Demonstrate your Surrender

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Wow Chrism, big I and little i, that was a powerful

post right there, it sent shivers through me. My eyes

went wide like saucers as I read it.

Thankyou beloved Chrism,

Elektra x x x

 

And thankyou for helping Laura, I hope all went well,

I was thinking of you guys x x x

 

 

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dear chrism... i'll meditate on your message so that i may see what you are

truly asking.

there are desires and things that i cling to out of habit. i wish to surrender

all that keeps

me so isolated. i'm in the process of exploring ego with the help of eckhart

tolle's book. i

see so much of my conditioning in how i've built up and indulged ego. but i need

to go

deeper. a few years ago i wrote a memoir of a relationship that included all the

insecurity,

pride and perversions i've fallen prey to. i've sacrificed for my art and i'm

afraid that i've

barely scratched the surface of things. i'd appreciate any guidance you may

provide. ever

since i've met you (and before) i've remained sober (if you know what i mean).

that was my

pledge to you, surrendering my only ecstatic experience, though i still enjoy

creating

music, prayer and assisting people at my job. i haven't been in a 'romantic'

relationship for

awhile and now i feel i must surrender my eroticism as well since that also

seems to be in

service of ego. i don't know if i'm on the right track but as i said, i'll

meditate and try to go

deeper.

love,

-steve f

 

 

, " chrism " <>

wrote:

>

> Show me. Let me see what you are willing to surrender that you may

> come into a full and pure expression of Kundalini. Demonstrate

> this.....please. Let me see what you are willing to give up. What

> you are willing to leave. What you are willing to expose. Tell me,

> show me. Demonstrate what you will surrender. And how you will

> surrender it. Reveal yourself. I gave up everything and died seven

> times. What are you willing to let die inside yourself? Your

> conceit? Your honor? Your fears? Your pride? Your power?

>

> If you struggle and resist you will fail in your attempt and then be

> consumed by that which you refuse to let go of. Surrender it. Let it

> go. Is it guilt? Reveal it to me. Is it pain? Give it to me. Is it

> your truth? Serve it to me.

>

> Let me know what you can give in the deepest and most lighted to the

> rankest most depraved aspects of what you hide behind your eyes and

> behind your heart. Because I will go there and breathe deep of your

> sorrows and your accomplishments. I will help you clear your shames

> and your joys and loves and all of those experiences that you keep

> private, the exudate of your soul.

>

> It all gets exposed. Amplified and brought into the plain view. All

> with eyes to see will know and already do know. Nothing is private

> here and all these secrets are weighed for contents and intention

> and set aside as the useless dross of the ego. Let it go. Give it to

> me that I may help you.

>

> There is no shame. There is only release and surrender. Open

> yourself and allow all aspects of your soul to be given the room to

> breathe. By loosening the burden of what you hold dear, good or

> shameful, wretched or loving. Surrender it all and let the Divinity

> that is starting to express, breathe the new breath of existence

> inside the new space you have created with your surrender. -

>

>

[Guest guest]

Chrism, what do you mean when you say that you died

seven times?

 

Love,

Claudia

 

--- chrism <> wrote:

 

> Show me. Let me see what you are willing to

> surrender that you may

> come into a full and pure expression of Kundalini.

> Demonstrate

> this.....please. Let me see what you are willing to

> give up. What

> you are willing to leave. What you are willing to

> expose. Tell me,

> show me. Demonstrate what you will surrender. And

> how you will

> surrender it. Reveal yourself. I gave up everything

> and died seven

> times. What are you willing to let die inside

> yourself? Your

> conceit? Your honor? Your fears? Your pride? Your

> power?

>

> If you struggle and resist you will fail in your

> attempt and then be

> consumed by that which you refuse to let go of.

> Surrender it. Let it

> go. Is it guilt? Reveal it to me. Is it pain? Give

> it to me. Is it

> your truth? Serve it to me.

>

> Let me know what you can give in the deepest and

> most lighted to the

> rankest most depraved aspects of what you hide

> behind your eyes and

> behind your heart. Because I will go there and

> breathe deep of your

> sorrows and your accomplishments. I will help you

> clear your shames

> and your joys and loves and all of those experiences

> that you keep

> private, the exudate of your soul.

>

> It all gets exposed. Amplified and brought into the

> plain view. All

> with eyes to see will know and already do know.

