Guest guest Posted September 17, 2007 Report Share Posted September 17, 2007 I wasn't sure if I should post this, but since Kundalini is the Holy Fire, I thought it might be a Kundalini dream. I was sitting on the floor in my bedroom, naked. I looked down at my legs and saw all these brown burn marks. They sort of looked like sun damage spots, but more like when you broil a vegetable for too long, and it gets dark brown or black welts. They were all over me. Mike came in, and there was a woman there with him. She had blond hair. I don't know who she was. She had just come into the apartment, and was still by the back door. He had really quickly and kind of secretly slipped in my bedroom door. He squatted down to my level, where I was sitting, and in a hurried sort of whisper, told me to get dressed. He wanted me to hide the burns or spots or whatever they were, because didn't want me to be seen with them. He was embarrassed, and the way he smiled sarcastically, made it seem like he was thinking, " Ha! You are nothing to me now. Look at you. " I never did anything wrong, but I felt as though I had to hide my appearance. I thought that at least he could accept me. Forget about the rest of the world, Mike always would accept me no matter what. Whatever family struggles I was dealing with, whatever depression or sadness I was experiencing, he had always been there. I cried to myself about it, after he plopped a handful of my clothes into my hands, and took off. That was my dream. I'm not exactly sure what it means, or if it has anything to do with K. Still I thought I'd share, in case it does, because someone might have insight. Also, my past life daughter who had worked near me a couple of years ago and then moved to another store..and then recently came back to work right next to me- just moved to another counter, across the isle from me. We are no longer right next to one another, and although I thought it would be a smooth transition for me, it has not. It feels like Shakti is really amplifying my emotions, because I was angry when she told me she was too busy to talk on the phone today, and cried off and on all day over our distance. I have been really feeling the loss of her energy, and grieving over it- but more intensly than usual. I was feeling abandoned today. Then I started crying over my deceased rabbit. Mike said something about how whenever she would sit on the couch with us during a big game, his team would win. He was smiling, thinking about it. I kept a straight face, and tried to laugh a little bit for him, but when he left the room- I couldn't control all the tears pouring down my face. My shirt was wet. I think it's the K's 'emotional roller coaster'. The other day, I had not practiced the Tibetans in the morning before work. I told myself that I would be fine as long as I'd do them that night. Oh contraier, after a while, I began to feel as though I was falling and falling. I felt very dizzy and sick to my stomach. It was a sort of motion sickness feeling, that one might get when drunk and the room is spinning. After a while, I knew that I could only be fixed by the safeties. I couldn't think of a place where I could do them privately, so I just did my prayer breathing, and the Shakti prayer, and I meditated for a moment. I felt so much better, but then the feeling came back later. I haven't had it since, thankfully. It was weird, as if maybe Shakti was trying to tell me that I needed to do the safeties in the morning. Just thought I'd share, and see if anyone can make sense of it. Love and thanks to you, Tara Check out the hottest 2008 models today at Autos. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 18, 2007 Report Share Posted September 18, 2007 Dear loving Tara, When I read your messages I just think, " Tara needs to be independant and non attached to others " , you need to find your own inner light and rely on that and release such strong emotional attachments to others. You shouldn't be so dependant on your loved ones and so affected by them. I know it's easier said then done but it will bring you great strength, we all need to stand alone, strong, like shakti. Hope you don't mind me saying this.... love you loads Elektra x x x _________ Want ideas for reducing your carbon footprint? Visit For Good http://uk.promotions./forgood/environment.html Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 18, 2007 Report Share Posted September 18, 2007 Yep, in a way- it does sound like me. Not with everyone, but with some people- I can be very much affected by even the little things. I haven't learned to 'seal off' my energy or 'shield myself' from others yet. One of my friends whom I work with tells me now and then to do that, but I don't know how, and whenever she begins to tell me, we get busy with customers and I never get to find out. I suppose I could just use my imagination and create a shield. As they say, in non physical reality, your perception is your reality. I guess I'll give it a shot, and see if visualization can help. Any tips?? Love ya! Tara >When I read your messages I just think, " Tara needs to >be independant and non attached to others " , you need >to find your