brought to light something else. I have been

> upset because I thought someone was mad at me(that I care about)and

I

> kept e-mailing them and they wouldnt respond. I didnt know if I

said

> or did something to upset them, and I have been really upset all

> month by it. Everytime I started thinking about it, I was getting

sad

> or mad or something. Anyway I noticed everytime I walked in a room

> the lights were flickering on and off and I kept blowing bulbs. I

> thought our house had an electical problem and that I needed to

call

> an electrician. Well today I spoke to them and found out that they

> didn't get any of my e-mails and she sounded very sincere and so

> happy to hear from me. So was that a coincidence with all the bulbs

> or that I have an electic problem or my energy out of whack because

> I've been so upset? I guess for an unknowing lurker, better to blow

a

> bulb then produce/attract? a snake. (:

>

> Anyway I still am not sure if I'm activated or not. While I feel

> tingles all over my back and other places, I really do not have an

> energy current running up it anymore. Also, maybe my electic is

bad.

> And maybe some of the other things are just my age and PMS related!

> HA Although there is other stuff going on, I'm not sure. But most

of

> all just wanted to say how much I appreciate everyones posts,

because

> I've learned so much! Too bad I was such a wuss when this all

> started. Wonder if I lost my chance. I one time read on another

> message board that the only real sin, was the nonacceptance of the

> awakening. I would tell you that I don't believe that and I don't,

> but I notice that I keep remembering it.

>

> Really sorry about how long this is. See I lurk and lurk and now

you

> can't shut me up. I will keep other posts short. Thanks, from

> the " use to be almost activated " or unknowing lurker

> Deb

>

May 11, 2007

Hello and welcome Deb.

You are not a wuss whatever that means. You

are a very gifted person. The kind of activation you have received

is why the platforms of forgiveness and compassion, service and love

are in the safeties as these " exalted " actions will activate a

person. And they are the best of all ways from which to experience

the Kundalini.

You are still activated, it doesn't go away. For reasons known only

to your Kundalini a slight reprieve from activity has been given to

you. This is good and allows you time to become more comfortable

with your process. There is nothing to fear. The embarrassment would

be a small price to pay for the unfolding that awaits you. Swamis

and holy people from all over the world strive to achieve what you

have achieved. Some wait many lifetimes to even approach where we in

this group are able, by the gifts of grace, to travel.

You have Kundalini. Kundalini has you. All the symptoms you have

listed and described are consistent with this active grace with in

you. I have had Kundalini for many years now and I have experienced

many of the forms and symptoms - including yours - that the body

goes into with the presence of the Kundalini. You have it in my

opinion. I welcome you into the active nature of what is being

prepared for you Deb. -

May 11, 2007

Hi Debs,

Glad you came out from the lurking corner!!!

Sounds like an activation to me, I don't think you did

anything wrong either.

Everything happens in it's right and perfect time.

I don't believe in " sin " as such, but someone once

told me that the only sin was to hurt another beings

spiritual advancement. I liked that explanation.

I don't think being afraid of a powerful energy

awakening is on the list of sin, if there is such a

list???

I'm sure that divinity wants you to be happy and

relaxed and well informed about the direction your

life is going in.

And so, here you are, on Chrism's amazing list full of

advice and info.

You sound like you are on the " right " track.

Glad to meet ya and read about your exciting

experiences.

Wishing you blessings,

Elektra x x x

--- flowerpowers7777 <flowerpowers7777

wrote:

> Hello everyone,

> I've been a long time lurker (guilty as charged) (:

>

> I've been lurking around trying to figure out if my

> Kundlini has been

> activated and more about it. I really appreciate

> reading all the

> posts. Honestly I still don't know for sure. Just

> over a decade ago

> when my kids were little, I use to read them a book

> at bedtime and

> lay there until they fell asleep (because I wanted

> them to feel safe

> and secure while they fell asleep...I know what a

> wimp I am) anyway

> sometimes it only took 1/2 hr a night for them to

> fall asleep and

> sometimes much longer. Not knowing what the heck I

> was doing, I use

> to just concentrate on how much I appreciated having

> them in my life

> and how much I loved them and everything else in the

> world. I should

> mention that I don't belong to a religion even

> though I was raised

> Catholic, I had steered away from formal religion. I

> also use to

> listen to a lot of beautiful music, and nature

> sounds ect. Well after

> a couple months I started noticing tingles

> everywhere and strange

> energy currents running up my legs which felt very

> nice. As this

> continued and I continued focusing on love and

> appreciation, a bunch

> of stuff started happening almost at once. In the

> middle of the night

> I would wake up with what felt like strong seizures.

> I fought it so

> hard because all I could think of was that I was

> going to die and my

> children needed me. The harder I fought the more I

> shook. I also

> wasnt sure if that was it or if I was in the middle

> of an earthquake.