> Nothing is private

> here and all these secrets are weighed for contents

> and intention

> and set aside as the useless dross of the ego. Let

> it go. Give it to

> me that I may help you.

>

> There is no shame. There is only release and

> surrender. Open

> yourself and allow all aspects of your soul to be

> given the room to

> breathe. By loosening the burden of what you hold

> dear, good or

> shameful, wretched or loving. Surrender it all and

> let the Divinity

> that is starting to express, breathe the new breath

> of existence

> inside the new space you have created with your

> surrender. -

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

 

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

First-

 

I understand where you are coming from--Chrism.

 

I respect you and the message.

 

I thought about Jesus saying: " Let the dead bury the dead " (which I

hope means NOTHING is more important than following the right psth).

 

Old Baptist preacher used to talk about surrendering " everything "

come offering time (please note-I realize YOU aren't a mercenary,

Mr. Chrism)---

I thought about that preacher, would he surrender his big old

Cadillac, his free home, and those 10,000 chicken dinners? He hasn't

yet!

 

I have surrendered the " Nasty parts " of my Ego.

I keep enough to maintain my family and responsibilities.

 

I will NOT surrender my chosen path to follow Christ, nor will I

pray to any God but the One God (yes, that's open to discussion--but

God knows who I'm talking about).

 

I will follow the safeties and do the Tibetans until I am not able

to. Like I said before---the safeties sound like my life story!

 

I will accept what comes and won't worry about what has not.

 

That's pretty much me in summary!

 

One thing that is heavy on my mind. When I do energy work (be it

communicate with the dead, induce OOBE--stuff of that nature), I

often get rather drained.

 

Do you drain yourself, Chrism?

I hope you are fine.

Maybe all of that giving makes you stronger! That is my prayer for

you!

 

Let us know!

 

In Love and Respect:

:)

Stephen C.

 

 

, " chrism "

<> wrote:

>

> Show me. Let me see what you are willing to surrender that you may

> come into a full and pure expression of Kundalini. Demonstrate

> this.....please. Let me see what you are willing to give up. What

> you are willing to leave. What you are willing to expose. Tell me,

> show me. Demonstrate what you will surrender. And how you will

> surrender it. Reveal yourself. I gave up everything and died seven

> times. What are you willing to let die inside yourself? Your

> conceit? Your honor? Your fears? Your pride? Your power?

>

> If you struggle and resist you will fail in your attempt and then

be

> consumed by that which you refuse to let go of. Surrender it. Let

it

> go. Is it guilt? Reveal it to me. Is it pain? Give it to me. Is it

> your truth? Serve it to me.

>

> Let me know what you can give in the deepest and most lighted to

the

> rankest most depraved aspects of what you hide behind your eyes

and

> behind your heart. Because I will go there and breathe deep of

your

> sorrows and your accomplishments. I will help you clear your

shames

> and your joys and loves and all of those experiences that you keep

> private, the exudate of your soul.

>

> It all gets exposed. Amplified and brought into the plain view.

All

> with eyes to see will know and already do know. Nothing is private

> here and all these secrets are weighed for contents and intention

> and set aside as the useless dross of the ego. Let it go. Give it

to

> me that I may help you.

>

> There is no shame. There is only release and surrender. Open

> yourself and allow all aspects of your soul to be given the room

to

> breathe. By loosening the burden of what you hold dear, good or

> shameful, wretched or loving. Surrender it all and let the

Divinity

> that is starting to express, breathe the new breath of existence

> inside the new space you have created with your surrender. -

>

>

[Guest guest]

Chrism,

 

It is an interesting look to see what I have surrendered and what I

have surrendered to.

 

Things I have surrendered: (an ongoing process)

 

Poverty of spirit, mind and body

Suffering

Many ego distractions (alcohol, smoking, cane sugar, religion (it was

for me), chocolate, sexual affairs, adrenaline rushes, worshiping $.

Following my mind's idea of what's right to do.

Holding onto grudges

Thinking that people close to me don't " really " love me.

Being " right "

Needing to talk.

Thinking that the destination is the important thing

Memory attachment

The need for superiority

Knowing the " truth "

 

The list goes on .... great to think of them .. Thank-you

 

 

What have I surrendered to:

 

connection with spirit

Service

Following that self of (I)

Gratitude

Love/connection to others (plant, animal, earth ...)

Not " knowing " and " knowing "

Not " controlling "

" Controlling " (at a different level) being at source.

Being responsible ..

