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Thank you Karen!

 

Can you give me some pointers on meditation? Maybe I'll pick up on

something new or catch on better. Can you tell me a bit more about

Kundalini... I tried to read the e-mails but there mostly back and

forth conversations. Not much information. If you feel I'm not ready

then just give me pieces I can take into thought. No biggy I'm used

to not being ready. Have you ever heard of the Book Sexy Witch. I am

starting to use it and work with it today. I bought it wanting to

work with it but never did. It has meditations and how to work on the

inner you and feel sexy and beautiful. I have trouble with that.

 

I guess i'll tell you about me and my hubby if you'd like to know. I

finially let him sleep in our bed again. One night a few months ago i

had these pain in my shoulder and stomach and chest muscle tension

and i think heartburn... Well it was really painful and he gave me

some of his meds from his injury at work. Well I got wasted from

them. I should no better but the pain was too much. In and out of it

woke up the next morning with different underware on and a small

memory of having sex. He took advantage of me and i didn't even

remember all of it till sometime the next day then it was all clear.

I had trouble sleeping after that and made him get out. He slept on

the couch for a few months. I just let him back in because i felt

really lonely. So a part of me just wants him out of my life the

other is afraid to be alone.

This wasn't the only bad thing that happened between us. WHen i was

pregnant with my daughter i was in junior high. I never saw him much

but we were a couple. Just saw him in school. I wanted to be a family

and started getting too hormonal and bitching at him for not working

or coming to see me..heck he didn't even drive then. SO he dumped me

and it went back and forth and then he asked me to forgive him and

asked me to marry him. SO i agreed then i found out he was with

someone else while he left me and the first time we messed around

after getting back together he gave me an STD. Rediculous i should of

said good bye then instead i married him a year later and at the

wedding more bad omens...

 

My mother refused to show my mothers X who was practically my father

for 14 years of my life i hated him he and my real father walked me

down the isle. WHich i so did not want. No one came cause it was

short notice wedding. But my moms rapist was there who is my Uncle

and my cousin who actually raped me but my Dad doesn't know that he

invited him. HE was there and it all sucked... My wedding dress cause

we were poor was a pink prom dress and i didn't have flowers instead

my Aunt made me a thing for my wrist with plastic flowers. It was

nice how they tried but if i would of known then what i know

now..well you could of imagined i would of walked out. UHG!!!

Then after we were married a few months he got me pregnant on purpose

and didn't tell me. I realized there was you know comming out of me

after sex but he denied it and then i found out i was pregnant i was

happy but miserable. I spent those 9 months in the house cause he

never took me anywhere...ever... we were living on our own and it

sucked.... We froze that winter. Then we moved to Florida with his

parents nightmare. His mom actually had me by the throat when i said

i had enough and wanted to leave. Well she thought that would stop me

scare me to stay hell no i called my mom and she came to get me and

the kids and my husband.

It was all done wrong and now i have to live with the bad memories i

have to make good but they only get worse somedays. It's affected

everything in our relationship. We live with my mom rent out the

upstairs of her house.

Sooo i need to put this stuff behind me and move forward. But i can't

keep pretending it wasn't real or trying to forget. It's holding me

down and i need to make the next step. That is why i thought to join

the group. I figured maybe that is my next step. Why else would it be

placed before me.

Tiffany

[Guest guest]

Tiffany, I don't want to butt in, and I can't help you

with meditation anyway...I'm having my own challenges

with it! But I can direct you to our website for MANY

articles about Kundalini:

 

http://www.kundaliniawakeningsystems1.com/

 

Blessings & love,

Claudia

 

--- tiffmidngtwilo <tiffmidngtwilo wrote:

 

> Thank you Karen!

>

> Can you give me some pointers on meditation? Maybe

> I'll pick up on

> something new or catch on better. Can you tell me a

> bit more about

> Kundalini... I tried to read the e-mails but there

> mostly back and

> forth conversations. Not much information. If you

> feel I'm not ready

> then just give me pieces I can take into thought. No

> biggy I'm used

> to not being ready. Have you ever heard of the Book

> Sexy Witch. I am

> starting to use it and work with it today. I bought

> it wanting to

> work with it but never did. It has meditations and

> how to work on the

> inner you and feel sexy and beautiful. I have

> trouble with that.

>

> I guess i'll tell you about me and my hubby if you'd

> like to know. I

> finially let him sleep in our bed again. One night a

> few months ago i

> had these pain in my shoulder and stomach and chest

> muscle tension

> and i think heartburn... Well it was really painful

> and he gave me

> some of his meds from his injury at work. Well I got

> wasted from

> them. I should no better but the pain was too much.

> In and out of it

> woke up the next morning with different underware on

> and a small

> memory of having sex. He took advantage of me and i

> didn't even

> remember all of it till sometime the next day then

> it was all clear.

> I had trouble sleeping after that and made him get

> out. He slept on

> the couch for a few months. I just let him back in

> because i felt

> really lonely. So a part of me just wants him out of

> my life the

> other is afraid to be alone.

> This wasn't the only bad thing that happened between

> us. WHen i was

> pregnant with my daughter i was in junior high. I

> never saw him much

> but we were a couple. Just saw him in school. I

> wanted to be a family

> and started getting too hormonal and bitching at him

> for not working

> or coming to see me..heck he didn't even drive then.

> SO he dumped me

> and it went back and forth and then he asked me to

> forgive him and

> asked me to marry him. SO i agreed then i found out

> he was with

> someone else while he left me and the first time we

> messed around

> after getting back together he gave me an STD.

> Rediculous i should of

> said good bye then instead i married him a year

> later and at the

> wedding more bad omens...

