Guest guest Posted September 26, 2007 Report Share Posted September 26, 2007 Hi guys and gals! This has been a very interesting day of learning for me. I was impressed by all of the lessons given, and the way they were shown to me, and I thought I would share it with you. Here we go: 10:30 p.m. I began experiencing a lot of pain, around my tail bone...just about a half hour ago.The same position, but around the front, is really hurting too. It feels as though someone dismembered my semi-middle section, from the tail bone, around to the front..and almost up to my ribs, and around. It feels like that whole section has been removed, and someone is applying a lot of pressure, either squeezing or twisting the spine, at that spot. Or as if there is something inside of me- twisting or pressing on my tail bone, trying to make me bend. The area directly in front, at my abdomen, feels swollen. I am hot. My feet are on fire, and into my ankles. I am experiencing an inner rush of energy..like a caffeine rush..only all natural. This all began a while ago. The intense pain came first, and I was breathing heavily because of the pain. I was also holding my back, and almost in tears. I began to stretch my back. I pulled my self over in half, so that my head was close to my ankles, and my lower back was all stretched out. Then I bend as far back as I could. It felt better then, and as I straightened up, I hurt immensely, until I was standing perfectly straight. I never stand perfectly straight, so now I am. I was out on a walk, while all of this happened. I needed to buy some veggies at the store, so I stretched on their park bench. I had been doing the Tibetans around two a.m., because I had a lot of consistent energy all the way up until then, and I've been doing them before bed. Last night, however, I fell into a deep sleep, on the couch, and I never woke up until 4 in the morning. I thought it was too late to do them then, so I went back to bed. Bad idea. I began to feel a bit dizzy. I intended to begin all of the Tibetans and the meditations, early today, but I kept pushing it back because I was so pained in my heart, that I couldn't seem to make myself move. I was pained, because my sister emailed a poem to me, about what her life is like with epilepsy. She began to have seizures as a teen, after several blows to the head by our dad. When I wrote back about my strange episodes in which I suddenly experience pitch darkness, and I become frozen stiff and my eyes begin to stare off into nothingness. She told me that is a kind of seizure. I read up on it, and yes, it is. It is called an absence seizure. It can be caused by head trauma, and as I thought back, I remembered that I first began to experience it after the last time my dad slammed me into a wall, when I was 12 or 13, and I blacked out and fell to the floor. Anyway, it filled me with gladness to know that I am not weird after all- that there is in fact a reason why this happens to me. Also, it filled me with despair, for having a defect. I felt weak, because of the emotional pain. Also, I have some crushing bills, which I am trying to work out a payment plan for. So all of these things began weighing me down, and I made the mistake of letting them. 11:p.m. Right now, I am burning...burning straight up all of my insides, and tingly cold, all over my outsides. It feels like I should have goosebumps, but I don't. I guess because it's an energy thing, not a physical thing. It seems as though Shakti is telling me to do them earlier, because right where it hurts, is where I am bent backwards, in the 3rd Tibetan..and where the bottom, front of me touches the floor for part of the 5th Tibetan. When I stopped everything and did the Tibetans, it all went away. 12:57 p.m. I just finished doing all four of the Tibetans (x21) x3 and all four of my chakra meditations (15 breaths into each) x3 and my compression breathing(x3) x5 and my Shakti prayer(x3) x3 and the lord's prayer, and others. I did them alternately; one set of the Tibetans(all 4,x21), then the compression prayer, Shakti prayer, the Lord's prayer and other prayers, and my chakra meditations. Then I started back at the beginning again, until I had done three rounds of everything. I did my first set of Tibetans inside, and then I thought about how I could be more compliant if I was more grounded..so I began to do my second round outside in bare feet, on the ground. The ground was really hard and prickly with acorns though, so in the middle, I had to move up to the porch. Then I did my last round on the porch, too. I haven't gone through my gratitude and forgiveness prayers yet, or sent to my Triad yet, or to anyone in need of healing yet...but already, I feel like a million dollars- a brand spanking new..squeaky- clean million dollars. Hee,hee!!! I have no pain left, and the swelling has gone down almost all of the way. The heat has lessened by a LOT, too. I am no longer tingly cold on the outside, but I just got a strange chill, right through the core of me, on the inside. It's a strange feeling, almost as if I've been opened up to a beautiful, crisp, fresh, fragrant fall air. A nice clean breeze. As if I have no back, or it's just been moved, or a window has been installed in the middle of my back, where I can feel this wonderful clean air coming through. It's really amazing, and something which I had not yet experienced. I feel as if I simply MUST do it all again, right now- so I'm about to drop and start from the beginning, for Shakti, so seems to be prompting me. The heat is returning to my feet now, at the thought of that. It is a pleasantly warm and soothing heat, in the tops and bottoms of my feet..and creating a warm, tingly feeling in my toes. I also have a very pleasant, warm, and tingly feeling at the bottom of my spine. It almost make me laugh. I am smiling, because it almost feels like a warm hand on the bottom of my back, comforting me..like a loving pat, or something. 1:20 a.m. Today, I certainly learned a few valuable lessons about surrender, no matter what the circumstances may be..and I listened. I also learned that Shakti can heal just about everything. I had been in so much pain, that I was about to scoot right home, and get on the computer and plead for help and relief..but Shakti prompted me to do my work before that, and she took it all away. I really have never stood up perfectly straight, but right now I am...and I feel good. (smiling on the inside) Love to all, and thanks to you..dear ones, Tara Don't let your dream ride pass you by. Make it a reality with Autos. Luggage? GPS? Comic books? Check out fitting gifts for grads at Search. Fussy? Opinionated? Impossible to please? Perfect. Join 's user panel and lay it on us. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 27, 2007 Report Share Posted September 27, 2007 Dear Tara, Thank you so much for sharing this. I'm so happy you are not in pain anymore. Your story will truly help many! So thanks again! Deb Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 27, 2007 Report Share Posted September 27, 2007 Hi Tara, I'm so sorry for what happened to you and your sister in the past and I sent you healing energy. I always send energy to people without telling them ( working behind the scenes LOL ) but when I knew your struggling with bills, I thought of sending you a great ebook about manifesting money. It is called ( A Happy Pocket Full of Money ). Of course your awakening kundalini will make it more easier for you to manifest but you should always have positive thoughts. If you want me to send it to you just make your declaration LOL :) Moaaz , tara jacoby <tjmassage7777 wrote: > > It can be caused by head trauma, and as I thought back, I remembered that I first began to experience it after the last time my dad slammed me into a wall, when I was 12 or 13, and I blacked out and fell to the floor. > Anyway, it filled me with gladness to know that I am not weird after all- that there is in fact a reason why this happens to me. Also, it filled me with despair, for having a defect. I felt weak, because of the emotional pain. Also, I have some crushing bills, which I am trying to work out a payment plan for. So all of these things began weighing me down, and I made the mistake of letting them. > > Love to all, and thanks to you..dear ones, > Tara > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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