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I posted this to another group - kundaliniheat - and I am posting it

here also:

 

I hesitate to claim that I am experiencing any particular thing, such

as a Kundalini awaking, though it seems the best description I have

yet to find to describe it.

 

I am not religious, nor do I follow any particular spiritual

teachings. What I believe comes from my own experience and intuition

only and it tends to change gradually all of the time, as I change.

 

A few weeks ago, I was attempting to practice a new relaxation

technique I had found with the aim of trying to deal better with my

Chronic Fatigue Syndrome symptoms. Several times I had " relaxed into "

the fatigue and felt mild feelings of light-headedness. This time,

the feeling was far more intense and as I concentrated on just letting

whatever feeling happen that seemed to want to happen, I experienced a

rush of feeling up my body to my head with chills and tingling and

something like a feeling of euphoria. For a half hour or so, I had to

concentrate on allowing the feelings to happen but after that, they

persisted on their own.

 

Eventually, I started having something like mild hallucinations as if

there were beings in the shadows of my apartment or just outside the

window talking. I got spooked for a while but was able to calm down

with the aid of a friend on the telephone. He also helped me to come

down from that high since I was afraid to remain that way for too

long. The whole experience lasted for an hour or two.

 

I described this experience to another friend who insisted I needed to

read " Living with Kundalini " by Gopi Krishna. Though my experience

differed in many ways from the author's, there were enough

similarities that I was intrigued.

 

But the biggest factor in convincing me that I was probably

experiencing Kundalini was a memory of several experiences I had as a

child, laying in bed at night, feeling an electric current make it's

way relentlessly up my spine, despite my attempts to stop it, and

exploding in my head with deafening sounds (and perhaps light, though

my memories are hazy past the experience of sound). I felt totally

out of control of my body at those times and utterly terrified.

 

I never told anyone about them and I have no memory of any

after-effects. I was however, an an unusually introverted and

philosophical child and always had my own theories on consciousness

which closely mirror many eastern philosophies though I had never

heard of any of them, having been raised prudishly Catholic.

 

There is a lot more I could add about my experiences but I don't want

this to get too long. I've had a number of other unusual experiences

in my life that I now think may relate to this but I am only just

beginning to consider the ramifications.

 

I now can enter a calm-yet-energetic state at will most of the time.

And yesterday I was positively euphoric for most of the day. Quite a

wonderful experience.

 

I'd enjoy any comments or feedback anyone may have.