>

> My mother refused to show my mothers X who was

> practically my father

> for 14 years of my life i hated him he and my real

> father walked me

> down the isle. WHich i so did not want. No one came

> cause it was

> short notice wedding. But my moms rapist was there

> who is my Uncle

> and my cousin who actually raped me but my Dad

> doesn't know that he

> invited him. HE was there and it all sucked... My

> wedding dress cause

> we were poor was a pink prom dress and i didn't have

> flowers instead

> my Aunt made me a thing for my wrist with plastic

> flowers. It was

> nice how they tried but if i would of known then

> what i know

> now..well you could of imagined i would of walked

> out. UHG!!!

> Then after we were married a few months he got me

> pregnant on purpose

> and didn't tell me. I realized there was you know

> comming out of me

> after sex but he denied it and then i found out i

> was pregnant i was

> happy but miserable. I spent those 9 months in the

> house cause he

> never took me anywhere...ever... we were living on

> our own and it

> sucked.... We froze that winter. Then we moved to

> Florida with his

> parents nightmare. His mom actually had me by the

> throat when i said

> i had enough and wanted to leave. Well she thought

> that would stop me

> scare me to stay hell no i called my mom and she

> came to get me and

> the kids and my husband.

> It was all done wrong and now i have to live with

> the bad memories i

> have to make good but they only get worse somedays.

> It's affected

> everything in our relationship. We live with my mom

> rent out the

> upstairs of her house.

> Sooo i need to put this stuff behind me and move

> forward. But i can't

> keep pretending it wasn't real or trying to forget.

> It's holding me

> down and i need to make the next step. That is why i

> thought to join

> the group. I figured maybe that is my next step. Why

> else would it be

> placed before me.

> Tiffany

>

>

 

 

 

 

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Sorry Tiffany to hear all this! If you want to get some info about

the Kundalini check out the website. It is filled with information!

Here is a link:

 

http://www.kundaliniawakeningsystems.co.nr

 

My suggestion would be to download the Safeties file and start

working on that. There is a lot about forgiveness in there which I

feel is very important. The Kundalini can amplify feelings, so if it

were me, I would start with the forgiveness first. My opinion. Good

luck sweetie!

 

Sarita

 

Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-

1 , " tiffmidngtwilo " <tiffmidngtwilo wrote:

>

> Thank you Karen!

>

> Can you give me some pointers on meditation? Maybe I'll pick up on

> something new or catch on better. Can you tell me a bit more about

> Kundalini... I tried to read the e-mails but there mostly back and

> forth conversations. Not much information. If you feel I'm not

ready

> then just give me pieces I can take into thought. No biggy I'm used

> to not being ready. Have you ever heard of the Book Sexy Witch. I

am

> starting to use it and work with it today. I bought it wanting to

> work with it but never did. It has meditations and how to work on

the

> inner you and feel sexy and beautiful. I have trouble with that.

>

> I guess i'll tell you about me and my hubby if you'd like to know.

I

> finially let him sleep in our bed again. One night a few months ago

i

> had these pain in my shoulder and stomach and chest muscle tension

> and i think heartburn... Well it was really painful and he gave me

> some of his meds from his injury at work. Well I got wasted from

> them. I should no better but the pain was too much. In and out of

it

> woke up the next morning with different underware on and a small

> memory of having sex. He took advantage of me and i didn't even

> remember all of it till sometime the next day then it was all

clear.

> I had trouble sleeping after that and made him get out. He slept on

> the couch for a few months. I just let him back in because i felt

> really lonely. So a part of me just wants him out of my life the

> other is afraid to be alone.

> This wasn't the only bad thing that happened between us. WHen i was

> pregnant with my daughter i was in junior high. I never saw him

much

> but we were a couple. Just saw him in school. I wanted to be a

family

> and started getting too hormonal and bitching at him for not

working

> or coming to see me..heck he didn't even drive then. SO he dumped

me

> and it went back and forth and then he asked me to forgive him and

> asked me to marry him. SO i agreed then i found out he was with

> someone else while he left me and the first time we messed around

> after getting back together he gave me an STD. Rediculous i should

of

> said good bye then instead i married him a year later and at the

> wedding more bad omens...

>

> My mother refused to show my mothers X who was practically my

father

> for 14 years of my life i hated him he and my real father walked me

> down the isle. WHich i so did not want. No one came cause it was

> short notice wedding. But my moms rapist was there who is my Uncle

> and my cousin who actually raped me but my Dad doesn't know that he

> invited him. HE was there and it all sucked... My wedding dress

cause

> we were poor was a pink prom dress and i didn't have flowers

instead

> my Aunt made me a thing for my wrist with plastic flowers. It was

> nice how they tried but if i would of known then what i know

> now..well you could of imagined i would of walked out. UHG!!!

> Then after we were married a few months he got me pregnant on

purpose

> and didn't tell me. I realized there was you know comming out of me

> after sex but he denied it and then i found out i was pregnant i

was

> happy but miserable. I spent those 9 months in the house cause he

> never took me anywhere...ever... we were living on our own and it

> sucked.... We froze that winter. Then we moved to Florida with his

> parents nightmare. His mom actually had me by the throat when i

said

> i had enough and wanted to leave. Well she thought that would stop

me

> scare me to stay hell no i called my mom and she came to get me and

> the kids and my husband.

> It was all done wrong and now i have to live with the bad memories

i

> have to make good but they only get worse somedays. It's affected

> everything in our relationship. We live with my mom rent out the

> upstairs of her house.

> Sooo i need to put this stuff behind me and move forward. But i

can't

> keep pretending it wasn't real or trying to forget. It's holding me

> down and i need to make the next step. That is why i thought to

join

> the group. I figured maybe that is my next step. Why else would it

be

> placed before me.

> Tiffany

>