Guest guest Posted May 30, 2007 Report Share Posted May 30, 2007 I do love you, my dear Claudia. Thank you for your sweet, sweet words. There's just nothin' like you, Claudia. Love, Tara Claudia Lambright <newtfoodbowl wrote: " I can't wait to see how the K helps me even more, because I want to be the brightest light I can be, to all who need me. " I, too, cannot to wait to see how the K enhances your already bright light! I'm so glad you're a part of this family! Love, Claudia --- tara jacoby <tjmassage7777 wrote: > You are so very right, Elektra. > The closer the person is to us, the > more intense the hurt that is caused. I feel two > ways about this 'philosophy' - the first being, the > closer the connection, the more betrayed we feel > when we've been hurt. Two would be that family would > probably be even more distanced to us than a close > friend, because we feel as though they've suddenly > changed, and we now have to write them out of our > book- so to speak. At least that's my take on it. > > Yes, I was destroyed for a long time. Thankfully, I > have a wonderful boyfriend. > He spent time reminding me of what a caring and > loving and creative person I was. I blocked so much > out, that I lost who I was. > I found myself, a bitter and 'soul less' person, > and I was never ever like that before, and if in my > right mind, would have never chosen to be like that. > > Because of her loss, I felt lost. I didn't know how > to go on, and I found myself on the verge(?) of a > breakdown. > It felt like I really broke down, because I couldn't > even remember aspects of me that Mike loved to > watch, and when he would try to remind me, I would > either think- " Oh well, she (or that) died along > with Ashley " , or > " I was never like that, what is he talking about? " > He bought drawing supplies for me to encourage me to > try to find the 'old me' who seemed to have been > lost. Then he even made a book about a fantasy life > of Ashley, where she got old and died, and tried to > get me to draw picture for it, and to feel it as > though that's what happened to her, in order to help > 'bring me back'. All I ever did was lie or sit like > a zombie, and I made hateful remarks and hated > everything. That all changed, because of him and > because of that first > out-of-body-experience/near-death-experience. > I am so thankful that I have Mike, and that I was > able to forgive and move on. > Before I forgave, I just let the same situation run > circles through my mind. I could never be set free. > Forgiveness set me free. > > Wow, how on earth could your Mother ever say > something mean about your sister after her murder? > Maybe that was her way of distancing herself from > the pain? > Human beings are so complex! > > I'm thankful that I joined this group, because > everyone here > is so open and loving.I haven't met with any harsh > judgment at all. > That's a blessing, to feel safety and comfort. > You don't find that much in this world anymore, but > I try > to radiate it to everyone around me. > Especially at work, because I want us all to have a > peaceful life in our > 'home away from home'- so I show love and comfort, > offer my > sympathy and suggestions, and give lots of hugs and > kisses. > Some people look at me funny, but most love it, and > run with it, > and feel good. It solves a lot of conflicts. > I can't wait to see how the K helps me even more, > because I want > to be the brightest light I can be, to all who need > me. > Thanks for your kind words, Elektra. > Love, > Tara > > Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > That is really awful > Tara, I really felt that pain as > you told the story, that would have really > destroyed > me. I would have been devastated. > I'm sure your brother did it in a fit of anger > which > later subsided and I'm sure he regreted it. > > you did a wonderful thing to forgive that action, > time > is a great healer. > I found it hard to forgive my mother for years > because > she said something hurtful about my sister just > after > her murder. It took time and distance for me to > forgive. > The closer we are to the person, the more difficult > it > is. > I find it easier to forgive strangers at times then > my > close friends and family. > I am getting better at it though. > > Thankyou for sharing , I send love out to your > amazing > bunny baby. > Elektra x x x > > > ________ > > Mail is the world's favourite email. Don't > settle for less, sign up for > your free account today > http://uk.rd./evt=44106/*http://uk.docs./mail/winter07.html > > > > > > > > Expecting? Get great news right away with email > Auto-Check. > Try the Mail Beta. > > [Non-text portions of this message have been > removed] > > ________Building a website is a piece of cake. Small Business gives you all the tools to get online. http://smallbusiness./webhosting Don't be flakey. Get Mail for Mobile and always stay connected to friends. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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