own inner light and rely on that and >release such strong emotional attachments to others. >You shouldn't be so dependant on your loved ones and >so affected by them. >I know it's easier said then done but it will bring >you great strength, we all need to stand alone, >strong, like shakti. >Hope you don't mind me saying this.... >love you loads >Elektra x x x @.co.uk> wrote: Dear loving Tara, When I read your messages I just think, " Tara needs to be independant and non attached to others " , you need to find your own inner light and rely on that and release such strong emotional attachments to others. You shouldn't be so dependant on your loved ones and so affected by them. I know it's easier said then done but it will bring you great strength, we all need to stand alone, strong, like shakti. Hope you don't mind me saying this.... love you loads Elektra x x x ________ Want ideas for reducing your carbon footprint? Visit For Good http://uk.promotions./forgood/environment.html Got a little couch potato? Check out fun summer activities for kids. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 18, 2007 Report Share Posted September 18, 2007 It's such a hard thing to master I think, but so rewarding. I think you could use visualisation, see yourself as strong, like a warrior, wearing armour, and hold in your hand a sword of light. Imagine yourself cutting all energy attachments with the sword, to the front, the back, the left and right, underneath you and above you. Ask ArchAngel Michael to help you if you feel that Angels resonate with you. Ask for guidance from your higherself on how to become more self contained . It may feel a little strange at first but I think it is strengthening. then, when we become totally self sufficient and self contained the love and support we give is so much stronger. It's the best feeling in the world actually Also, spending time alone, on a trip out in the country now and again is great, You are such a softy and very sensitive, this sensitivity is not a bad thing it just needs to be harnessed with strength. It is a gift. Lots of love Elektra x x x _________ Want ideas for reducing your carbon footprint? Visit For Good http://uk.promotions./forgood/environment.html Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 18, 2007 Report Share Posted September 18, 2007 Ahh..that all makes sense to me now. Thanks a million, Elektra!!!! I love to feel connected to others, because it helps me to get a feel for what they need, and then I treat them with that care. Often times though, I do find myself feeling as though the littlest careless words or acts by those whom I feel most attached can pull me down a spiral of sadness and despair. It is no good, for sure. I find myself asking my co-worker (my past life daughter) why our boss (my past life mother) didn't speak to me, and saying that I must've done something wrong and that she must hate me. I feel sadness deep in my heart, like a knife at that point, and she says, " no she loves you, she's not upset..she's just busy and she's not thinking. " Someone at work was kidding with me about that the other day, because I found out that my boss (my past life mother) is sick and I became so sad. This co-worker asked me if I was about to cry, and I said no. Then she dragged it out of me and found herself in a bit of laughter when she heard that I was so sad over our boss's sickness. She said, she's been sick for a couple of days now. I replied with sadness, that I had not known. And she was laughing and telling me that it's just a little cold, for goodness sakes. It's those people whom I've known in other lives, that I'm so connected to in this life. I will try that which you just described to me. I think I'm going to do it now, before work, he..he. I want to have an edge on the day. Your the best, Elektra! Thanks again,(smiling big) Tara >Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > It's such a hard thing to master I think, but so >rewarding. >I think you could use visualisation, see yourself as >strong, like a warrior, wearing armour, and hold in >your hand a sword of light. Imagine yourself cutting >all energy attachments with the sword, to the front, >the back, the left and right, underneath you and above >you. Ask ArchAngel Michael to help you if you feel >that Angels resonate with you. >Ask for guidance from your higherself on how to become >more self contained . >It may feel a little strange at first but I think it >is strengthening. >then, when we become totally self sufficient and self >contained the love and support we give is so much >stronger. >It's the best feeling in the world actually >Also, spending time alone, on a trip out in the country now >and again is great, >You are such a softy and very sensitive, this >sensitivity is not a bad thing it just needs to be >harnessed with strength. It is a gift. >Lots of love >Elektra x x x ________ Want ideas for reducing your carbon footprint? Visit For Good http://uk.promotions./forgood/environment.html Got a little couch potato? Check out fun summer activities for kids. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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