Confusion (this is a good thing)

Allowing

Joy

The journey

Death

 

Let's not get into the list of what I am hanging on to

 

BlessU

Sam

[Guest guest]

I'm somewhat confused. I had to read your post several times and

still am not sure what to do. Surrender all? (like the old church

hymn from my childhood). How can I do that? I'm responsible for a

family. Surrender to God/Shakti? Give my worries, fears, ego over to

Him/Her? I think I've done that. Go into a spiritual coma? How can I

do that? I'm afraid I'm terribly confused about what you are asking

here. I release to Shakti when I pray. When I feel the beginnings of

worry coming on I give it to God and try to be as sensible as I can.

When anger comes over me making me want to just run away, I plead to

Shakti for guidance and release of the anger so I won't hurt another

in my impulsiveness. What other ways can I surrender? I'm not goig to

be the one to leave my family, give away my money and live in a cave

somewhere. That's not the kind of surrender I'm capable of. Can you

clarify? I'm of no religion now. I seek only from within, I take no

man's dogma. That I am free of. I would greatly appreciate your

advice, suggestions. Sorry if I sound a bit fraught but I feel it. I

want Kundalini and I want it at a slow but steady pace. You want

honesty? You want me to expose my very soul? I think I could. Ask

me...what do you want to know? What should I tell? I'll give it a

shot.

 

Nothing against you, I know you won't take it personally, you see

this for what it is, I'm sure. Help?

 

Bless you,

Valarie

 

, " chrism "

<> wrote:

>

> Show me. Let me see what you are willing to surrender that you may

> come into a full and pure expression of Kundalini. Demonstrate

> this.....please. Let me see what you are willing to give up.

[Guest guest]

I've been thinking about what I want to surrender,

Shakti has been giving me some tips in my dreams...as

she always does (thankyou shakti, I told u she's a

bossy boots).

She wants me to surrender my self endulgance, isn't

that funny, I never thought to try and surrender that

part of myself before.

My selfish nature, my wants and desires of the flesh.

 

I wish to surrender my entire life's path to the

divine to become a vehicle for divine love.

I wish for the little i to be completely consumed by

the fire so I may be reborn as the divine see's fit.

 

I am willing to surrender it all, (kicking a screaming

a little perhaps but I will do my best...LOL)

 

 

Love and surrender

Elektra x x x

 

 

 

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These are the things I am currently dealing with and wish to surrender.

 

In foster care..... wanting to take the child no one believes can do well

outside a group home, despite what others think. I am trying for a 16 year old

boy right now and have a lot of conventional resistance to giving he and I a

try. I want to follow my instincts only. And not take safer kids that I and

others think it would be easier.

 

In relationships...I want to be authentic and have someone want to be with me as

I am and not modify myself to fit more in with what they think they want. I

want to live in joy each moment and not do things for others to possibly keep

them around which leave me in a less than joyous place every second.

 

With family.....I want to live in the moment and do what I feel at that moment

and not worry that I need to do more or be different to please them. Or that I

am not doing enough.

 

I want to stay centered in my beingness and operate in all ways from there, each

second, go where I am guided and trust at every moment that everything is

exactly as it should be. And live on the edge of not knowing, walking blind with

faith into the next second guideded only by God and faith. To be his/her

instrument no matter how bizarre it might look to another.

 

And then to always go deeper and deeper into surrendering the next level that I

can understand, automatically, without restraint until I am just the " I "

humming in the universal vibration and doing what I am guided to do as long as I

am on this earth, and beyond.

 

In gratefulness,

 

Sherri

 

--

The high destiny of the individual is to serve rather than rule-Albert Einstein

 

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" chrism " <>

Show me. Let me see what you are willing to surrender that you may

come into a full and pure expression of Kundalini. Demonstrate

this.....please. Let me see what you are willing to give up. What

you are willing to leave. What you are willing to expose. Tell me,

show me. Demonstrate what you will surrender. And how you will

surrender it. Reveal yourself. I gave up everything and died seven

times. What are you willing to let die inside yourself? Your

conceit? Your honor? Your fears? Your pride? Your power?

 

If you struggle and resist you will fail in your attempt and then be

consumed by that which you refuse to let go of. Surrender it. Let it

go. Is it guilt? Reveal it to me. Is it pain? Give it to me. Is it

your truth? Serve it to me.