> And I'm thinking whats wrong with my husband, " why

> is he sleeping

> through all this? " Anyway my pjs would be soaked in

> sweat and while

> it seemed an eternity of shaking, it would finally

> stop. However this

> went on for a couple of months every night. And

> while at a business

> seminar, this speaker started to talk about a

> personal trial he went

> through, and I guess I started really appreciating

> him and the next

> thing I know, I get this kinda tunnel vision and

> start to feel this

> strong electric current going up my back. I was

> freaking out and

> couldnt move, and I had this awful feeling that if

> it got to my head

> I was going to do something really embarrassing in

> front of hundreds

> of people. The more the speaker talked about his

> story the stronger

> the current was...so I figured out I had better stop

> listening. Since

> I couldnt move, I started singing the ABC's in my

> head to try to stop

> from hearing him. It settled down, and after that I

> just knew I had

> to stop all this meditation I was doing. So I did. I

> had noone to

> talk to about it, and had some other phenomena going

> on. Well about

> two long months of stopping the nightly meditations,

> the what I now

> know is vibrating in the middle of the night

> stopped. Because I

> really didnt know what I was doing, I was scared and

> kinda had some

> other not so pleasant things happen that I know now

> were some deep

> seated fears attracting scary situations. (also good

> stuff)

> Sorry this is so long. Since then I feel a lot of

> tingles and a bunch

> of stuff on top of my head. I can cry alot sometimes

> for no reason,

> and I seem to be sensitive to foods, and weather and

> all sort of

> stuff. I keep thinking I see things out of the

> corner of my eye and

> when I look, its gone. I do remember most of my

> dreams and have a lot

> of lucid dreams. Not that I really know what they

> are about. I also

> of course love the flying in them. I know pretty

> much what others are

> thinking if they are around me. I don't like crowds.

> ( Doesnt this

> describe a whole lot of people?) some other stuff

> too

> Chrisms' story also brought to light something else.

> I have been

> upset because I thought someone was mad at me(that I

> care about)and I

> kept e-mailing them and they wouldnt respond. I

> didnt know if I said

> or did something to upset them, and I have been

> really upset all

> month by it. Everytime I started thinking about it,

> I was getting sad

> or mad or something. Anyway I noticed everytime I

> walked in a room

> the lights were flickering on and off and I kept

> blowing bulbs. I

> thought our house had an electical problem and that

> I needed to call

> an electrician. Well today I spoke to them and found

> out that they

> didn't get any of my e-mails and she sounded very

> sincere and so

> happy to hear from me. So was that a coincidence

> with all the bulbs

> or that I have an electic problem or my energy out

> of whack because

> I've been so upset? I guess for an unknowing lurker,

> better to blow a

> bulb then produce/attract? a snake. (:

>

> Anyway I still am not sure if I'm activated or not.

> While I feel

> tingles all over my back and other places, I really

> do not have an

> energy current running up it anymore. Also, maybe my

> electic is bad.

> And maybe some of the other things are just my age

> and PMS related!

> HA Although there is other stuff going on, I'm not

> sure. But most of

> all just wanted to say how much I appreciate

> everyones posts, because

> I've learned so much! Too bad I was such a wuss when

> this all

> started. Wonder if I lost my chance. I one time read

> on another

> message board that the only real sin, was the

> nonacceptance of the

> awakening. I would tell you that I don't believe

> that and I don't,

> but I notice that I keep remembering it.

>

> Really sorry about how long this is. See I lurk and

> lurk and now you

> can't shut me up. I will keep other posts short.

> Thanks, from

> the " use to be almost activated " or unknowing lurker

> Deb

>

May 11, 2007

Hi Deb..

Welcome to the group, and thanks for not lurking anymore. :-) I can't

answer your questions, but I enjoyed reading your post (and of course the

posts of everyone else here). I can only say that I'm constantly amazed at

the wonderful people here, and here you are - you seem like another one. :-)

Others will give you a real answer - I just wanted to say hi.

Have a wonderful day!

Paul

> " flowerpowers7777 " <flowerpowers7777

>

> introduction to group

>Fri, 11 May 2007 04:57:05 -0000

>

>Hello everyone,

>I've been a long time lurker (guilty as charged) (:

>I've been lurking around trying to figure out if my Kundlini has been

>activated and more about it. I really appreciate reading all the

>posts. Honestly I still don't know for sure. Just over a decade ago

>when my kids were little, I use to read them a book at bedtime and

>lay there until they fell asleep (because I wanted them to feel safe

>and secure while they fell asleep...I know what a wimp I am) anyway

>sometimes it only took 1/2 hr a night for them to fall asleep and

>sometimes much longer. Not knowing what the heck I was doing, I use

>to just concentrate on how much I appreciated having them in my life

>and how much I loved them and everything else in the world. I should

>mention that I don't belong to a religion even though I was raised

>Catholic, I had steered away from formal religion. I also use to

>listen to a lot of beautiful music, and nature sounds ect. Well after

>a couple months I started noticing tingles everywhere and strange

>energy currents running up my legs which felt very nice. As this

>continued and I continued focusing on love and appreciation, a bunch

>of stuff started happening almost at once. In the middle of the night

>I would wake up with what felt like strong seizures. I fought it so

>hard because all I could think of was that I was going to die and my

>children needed me. The harder I fought the more I shook. I also

>wasnt sure if that was it or if I was in the middle of an earthquake.

