Questions about forgiveness and inner joy

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Hi, all,

 

The safeties are really new to me, so any help will be appreciated!

Many of you here mentioned forgiveness as an important part of the

process of Kundalini awakening. I have a problem forgiving a person,

and now reading the safeties I realize that this might have caused the

begining of a painful period in my life. In the past I lived a painfree

life mostly. Could a difficulty forgiving someone cause you pain? Does

the location of the painful sensations matters in the Kundalini

awakening process? I've noticed that it's hard for me to do meditation

during moments of pain. Does anybody know what could help about it?

 

Another disturbing thing is that I have agoraphobia (but I'm not sure

this is so true, and I'll explain), or simply difficulty dealing with

public places. Could inner joy help me in this case? I'm quite

suspicious about having agoraphobia, because I felt the first panic

attacks suddenly during a period of strong and intense Kundalini

activation. But this happened last year, and I had no idea what was

going on! I started to feel strong negative physical reaction to noise

and stressful situations.

Now I started to figure out that the Kundalini activation was evoked

while I was learning to play guitar, since I'm sensitive to sound. But

the contrast of guitar melodic sounds and the noice was too hard to bear!

 

I'll be grateful if anybody have any suggestions about how to deal

with all these things!

 

Regards,

Emona