 

Let me know what you can give in the deepest and most lighted to the

rankest most depraved aspects of what you hide behind your eyes and

behind your heart. Because I will go there and breathe deep of your

sorrows and your accomplishments. I will help you clear your shames

and your joys and loves and all of those experiences that you keep

private, the exudate of your soul.

 

It all gets exposed. Amplified and brought into the plain view. All

with eyes to see will know and already do know. Nothing is private

here and all these secrets are weighed for contents and intention

and set aside as the useless dross of the ego. Let it go. Give it to

me that I may help you.

 

There is no shame. There is only release and surrender. Open

yourself and allow all aspects of your soul to be given the room to

breathe. By loosening the burden of what you hold dear, good or

shameful, wretched or loving. Surrender it all and let the Divinity

that is starting to express, breathe the new breath of existence

inside the new space you have created with your surrender. -

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hello Sherri,

Are you surrenering them or surrendering to them? -

 

[Guest guest]

Lol, I'll try again.

 

I wish to surrender my thinking and anxiety about doing things right. (scurrying

mind, darting here and there and avoiding " being " by being busy thinking.)

 

And any compulsive actions.

 

And altering my reality with any substance.

 

And thinking my guiding voice is what I am seeking and looking more to the

stillness.

 

..

Sherri

 

--

The high destiny of the individual is to serve rather than rule-Albert Einstein

 

-------------- Original message --------------

" chrism " <>

Hello Sherri,

Are you surrenering them or surrendering to them? -

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hi Chrism,

My apres-Shaktipat has been a bit like Sarita's... sore throat from a

cold that's going round, mildly dizzy head and little else, none of

this energy stuff for me!

 

I've tried to confront the question of surrender before, and it's

deeply hard. All the things I suspect I actually have a good chance

of surrendering feel like cheating - too peripheral to make that much

difference. When I ask myself what I feel most attached to, love and

spiritual development leap out above all else. Then it's things like

beauty and understanding. Good food, shiny guitars... Nature.

Health. But beyond these I struggle. These are the things I'd

actually care about surrendering, all the rest is just loose change

really, unless I'm missing the point entirely? The food and guitars

are obvious targets, but most of the others seem rather paradoxical

things to give up. I know there are some inroads - you don't need to

receive love to keep giving it for example.

 

I've got loads of negatives I'm working (very slowly) to jettison,

mostly with a common root of ego I think. Ego is such a fear

generator. It stops me moving into situations where I might expose

flaws and shortcomings to others and perhaps overcome them. With ego

gone, I wouldn't feel the need to hide my heart and therefore my true

self as much as I all too often do. Luckily, my little son gives me

great incentive to push boundaries in this respect. He deserves the

best father I can be, and my every shortcoming is his loss...

Tom

 

, " chrism "

<> wrote:

>

> Surrender!

[Guest guest]

Hi Chrism,

Firstly, during shaktipat, i wasnt sure if i had given it enough of

myself,didnt think i was working it properly. I also felt pulled away

from the group for a while, then i understood why, ...I was to gain my

own experience of it and not be influenced by others as this is one of

my weaknesses, to mould myself to others expereinces believing them to

be my own, it was hard for me not to be here but i had to let that

part of me go in order to grow with the kundalini. I beleive i have

been successful there, I had my own expereinces which were not

influenced by others. Then when i read through the posts i seen that

they were very similar but i had experienced them fully.

 

As you know, i put off all work until after shaktipat. So when the

scatterfields were lifted, i had a fair where i dont 15 readings. It

was during this day i understood the changes in me.....no longer did i

feel the need to worry over my work, i realised i was working with

spirit and i allowed my energy to work with me llike never before and

the result was amazig, i helped others from such a deep place and

understood the importance of love and selfless giving,allowing my

energy to touch and help each person,giving them love. But the

difference this time was the love came from a higher source and i

didnt think it was me perfoming miracles,but my love of god and

spirit,them working through me,i had complete trust and faith.

This may sound silly or i may be putting it out wrong.

 

Anyway,now, i am surrendering the need to feel i have to please people

for them to like me, I am who I am and i am love.

I also have to let go of shame, I have hidden my past as i didnt want

judgements made of me.......now, i will not hide it and lay my soul

bare....i have done some awful things in my time,again, it all stemmed

from the need to belong,no matter what.

Now, i am honouring my soul and looking to the positive.

I am also surrendering the selfish part of me,the angry me, the

egotistical me who thinks i have a right to whatever i want.

