Surrender declaration -Melissa

[Guest guest]

Thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us Melissa. Reading

your story only makes me respect you so much more. Many would have

crumpled under what you have been through.

 

I know it sounds easy to talk of forgiveness and how good it is for

you. You are probably sick of hearing such statements. I have not

been through anything as awful as you have, but I was married to a

verbally abusive man and I suffered a lot of pain and loss of someone

else I loved because of his deceit and control. I held so much anger

and hatred in my heart for him. I spent a great deal of time

plotting my revenge for all that he did to harm me. I was consumed

by rage so strong. I went to a healing service and went up for an

ailment I had. The pastor looked right into my eyes and told me that

I had rage and unforgiveness in my heart, that I needed to let it

go. He began tugging over my heart as if pulling out a string and I

was delivered from it at that very moment.

 

That was the day I learned that forgiveness was the only way for me.

I felt 50 pounds lighter and I was able to smile again. After this,

my gifts started to return - gifts that I had lost while with my ex

husband and did not get back while plotting his demise.

 

I take no joy in this, but my ex husband is now paying back a karmic

debt. He has suffered greatly and continues to suffer. I pray for

him every day. I have forgiven him and I hope that he will learn his

lessons and move on to a better life.

 

I pray that you will find the peace that I have Melissa. It is so

dark in unforgiveness and there is no reward in it. But there is so

much in forgiveness for everyone!

 

Sarita

 

, " Melissa "

<mm7810 wrote:

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> Dearest Beloved Groups –

>

> I am writing this post to both the kas-1 group and Kundalini

Healing

> group. As most of you know, I am infected with Lyme and had a

> hepatitis-b vaccine injury which has now left me with an inability

> to walk as well as other neurological deficits (difficulty in

> handwriting, eating, showering, basic activities of daily living).

> Lyme is often misdiagnosed as MS and I have multiple brain lesions

> that fall in a pattern which is characteristic of MS. I had a long

> IM conversation with last night/this morning and under his

> guidance and suggestion I am writing this declaration to surrender

> my private anguish.