Paradoxical Balancing Act

[Guest guest]

My experience has been a paradoxical balancing act. These are just a

few of the thoughts I have been pondering today…

 

* Becoming increasingly more " in touch " with my physical body and its

functions yet having to " lose touch " insofar as submit and surrender

to kriyas.

* Becoming acutely more aware of universal truths and knowledge yet

not being able to convey my thoughts articulately " on demand " (unless

" allowed to " by the k).

* Coming to an understanding of the ego and projections yet for the

first time in my life unable to stop people projecting onto me. With

my ego vulnerable and unable/unwilling to defend my position I have

found these inaccurate perceptions/projections (of what that

individual imagines is the reality pertaining to myself) very often

manifest themselves and become my reality after a couple of months. It

has been a test I believe for my ego's social standing and position.

To see if I would choose the retrograde step of allowing my ego to

come to the fore and assert myself - rise above these projections with

my own projection I guess. But no. I choose honesty - I am Glen Olah -

that's who I am. Since my awakening began for the first time in my

life I chose not to hide behind my own projection for the

gratification of an unconditioned ego.

* And on the same note – surrender – to give up my own ego driven

persona (that my ego would have me believe will increase my life's

enjoyment and potential) when in actuality the benefits are

exponentially amplified when surrender is chosen. There would be no

choice if the choice wasn't so blurred by the grosser elements of ones

ego. I believe many of life's decisions are in actuality obvious

choices yet many make the wrong choice as a result of the ego blurring

the line (anger, forgiveness etc.) – allowing those respective lessons

to be absorbed. So yes, the ego is a wonderful multi-faceted tool to

work with on this plane allowing us to the opportunity to progress in

our spiritual path. The same as our physical bodies. They are both a

blessing.

 

There is lots more to be added to this list but this will do for a start.

 

Love to you all, glen o.