I will let go of my judgemental side as i have no right to judge

anybody.

Also, my need for control, it has to go, i control my family,im not

mean in the fact that i hit them or anything but i have to be in

charge,that has to stop, so has the anger i feel when things are not

perfect,as it all falls back to me, im not perfect, i try to be but im

not, if i can accept my flaws then i can accept others so there is a

lot of inner work to be done, a lot....you know,actually loving others

os hard as i see a peice of me i dont like in nearly everyone, so i

figure if i send love out it will come back.....

thats it for now, one step at a time.

I hope this is right and i am learning.

thank you so much

Karen

 

 

, " chrism "

<> wrote:

>

> Show me. Let me see what you are willing to surrender that you may

> come into a full and pure expression of Kundalini. Demonstrate

> this.....please. Let me see what you are willing to give up. What

> you are willing to leave. What you are willing to expose. Tell me,

> show me. Demonstrate what you will surrender. And how you will

> surrender it. Reveal yourself. I gave up everything and died seven

> times. What are you willing to let die inside yourself? Your

> conceit? Your honor? Your fears? Your pride? Your power?

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi, Chrism,

 

This is a very interesting topic which cuts to the core of things.

When we talk of surrendering, we are ultimately talking about how to

dispense with the unnecessary in favour of getting at and embracing

the essential. We are looking at how to overcome the constraints of

ego in order to unleash and abide within the higher self, the next

*us* in the line of development.

 

 

ANOTHER PLACE, ANOTHER WAY

 

Your entreaty reminded me so much of the spirit world and what I

remember as a completely open and honest environment for discussing

one's own shortcomings and " projects " we are all working on (within

ourselves).

 

That feeling of absolute lack of shame or need to guard

vulnerabilities, lack of conceit and self-deception is based on

absolute trust in self and others not to misuse this sacred

information. It simply falls under the heading of identity and quest

and is gravely respected by all on the higher levels.

 

There, the only thing disclosing our failures and weaknesses does is

to testify to self knowledge and some cognizance of where we are

meant to go, along with the desire to help others or be helped by our

sharing this information. There is no suffering, or negative

repercussion caused by this type of self-acknowledgment or

publication.

 

To the contrary, there is a wonderful and exhilarating freedom in

sharing our flaws and imperfections - the same benefits that come in

detaching from anything. They are made a subject of study with

personal dedication to their excision. We do not " own " as part of

us these flaws in the deepest sense, the only sense that holds

importance, but we are responsible for their eradication; we are

responsible for the refinement of our individual spark of light

 

 

IMAGINE

 

I wish everyone here would take a moment to imagine such a place

where " weaknesses " take on a new, pure meaning. Where they mean

only " recognised opportunities for becoming, " where they are

discussed with the seriousness of sacred intent, and our

confrontation and mollification of them is met with the mirth of

celebration, individually and communally.

 

It is a far cry from how we handle these things on Earth, but I

commend you, Chrism, for intending to open up a safe space where that

same, " detached but seeing " attitude and regard for our spiritual

lack can take root and grow in memory of how it is viewed in the

spirit world.

 

It is ultimately Tom's post which inspired me to write, although I

have been thinking about ego impediments I need to shed lately and

thought your exercise was a great idea. I've enjoyed reading the

responses and think the honesty and humility exhibited has been a

beautiful thing.

Perhaps it is too much to ask for the *same* level of self scrutiny

and open disclosure as is demonstrated in the higher realms, but I

believe we can begin to do this on our own, at least, with ourselves

as witness. If we can discuss these things with a trusted friend or

with this group, all the better, but it is so important to create and

refine this all-accepting and all-acknowledging place within

ourselves that I would recommend it be begun and maintained here

regardless of the ability to share with others.

 

 

SELF-HONESTY AND PARENTAL GUIDANCE

 

Self-honesty requires the type of detachment described, courage and

some brains, too. We are used to holding very dear most of the

things we need to shed, so we must be able to stand up to ourselves

and kindly steer our lower parts as a parent would a self-destructive

child.

 

The parent knows the child will not be harmed - only helped - by

knowing himself and releasing unnecessary attitudes and habitual

responses, but the child will say " yes, but-, " " yes, but- " and make

his case until the sun goes down. The conscientious and devoted

parent will not waver or weaken because he knows what is best for the

child, even if it means taking away his favourite toy because it is

impeding his development. This is the role to assume with our egos,

that of loving, knowing, tireless parent, kind and authoritative

(never authoritarian).

