forgiveness/ascendance - from Tiffany

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I know it doesn't matter but i have yet to get used to that. I care

about other people there oppinions and ideas. I respect other people

and there oppinions. However sometimes i could care less what they

think and other days back down to the overly care what they

think..lol..ups and downs for me... Thank you i am trying... It's

more like a circle really like when I go to Philly around and around

till we get to the right lane and then out of that hell...lol

 

Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-

1 , " i_ama_lighthouse " <i_ama_lighthouse wrote:

>

> Hi there. Good for you that you are trying! This is the first step.

>

> Also, you will realize that what others think of 'you' does not

> matter. You must be happy with yourself regardless of what others

> think of you. You are a beautiful person, just remember that!

>

> Blessings,

>

> Leslie

>

> Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-

> 1 , " tiffmidngtwilo " <tiffmidngtwilo@> wrote:

> >

> > I agree i do it can just be so hard sometimes. Anyways i've been

> > trying but other people tend to view it as making excuses for

> getting

> > upset too easily. People i've met have always viewed my

personality

> > and my depression as me being a baby or making my self out to be

a

> > victum. They were parcially right but i dissagree. I was trying

to

> > confront my issues and my past and those who have hurt me. By

them

> > getting annoyed with me it was only causing me to repress those

> > issues and pretend i was okay for there sake. I had a friend

> > litterally tell me she doesn't want to be around me anymore

because

> > she was sick of hearing it. However i rarely/barely brought it up

> > because i already knew she didn't want to hear it. Well i'm no

> longer

> > friends with her because of it. I decided she was making me worse

> and

> > putting me down for wanting to get better even though she wanted

me

> > to feel better too but as long as it didn't involve her. She also

> > thought she had to make me better or something like that. Don't

> quite

> > understand how she could of but all i wanted was a friend to talk

> to

> > not a theropist or whatever she wanted to be to me. anyways that

is

> > just babbling right now. Point is it can be hard to forgive and

> > forget and let go and trust again. I don't know what i have to do

> or

> > how far yet i have to go but i do know i will get there when i

get

> > there. That the universe God, Goddess, spirit... everything will

> open

> > doors close doors and i will find myself on the path or paths i

> need

> > to be on. I realize that if i don't see the door i need open

> infront

> > of me it is because i'm not ready to go through. Patience i have

> some

> > for this but not for other things. I have been more confident and

> > strong over the past 7 months. I intend to get stronger and more

> > confident till i can turn around and see who i was and realize i

> > should of tried harder a long time ago. I was weak making excuses

> > alowing my past to control me, my pain to push me down. I have

many

> > more steps to take but i am ready for the challenges as they

> > come...lol

> > thanks for listening...

> > Tiffany

> >

> > , " Glen Olah "

> > <gleno@> wrote:

> > >

> > > Hi Tiffany,

> > >

> > > Never ever pretend something didn't happen. Learn to be 100%

> honest

> > > with others first then it becomes possible to be 100% honest

with

> > > yourself. And then everything is in the open, nothing is

hidden,

> all

> > > is on the table to be dealt with from an honest perspective. No

> > hidden

> > > agendas lurking in dark corners to confuse your judgements.

Rather

> > > than squinting to avoid viewing the full issue your vision

clears

> > and

> > > one " rises above " the situation and sees it for what it is.

> > >

> > > Just my take. Lots of love to you, glen o.

> > >

> > >

> > > Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-

> > 1 , " tiffmidngtwilo "

> > > <tiffmidngtwilo@> wrote:

> > > >

> > > > Forgiving isn't my specialties. I wouldn't be able to be so

> kind.

> > I

> > > > spent my whole life pretending nothing happened and only now

> i'm

> > able

> > > > to accept that what did happen happened and i can't change

> that.

> > > > Forgiving seems impossable right now. How do people handle

> these

> > > > things, let go... Have the strength to do that? I try and

> > somedays I

> > > > can but other days not so good. Like with friends the little

> > things i

> > > > can get over and accept happened but then trust becomes the

> > issue.

> > > > How can you trust or is it okay not to trust those who have

> hurt

> > you?

> > > > But then how can you forgive them? And then if you forgive it

> > becomes

> > > > denial sometimes. Sorry! I didn't mean to toss my self out

> there

> > in

> > > > the middle of the converstations. It's just so hard to

forgive

> > some

> > > > people. I admire those who can, but feel some people

shouldn't

> be

> > > > forgiven at least by me.

> > > > Tiffany

> > > >

> > >

> >

>