still survivin'

[Guest guest]

Hi List,

 

I dropped off the list, and pretty much all emails for a few months. I

thought I would re-introduce myself and restate my committment to practice

the safeties.

 

Some of you probably remember that I have been struggling with a major

invasive experience with entities...In late January, I woke up living in " 2

dimensions " at once, experiencing astral and otherwise entites and " world

spaces " attaching to and moving through me. It has been a very hard

survival experience...like a whole planet of lower consciousness beings

attached itself to my nervous system and decided to try to murder me.

 

This was definitely a shock, considering I don't think I even knew what an

astral being was before this happened...I did believe in angelic

consciousness and spirits before, but this was not exactly on the priority

list of things I was interested in.

 

I don't have anything medically wrong that I know of, but this has felt like

a cancer upon my brain that speaks to me while it attacks my body and I am

fighting it without any pain killers or medication...well, only natural

medication/food, the safeties, bodywork, and qigong.

 

Oh, and lots and lots of unconditional love for myself.

 

I am about 500 times more grounded than when I was last writing the list. I

still have attacks from these beings daily and they are still constantly

interacting with my thoughts...but I seem to have also attracted some spirit

being allies that are helping to protect me and shift them out of me, and

the physical discomfort I have been in seems to have dropped about 50% over

the last month...

 

Progress in some way.

 

I am still untangling all the threads of what this is and trying to allow it

to transform from something disabling into something that will ultimately

strengthen me...not to mention kick them out.

 

Until I do this, I can't get my careers back, which really sucks.

 

So surrendur is definitely something I am learning a very hard way, but

beyond that, the practice of the safeties has been extremely important in

surviving and grounding through this. Especially, I have focused on very

structured grounding meals, staying in the witness, trusting in the universe

and my Higher Self, reclaiming my sense of basic safety in my body,

surrounding myself with the energy of compassion, mantra, etc.

 

My practice of the safeties has been going strong now for about 4 months,

and I sense this starting to integrate into my baseline.

 

Also, my direct work with helped me create a foundation for grounding

and connecting with nature, my primal self. These are now patterns within

me that I get to keep in the long run. When the going gets tough, I get out

to the beach or the trees and try to let my animal body move in whatever way

it needs.

 

Glad to be here.

Hope you all are doing well.

 

Peace,

Laura