 

 

RECOGNISING THE ESSENTIAL

 

We may be so accustomed to our impediments, they may be so much a

part of how we structure our reactions to self and the world, that we

may have difficulty remembering they are not needed or that they

impinge on the light we hold.

 

We may keep in mind in this case, the example of Michelangelo

Buonarroti, who is credited with having said: " The statue is already

inside the block of marble –all that is necessary is to work it out

by chipping off everything unnecessary. " We are all master artists

and craftsmen whose aim is to see the figure within the rock and

eliminate all the unnecessary bits so as to free it. Part of the

intention of Creation is that we give birth to ourselves.

 

We must condition ourselves to imagine ourselves in our highest

light, as a beautiful, ideal specimen to behold. Anything short of

this visual will not hold sway. We are loyal only to the figure

within, uphold only it's divine purpose, support only its cause.

Everything else will be chipped off and swept away at the end of the

day. The artist's hands must be prepared to deliver the sharp,

intrusive cut in order to expose the beauty and ideal within it's

confines. We must not settle for less.

 

So, in weeding out the unnecessary, I ask, are we prepared to see

ourselves first as a Michelangelo? Are we prepared to imagine that

perfection- not that to which we aspire, but which we already are?

Are we ready to commit to only the pure self and none of the

extraneous? Are we able to love ourselves now as we would our most

perfect version of ourselves?

 

In our realised state, we are radiant, pure and loving expressions,

brave and bold and wild and free. Our light is powerful and

consuming of darkness. It's scope is broad, it's view clear, it's

path unobstructed and self-determined. There is nothing but Love and

Integrity (respect of that Love). There is nothing but Being and

Emergence and Emanation. The Love-Power transmutes all in its path

to Its Way. There is no conflict it sees or knows. This is who we

really are.

 

(Living in knowledge of this fact is the first step to distinguishing

between essential, fundamental and structural and all the filler,

stand-ins, substitutes and superstitions, the dross of ego.)

 

But are we ready to face this truth about ourselves?

 

Or is it too hot to handle?

 

 

RESPECTING THE ESSENTIAL

 

There is only one reason why we would not practise self-honesty, only

one reason to keep secrets from ourselves, and that is fear of not

being enough. Fear is ever behind lies or hiding from the truth, and

is itself a lie. We are beyond sufficient. That is the truth of

it. There is no failing or fault or blindness or incomprehension

that can alter that truth, because the truth is the ultimate reality

(UR) of who and what we are, and we must look to higher realities in

order to respect higher truths in our own lives as we lead them in

the physical.

 

In the perfect order of things, we fit beautifully and fully where we

are *right now.* It may seem paradoxical that our finest self-

modifications may be accomplished under the governance of supreme

self-acceptance, but given the broader idea and ideal of " self " as

described above, one can see how this is the only way possible to

make such refinements and amendments to character. We cling to

things only when we feel in need of them. Seeing that we are already

everything we need, already sufficient, frees us to release the

unnecessary.

 

This respect for the essential requires self knowledge and self

recognition of a high order. This must become part of the regular

practise so that detachment to one's ego impediments may be

released. It is, as always, a matter of training focus (onto the

essential and the essential Self).

 

 

FEARING OUR OWN POWER

 

For those in more advanced stages of development who have been

blessed with glimpses of their power in what might be

considered " extraordinary " ways, a further impediment to self

recognition which may arise is fear of abusing that power. This can

also lead to denial of self. We all have the fear of our own power,

perhaps because we have yet to understand it.

 

We can spend a thousand lifetimes running from ourselves, our larger

selves, or we can finally get tired of the running, turn round and

face ourselves. That can mean an explosion of supernormal gifts and

manifestations (particularly as we accept that light) which simply

are not grounded contextually in available paradigms (with growing

exceptions such as this group, but still). Curiosity about our

identity can be a powerful catalyst to higher energies.

 

The journey is different for us all and for this reason, and, as it

has to do with traveling form unknowing to unknowing, in respect to

this process, those who have passed before us do not usually reveal

in detail what they have experienced or, perhaps that they have

experienced anything out of the ordinary. They have self-witnessed

and they now hold sacred knowledge on the lower levels of

consciousness of who they really are. In a sense, they have taken

the first real steps to falling in love with Themselves. It is a

private affair.

