Watch those Emotions/Vacationtime

[Guest guest]

Oh! That might explain something odd I've noticed lately. As I come

back to wakefulness (after a nap, especially), I am overcome with

anxiety, like the worst thing in my life is about to happen or I have

to give a speech to a million people or something. There is no basis

for this feeling (free-floating anxiety!) and it goes after I'm more

fully awake but it's a nasty way to come back to consciousness! The

other emotions seem to be stablilizing. I am able to rein in the

anger a bit better, being more rational and looking at it outside

myself somewhat when it occurs so I don't let it build to a crescendo

(which feeds on itself). Irritability is still there but I am trying

to do calming things when I feel it coming on and realize that it may

be K related so am more forgiving. I don't know if I actually fit

into the " awakened " or " infusion " category yet. I may be projecting

other's experience on myself. I'm an empath so I pick up all sorts of

stuff.

 

Anyway, if the anxiety isn't K related, I'd sure like to know WHAT it

is! It's most uncomfortable. Almost sickening.

 

Somewhat K-related, I dreamt I went back to the town I grew up in

(small town in TN). I couldn't wait to visit the river there and saw

it go from very low, swampy with sand bars to a huge wave of

aquamarine that made it a real river again and people were playing

in it. Then I went up the hill to the middle of town where the

courthouse and local newspaper were. I go to the Newspaper place to

look up an old boyfriend and chat with some of the people there. Ah,

small-town life! I miss this in the big city. I see a classified ad

on an electronic bulletin board (black screen with red letters

scrolling) with some odd musical instruments for sale, the first one

is a Persian violin! I'm half-tempted to check it out but don't. I

went in the printing room to see an old boyfriend who used to work

there but he'd quit. I saw disgruntled employees (names Ned and

Mary...don't know them in RL but that's their names in the dream).

They conspire to burn down the place, (I see this but they don't know

I'm watching them). They secretly set a fire in a pile of old

newpapers then clock out and leave to go to a nearby pub/restaurant.

I go there too, marveling at the lovely old building it's in and

thinking if I live here again, I'll be in historical preservation

somehow (again, not like the place where I live now, it's all mostly

new). I look out the big picture window at the darkening sky then see

flickering orange against some clouds just up the street (the

newpaper building?). I whisper to Mary, who is at the table next to

me, " It's starting! " She looks out, too, sees it, her eyes go wide

with anxiety/doubt. She goes very quiet and continues playing

Scrabble with her husband. I see Ned a few tables down, hunched over

his bowl of soup looking dejected and lonely. I look out to see the

flames growing. The alarm will be sounded any minute now. EOD

 

On another subject, we are flying to London tomorrow and taking the

coach to Wales to my husband's Mum's house. We'll be there a

fortnight (2 weeks) and she doesn't have a computer nor is there a

neighbour with wi-fi (as of last time, at least) so I may be

incommunicado for that time, most likely. We'll take our laptop, if

nothing else just to put digital photos on. If at all possible, I'll

try to check in. There may be a cafe or tea shop that has wi-fi but I

won't count on it.

 

Do you have any advice or suggestions for me during this time away

from you and the group, Chrism?

 

So please, say a few prayers for our safe journeys and I'm being

positive about the recent bomb failures in London and Glasgow. I will

keep my thoughts positive for a safe and fun time with relatives and

friends in the beautiful United Kingdom. But your prayers of

protection and love would be greatly appreciated. I know the power of

this group!

 

I'll miss you all and hearing what's going on. I'll keep up with what

is happening with me, probably journal it. And I have at least a

minimal idea of what to do if problems arise, thanks to Chrism.

Safeties, ground myself, watermelon, lots of water and prayer. I

don't anticipate anything, now that Shaktipat is over. That was MOST

intense! And it was great!

 

Talk to you when we return.

 

Love to everyone,

Valarie

[Guest guest]

Just to be clear Valarie I would class you in the infusing with

Kundalini catagory. This is based upon your symptoms and your

participation with what you contribute to this group and with what

I " see " when I look at you. - blessings and Cheerio! - rhcism

[Guest guest]

Thanks for the clarity, Chrism.

 

Toodle pip!

Valarie

 

, " chrism "

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> Just to be clear Valarie I would class you in the infusing with

> Kundalini catagory. This is based upon your symptoms and your

> participation with what you contribute to this group and with what

> I " see " when I look at you. - blessings and Cheerio! - rhcism

>