Last night

[Guest guest]

Dearest -

 

I had an experience last night I have to tell you about. I want to

share it with you but if you want to you can share it with the group

if you think its relevant and my experience can help someone else.

The posts I read are not as long as mine,

 

Hello everyone -

I want to thank you for your support, I don't think I would of

survived last night if I didn't had the reassurance that all is well.

I have had such incredible sense of fear lately, if I had not sent

my message to I really think I'd of lost it last nite.

 

I went to bed quite late for me, about 11:00 pm my time here in

Germany. I laid in bed on my back, practicing the safeties, while

there was a feeling that something was just not quite the same. I

prayed. I was hearing an unusual noise and I asked my husband if he

could hear it and he said no. He looked at me and said " Don't go

freaking out on me " I responded I had no plans to freak out.

 

I wanted to meditate and just fall asleep. As I gently listened to

my breath my entire crown began to feel as if something was pulling

on my hair, and it was pulling hard, I felt the brow pressing

against my skull wanting to emerge, this has happened in the past

just prior to the incredible force that invades every cell in my

body. At that moment I said to myself " Oh no, not again " I

continued with the breathing as I began to feel pressure on my lower

back.

 

I decided the pressure was too much so I laid on my side, spine

straight. The crown and brow were intensifying. I continued to

pray, please be gentle with me, please I don't want to feel fear

anymore, I am allowing with Love, I am allowing with Love, I am

allowing with Love. The more I prayed the stronger the sensation

felt. I thought what ever happened to my will? I felt I had

fallen asleep. Suddenly I felt the bed shaking the energy arising

and my heart pumping as if I had just finished a marathon. I kept

hearing Chrisms words " Don't worry my friend, you are doing fine " .

In the mist of this chaos I just kept hearing Chrisms words and my

breathing. I was trying so hard to allow it to flow. Finally I

leaned over my husband and he rolled and said " what? " All I could

say was Oh my God. I grabbed his hand placed it on my heart and he

noticed how forceful it was pumping, loud, fast and hard. He rolled

over and fell asleep, I rolled over and went with my breath saying

to my self " No worries, my friend, you are doing fine " . I began to

feel this sense of knowing that I was just taking a ride on a roller

coaster and the ride is almost at the end. (I detest roller

coasters) It took quite a long while to relax and finally fall

asleep.

 

I laid on my side, praying that I can be strong enough to partake in

this incredible experience. If last night's experience would of

arose to another person I am sure that person would of called the

paramedics, the ambulance, the fireman, the police and for good

measure their local priest just in case it's a possession.

 

I've a feeling like I am writing a life's journal about a hidden

world I have been so blinded to. I have told " I am very

ignorant about all this, I was this woman meditating to find inner

tranquility and Kundalini said Hello! " It was an uninvited guest

and now I feel I can't live without it's presence, as scary as it

has been.

 

I hope my posts are not a drag of details. My husband doesn't quite

understand what I am going through. He has read about it but

doesn't quite get it. He really thinks I can just turn it off. I

am grateful to anyone who reads this for I have no other ears who

can truly listen and understand.

 

With all my Love to all, always

 

Becky

 

 

 

 

Becky

[Guest guest]

Hello Becky,

Yes don't let the force fullness of the Kundalini

surprise you it can be very strong. Yet it is also a nurturing force

I have found, especially as you incorporate the safeties and relax

into surrender. You are doing fine Becky really it is true.

 

You are supposed to have this gift. Or you wouldn't have it as it is

a rare jewel. All of the members in our group are there for a reason

whether or not it is clear to them. It is clear to me. The Shakti

Goddess has brought you here where through her nurture and through

her guidance you can partake consciously and eventually without fear

in the process of your " Becoming " as this is what is occurring now.

 

Your husband will not understand. He cannot yet understand what is

happening and this is as it should be at this time as it is you that

needs to come into an inner understanding of this blessed force

within you. You first then he will follow in his ability to

understand but it will never be as visceral as your understanding so

try not to have that expectation of him. Or other family members or

friends. They cannot possibly " get it " until they " get it " so to say

lol. And they most likely will not. Unless they have the

predilection.

 

When you feel the scalp pulling just flow with it. It will pull hard

but it will only hurt if you resist so surrender as best you can.

This part will also pass - it is a transitioning phase that is

seeking to rewire every follicle of hair and nadis point on your

crown. The lotus petals are being gilded.(changed into Gold).

 

Try to keep the foingertips and thumbtips together. Keep the tongue

up only if it will stay if it is forced down do not resist and let

it stay down. Let theyes go where they will if looking up causes to

much of an energetic overload. You are doing fine and there is no

need for fear my friend. This is a most beautiful occurance and a

blessing for us all! - chrism

[Guest guest]

Dearest Becky, you beautiful person! Thank you for sharing this with us. I had a

similar experience though not anything like as intense. I didn't feel fear but

more like curiosity and awe. I felt a strong pulling at the top of my head like

hair was being pulled by the fist full or more like my scalp was metal and a

super strong magnet was getting closer and closer pulliing it like it would pop

off. It didn't hurt though. And my heart was pumping hard like I had too much

caffeine (which I hadn't). That you can't share this with a knowing or

supportive husband is also the same as me. My husband thinks this is all

airy-fairy stuff, those wacked-out New-agers believe in (I would have to

consider myself to be most aligned with that lot). So sharing this with him is

out of the question, if I want to keep our family relations stable. So I go

through this alone...except for all the WONDERFUL people here who share their

experiences between us and who I can talk to and know I won't

be judged, laughed at (in a negative way! LOL) or called crazy.

 

Keep sharing, listen to Chrism, he knows as he's been there, too. I'm grateful

for him everyday and his information [and humor! = - )

 

Keep it up, Becky, " go with the flow " and keep talking to us.

Love and cyber-hugs,

Valarie

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

Hi Becky,

your posts are a pleasure to read, you put your experiences so well into words

, I learn so much from just reading them!

What joy you found your way here , x x x

Thankyou for all you share

Elektra x x x

 

 

 

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