 

They are different from others only in this respect. But the

knowledge in itself refashions the man, so everything is ultimately

made different. But there comes a point along this journey of

knowing that the ego may panic that self is not to be trusted with

such grave power and responsibility or may be undeserving of it.

 

At every stage, even advanced ones, the issues of deserving and self-

trust will emerge until they, too, are healed and released. The

trust we must engage in (at this point and always) is one of respect

for Light and the System it created/creates and over which it

presides. If we place our trust in the Light we hold, it will not

allow us to stray into darkness. Even if we err and stray, we will

be reclaimed and find our way back to ourselves, back to an

expression of integrity.

 

Love at every step is our life preserver, bathing in self-Love in

itself will elevate us to a higher place which we may (from ego

standpoint) be able to see as " more deserving " of that love, so it is

a self-nourishing proposition.

 

These ills we all have can and will all be released through self-

acknowledgment, self-approval and unconditional self-love. We pray

and practice to give it to others, why not ourselves?

 

 

IN SUMMARY::

 

The obstacles to releasing the unnecessary are: 1. Failure to

distinguish it from the essential 2. Fear (of insufficiency, of

power and powerlessness, of change, of too much control, of loss of

control and a whole lot of other fearing lies and misunderstandings)

which equates to 3. Lack of trust (in Light, in Self, in the System,

in the operation of ultimate reality - UR).

 

So, a bit of self-examination and self-honesty, creating that safe

space within of no condemnation or retribution where we can bring to

light our own deficiencies, a bit of spiritual intelligence and

courage to pick out the muddy bits, and a self-ordering along higher

lines and according to higher definitions is a good start for the

process of surrendering the ego dross. These steps lead to self-

knowledge, and the more we know of the real us, the less attractive

and valued the cheap imitation becomes.

 

We surrender it to Shakti, to Shiva, to God, to all those who give us

the tools to participate in our own making, but we will reap the most

immediate rewards. We ultimately surrender these things to our own

Largeness, are honoured to sweep up after the master artist within

ourselves. Nothing is lost whose loss we, ourselves, haven't taken

part in designing and allowing for and executing as part of our own

becoming. In some respect it is a game of hide and go seek we play

with ourselves to allow the wonder and thrill of discovery and

invention.

 

 

WHAT I NEED TO SURRENDER

 

For myself, I heard myself say the other day, out loud " I'm so sick

of the drama!! " My self-created drama, the misuse of my wonderful

and blessed imagination and intelligence to create negative

scenarios, suspicions and paranoia, which feed into a perfectionist,

too-exacting and insecure mind set.

 

I dishonour myself by creating a hundred distractions a day from the

recognition and being of my greater, sufficient self. I ask my own

forgiveness for this, and for allowing my happiness and serenity of

mind to be controlled by external forces (imaginary and otherwise).

Another distortion of how I am meant to emanate and express.

 

I don't live in recognition of my own power. I conditionalise my

emotional well-being, I doubt things I've been shown. Not always,

but too often. As with anyone who judges themselves, I judge others

as well, to my own detriment. Which is very paradoxical, because I

love and revere those same people more than they know. It is simply

a layer of judgement that covers and obscures everything that I'd

like to surrender, even if it means abiding in not knowing what

people think of me, who they are or what is going on, etc.

 

(I don't mind people knowing these shortcomings I have at ego level,

because I know it's all scraps. I've seen and experienced as the

capital " I, " and it's a natural fit. This other is like a shrunken,

Cirque du Soleil body suit that chafes in all the wrong places.)

 

We put in these extra steps to self acceptance and -acknowledgment

and in so doing limit greatly our experience of ourselves and others

in terms of reality and Reality. When we grow within ourselves, so

does our world, our realm. We see more within and without - without

all the lower mind editorializing, so I would love to live more

anchored to my light within and not care about cause and effect and

outside turbulence. I'd like to release the importance I give

unimportant things.

 

 

 

TAKING LIBERTIES

 

I know this exercise is not about commenting on other's stated self-

work, but I beg your forbearance to say what is in my heart about two

people here whom I love. I hope I know you well enough to presume to

grope my way through these statements, but if I miss the mark, please

forgive and know it was intended in love.

 

So, to Tom, I wish to say, know Who You Are, and feel the power of

everything you are *right now*. You will laugh at the foibles you

now consider such trespasses worthy to be hidden. You will see them

as scraps on the floor at the end of the day's work of creating -

mere sweepings. You have always shone as an undeniable light to me.

