Let your Love flow!

[Guest guest]

Hi, all,

 

Last night I had a strange experience. I woke at 3:00 am, the pain in

my left arm woke me, to be correct. The pain started gradually after

meditation, and increased dramaticly in the night. I was crawling and

moaning in bed, and it felt really awful. Then my kitty came to me (he

was like called and I made him lay on my painful arm to cure it (I

noticed he can heal my aches, no matter what they are). The first

thing I felt was an extreme increase of the pain, but then it started

to reduce, although it was still very bad. I couldn't sleep anymore,

so I started to think about Kundalini and forgiveness. I did that

forgiveness exercise, but I wasn't sure it worked, I was very confused

about how to do it again more effectively. I asked myself who have I

not forgiven. And I thought about my ex-boyfriend. Then I asked myself

why. And the answer was still in my memories. I'll spare you the

details around my ex-boyfriend personality, because it was totally

non-Kundalini-like, well maybe that he behaved and lived in a

completely different manner from what I intended to be. I'll only say

that our relationship wasn't equal, I'm normally a loving and giving

person, while he just wasn't. After that when I met my true love, I

was aware that I'll never be able to hate my ex. On the contrary - I

would always love him, as with just everybody that was or is dear to

me. But as you know, if you're steadfast you can even learn to feel

things. When I found out what the true love felt like, and when I felt

really loved, the most strange thing - I felt an outburst of anger.

Anger directed to my ex-boyfriend. I guess that this was my stupid way

to be true to my loving one - I felt the need to burn down all the

nice memories and feelings that were my connection with the ex. I

thought that he simply never deserved them. And I wanted all

destroyed. While thinking about this, I felt the kitty on my arm

electrified, it was strange - his hairs stood on end for a little

while, then the process went back to the normal - as he breaths in, I

feel streams of energies running from me to him, as he breaths out -

the opposite direction. So.. I was about to say I did something very

wrong to me, and I realized that last night. I learned to hate. As I

was laying in bed tearful, I asked myself " Wasn't that a mistake? " .

And the answer was " It was a mistake. " .... I remembered. My own love

could make myself happy. Just the feeling of love with no direction.

It was for me after all. No matter who I was giving it, it was coming

back to me. Without following any rules. It was essential to have it.

It was essential to give it, everywhere. It was the same feeling, no

matter where I was directing it. It was the most essential part of me.

Then I got very emotional. I deeply regreted for all those feelings of

hatred I used to destroy my love, and I realized that they were

hurting no one else, but me. I realized that the only one that did any

harm to me was my own self. This realization felt like a heavy burden

was lifted from my shoulders. I calmed myself down. I stoped crying

(it was a sudden emotional burst of tears that I should stop, it's

stupid, but often happens to me), and I also felt my arm better. When

the pain was completely gone, my kitty got bored and went to sleep

elsewhere. Now I feel enlightened and calm. And like my arm never ached

 

Don't forget: Let your love flow!

 

Emona

[Guest guest]

Great story, Emona!

 

Animals are our " Guardian Angels " !

I know!

 

The other part of your story?

Was it a mistake?

I don't think so.

I think it was a 'growing experience'.

They can hurt!

 

:)

Stephen

 

, " fjspefj "

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> Hi, all,

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> Don't forget: Let your love flow!

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> Emona

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[Guest guest]

Sounds like a great release Emona! Not to worry, tears are for the

strong.

 

This reminds me a lot of the situation with my ex hubby. I held such

rage and hatred for him in my heart for the longest time. The day it

was released, I felt like a weight had been lifted,the clouds parted

and out came the sun! Forgiveness heals US more than it helps those

we are forgiving. It is the gift that keeps on giving.

 

I have noticed that cats are special creatures, very intuitive and

healing. I am not a big cat person, I had two that found me and I

loved them both dearly until the end of their days.

 

Good for you Emona! You did really well.

 

Sarita

 

, " fjspefj "

<fjspefj wrote:

>

> Hi, all,

>

> Last night I had a strange experience. I woke at 3:00 am, the pain

in

> my left arm woke me, to be correct. The pain started gradually after

> meditation, and increased dramaticly in the night. I was crawling

and

> moaning in bed, and it felt really awful. Then my kitty came to me

(he

> was like called and I made him lay on my painful arm to cure it