>And I'm thinking whats wrong with my husband, " why is he sleeping

>through all this? " Anyway my pjs would be soaked in sweat and while

>it seemed an eternity of shaking, it would finally stop. However this

>went on for a couple of months every night. And while at a business

>seminar, this speaker started to talk about a personal trial he went

>through, and I guess I started really appreciating him and the next

>thing I know, I get this kinda tunnel vision and start to feel this

>strong electric current going up my back. I was freaking out and

>couldnt move, and I had this awful feeling that if it got to my head

>I was going to do something really embarrassing in front of hundreds

>of people. The more the speaker talked about his story the stronger

>the current was...so I figured out I had better stop listening. Since

>I couldnt move, I started singing the ABC's in my head to try to stop

>from hearing him. It settled down, and after that I just knew I had

>to stop all this meditation I was doing. So I did. I had noone to

>talk to about it, and had some other phenomena going on. Well about

>two long months of stopping the nightly meditations, the what I now

>know is vibrating in the middle of the night stopped. Because I

>really didnt know what I was doing, I was scared and kinda had some

>other not so pleasant things happen that I know now were some deep

>seated fears attracting scary situations. (also good stuff)

>Sorry this is so long. Since then I feel a lot of tingles and a bunch

>of stuff on top of my head. I can cry alot sometimes for no reason,

>and I seem to be sensitive to foods, and weather and all sort of

>stuff. I keep thinking I see things out of the corner of my eye and

>when I look, its gone. I do remember most of my dreams and have a lot

>of lucid dreams. Not that I really know what they are about. I also

>of course love the flying in them. I know pretty much what others are

>thinking if they are around me. I don't like crowds. ( Doesnt this

>describe a whole lot of people?) some other stuff too

>Chrisms' story also brought to light something else. I have been

>upset because I thought someone was mad at me(that I care about)and I

>kept e-mailing them and they wouldnt respond. I didnt know if I said

>or did something to upset them, and I have been really upset all

>month by it. Everytime I started thinking about it, I was getting sad

>or mad or something. Anyway I noticed everytime I walked in a room

>the lights were flickering on and off and I kept blowing bulbs. I

>thought our house had an electical problem and that I needed to call

>an electrician. Well today I spoke to them and found out that they

>didn't get any of my e-mails and she sounded very sincere and so

>happy to hear from me. So was that a coincidence with all the bulbs

>or that I have an electic problem or my energy out of whack because

>I've been so upset? I guess for an unknowing lurker, better to blow a

>bulb then produce/attract? a snake. (:

>

>Anyway I still am not sure if I'm activated or not. While I feel

>tingles all over my back and other places, I really do not have an

>energy current running up it anymore. Also, maybe my electic is bad.

>And maybe some of the other things are just my age and PMS related!

>HA Although there is other stuff going on, I'm not sure. But most of

>all just wanted to say how much I appreciate everyones posts, because

>I've learned so much! Too bad I was such a wuss when this all

>started. Wonder if I lost my chance. I one time read on another

>message board that the only real sin, was the nonacceptance of the

>awakening. I would tell you that I don't believe that and I don't,

>but I notice that I keep remembering it.

>

>Really sorry about how long this is. See I lurk and lurk and now you

>can't shut me up. I will keep other posts short. Thanks, from

>the " use to be almost activated " or unknowing lurker

>Deb

>

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Hi Deb, and welcome to the group... I can relate to so much of your

post, I could've written a lot of it! Nice to *meet* you, and I look

forward to hearing more from you as well. love & light ~Jen~

May 11, 2007

Welcome Deb! It is a pleasure to meet someone such as yourself. You

sound like such a blessing. Trust that you are K active. I am fairly

new to this but found myseld nodding my head as I read your story! You

found the right place for info, good companionship and guidance.

Sarita

Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-

1 , " flowerpowers7777 " <flowerpowers7777 wrote:

>

> Hello everyone,

> I've been a long time lurker (guilty as charged) (:

> I've been lurking around trying to figure out if my Kundlini has been

> activated and more about it. I really appreciate reading all the

> posts. Honestly I still don't know for sure.

May 11, 2007

Hi Deb, glad you found your way here and let us know of your

presense. I don't see any harm in lurking, no one even knows until

you tell.

Blessings

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