The best gift you can give to your son (beside your love in general,

of course) is your human weakness, and showing him how to laugh at

it. I have a feeling you already do this, because you have been

teaching me by your example how to do it.

 

And that's the right perspective to have. It can't touch you, no

matter what you do with it - reveal it to another, shout it from the

rooftops, engrave it on your tombstone. It's all scraps that nobody

in their right mind (heart) pays attention to. They see past it like

it's not there, and so should you. Creating that special space of

Self love, allowance and approval will lead you to an unshakable

centre where you know what you now might only suspect.

 

Your openness and honesty here (in response to this question) sort of

shows me that you won't be much hindered by ego. The mechanisms for

self examination and elimination are in place. You're looking at

your reflection in the mirror, which is no small feat, but I think

soon you will begin to really see all that is there, and it will

really wow you (if the wowing isn't already well underway). So,

just keep your eyes open.

 

And to Tara, I wish to say, stop trying to be what you already are.

Be your perfect self. Own that you are already perfect, and

perfectly placed, just as you are. Your effort is only an exercise

to convince yourself of your worthiness. It has no impact on the

worthiness itself, which is an immovable rock of a fact. You come

closest to your Self in your moments of abandon, your passion is a

road to yourself. So chase that bliss, in whatever form it presents

itself.

 

Just feel however you are now, and approve it without condition or

exception. Make yourself happy and continue to do so as a matter of

course, as you have already been doing. You are a powerful lover.

Continue to turn that power inward and romance yourself as you would

a lover. Tell yourself you are all you need. Ask nothing of

yourself, but give yourself everything you have and lease to fully

express yourself and all your extensions. You will feel full this

way. You will answer your own ache. Not everyone can do this, but

I believe you can.

 

Do everything in celebration of yourself and the journey, and nothing

out of obligation or need. You don't have to always " do " in order

to " be. " Simply watching Yourself being can work wonders.

Instead of saying a prayer, try for example *being* the prayer. Slip

into the music of silence and hear and be your own placid, expanding

heart enacting that feeling that the prayer evokes.

 

You have always been and continue to be a very heartening influence.

You keep surprising me with the ways in which you birth yourself into

existence, seemingly on a daily basis. You know your experiences

have always been validating to me, and I thank you for that blessing

and for being you.

 

Forgive the liberty taking; these were just little things of

appreciation I wanted to tell you both and not in any way meant as

corrective as I think you are both honouring your paths in very

inspiring and astounding ways! I see what is already there and

feel, once again, that seeing and recognising these advances and this

fundamental wonderfulness in ourselves is a large part of becoming.

 

 

THANK YOU

 

Chrism, there was an inspired urgency in your recent exhortation.

You wanted this for us, this feeling of freedom, disencumberment,

release and realisation. Thanks for this selfless desire for our

well-being and our becoming, for seeing what is needed and acting on

it, for providing the safety bubble of self-disclosure, good and bad,

warts and all and imparting the use of it. Though our first

instinct may be to struggle, it is clear that your heart is pure and

your guidance well-founded in experience and to be respectfully and

carefully considered for all the facets of truth and direction it

offers.

 

I hope the confessions take the sting out of these things, as they

aren't deserving of any weight or anxiety. They will all be stripped

away or eroded in time through exposure to light. All is in perfect

order, waiting to be seen for what it is, inside and out.

 

I celebrate everyone here with the curiosity and the courage to look.

 

Sorry for the length,

 

 

xxx,

Droxine

 

" We are to be re-made. All the rabbit in us is to disappear - the

worried, conscientious, ethical rabbit as well as the cowardly and

sensual rabbit. . . .and then, surprisingly, we shall find underneath

it all a thing we have never yet imagined; a real Man, an ageless

god, a son of God, strong, radiant, wise, beautiful, and drenched in

joy. "

[Guest guest]

Sorry, neglected to credit the author of the quote I used. It's C.S.

Lewis.

 

Droxine

 

 

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> " We are to be re-made. All the rabbit in us is to disappear - the

> worried, conscientious, ethical rabbit as well as the cowardly and

> sensual rabbit. . . .and then, surprisingly, we shall find underneath

> it all a thing we have never yet imagined; a real Man, an ageless

> god, a son of God, strong, radiant, wise, beautiful, and drenched in

> joy. "

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