Philip St. Romain -A Christian Man with Kundalini- an interview

[Guest guest]

He did not have any safeties and yet his faith carried him.

 

His symptoms were:

 

1. Inner vision illuminated when the eyes are closed,

especially during times of prayer and meditation. Visual background

turning blue, purple, ultraviolet, gold, silver, or white, sometimes

forming circular, amoeboid, or tunnel-like patterns.

 

2. Sensations of heat and/or cold in different parts of the body,

especially the shoulders and the top of the head.

 

3. Tingling sensations in the brain, ears, forehead, spine, and

other parts of the body. Feeling like an electrical current is

shooting through these places, often snapping or popping through

nerves.

 

4. Sensation of a warm, energized fluid slowly pushing its way

around the brain and/or up the spine.

 

5. Perception of inner sounds -ringing, chirping, buzzing, ringing

in the ears.

 

6. Strong compulsion to close eyes tightly, especially during quiet

prayer.

 

7. Alteration of breathing patterns - sometimes slow and shallow

(especially during meditation), short and choppy, or deep and

smooth. Growing preference for abdominal breathing.

 

8. Sensations of electrical energy rippling through reproductive

organs.

 

9. Sensations of gaseous bubbles arising from the area of the

reproductive organs.

 

10. Compulsion to move facial muscles and bodily limbs in yoga-like

postures.

 

11. Sense of an inner eye seeing with the two sensory eyes. Sense of

warmth and strength emanating from the center of the forehead.

 

What about the psychological consequences?

 

Philip: The first is the healing of emotional pain. There is no

longer a background of anxiety, shame, guilt, and resentment in my

consciousness. With the healing of emotional pain has come a

stabilizing of my moods.

 

The second major psychological consequence is the diminishing of my

false self ego. Something of my self experience was once acutely

attuned to the emotions of shame, anxiety, guilt, and resentment.

 

This dimension of my self experience was inherently defensive and

controlling, intent on making my life meaningful by doing the right

kinds of things. It made me restless and desirous, robbing me of the

beauty of the NOW. Since it was a compensation for emotional pain,

this dimension of ego was lost when emotional pain was healed.

 

What is the goal of this process?

 

Philip: The healing of emotional pain, the diminishment of the false

self ego, and the purification of the body are all beneficial. They

are not the real goal of this energy process, however. The goal

seems to be the awakening and embodiment of the true self. The

consequences described above are prerequisites for this awakened

embodiment.

 

Listed below are a few phrases from my journals which attempt to

state some of the most characteristic features of the true self.

 

1. A direct, non-conceptual realization " That I am. "

 

2. Non-interpretive attention, awake to the fact of self as the

subject of attention (not the object, as is the ego.)

 

3. Being awake to myself prior to any thought, act of will, or

movement of my consciousness. " Before I think I am, I am. " Knowing

this.

 

4. Knowing without a doubt that " I am here, " looking out of my eyes.

 

5. Knowing that the " I who am " is one with all that is, and feeling

this in the heart.

 

The body center in which the true self awakens is the center of the

forehead, sometimes called the third eye in occult literature. When

the energy flows freely into the third eye, the true self is

realized. As the energy flows to the top of the head and beyond, the

cosmic dimension of the true self is seen.

 

Without making intellectual judgments, one can clearly see that

there is a level from which all things arise, and all things are one

at this level. Although the senses continue to perceive the distinct

separateness of things, the intuition of oneness can be so strong as

to eclipse the information of the senses.

 

When the cosmic sense is strong and I gaze upon an object, I feel

its existence in my heart as though it is somehow within me. This

holds true even when gazing at people, although with people and

higher animals, I am intuitively aware of the existence of another

freedom separate from myself.

 

It is my belief that the realization of the true self is the goal of

our human development. I see the energy process we have been talking

about as directly related to this goal. Indeed, it may well be that

this energy is none other than the energetic dimension of the true

self, and that the awakening of this process signals the dawning of

the true self.

 

If kundalini is such a central human reality, why is it that many

people who appear integrated and devoted to the interior life don't

seem to experience it?

 

Philip: This may be explained in a number of ways:

 

1. The energy has risen to the 4th or 5th chakra, but not much

higher. They would certainly be moved at these levels to do many

great works, but they would not be experiencing the fireworks that

come with a fuller awakening.

 

2. They laid such a good foundation that the fully awakened energy

was hardly noticeable to them.

 

3. They are moved by extraordinary graces to do these works, but it

has not resulted in personal transformation. They have not

integrated their own body-mind with these movements of the Spirit

through them. As we know, some of our Catholic saints seem to be of

this type: not much personal integration, but lots of willingness to

be used by God.

 

4. The awakening has been so gradual that it was imperceptible.

 

5. Elements of all of the above, in combinations.