Guest guest Posted October 4, 2007 Report Share Posted October 4, 2007 I realized with all this talk of forgiveness recently that I HAVE NOT forgiven everyone. There was a triangle with my ex husband that was a continuation from another lifetime. When my spirit guide led me through a past life regression last year, it explained a LOT about what happened in this lifetime. What I missed was the fact that this guy let me down in the past life and again this time. I realized that I can still feel a bit of disappointment in what a wuss he was both times. Not really anger, but a deep deep disappointment. He is the old flame that has been in my dreams a lot lately. I guess I still have some work to do... Sarita Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 4, 2007 Report Share Posted October 4, 2007 Kudos for dragging that out of the depths of your memory, Sarita! I guess that's why keeps telling us to keep working at forgiveness...we never know when something that we had forgotten might surface. Blessings & love, Claudia Sarita <sarita1969 wrote: I realized with all this talk of forgiveness recently that I HAVE NOT forgiven everyone. There was a triangle with my ex husband that was a continuation from another lifetime. When my spirit guide led me through a past life regression last year, it explained a LOT about what happened in this lifetime. What I missed was the fact that this guy let me down in the past life and again this time. I realized that I can still feel a bit of disappointment in what a wuss he was both times. Not really anger, but a deep deep disappointment. He is the old flame that has been in my dreams a lot lately. I guess I still have some work to do... Sarita Catch up on fall's hot new shows on TV. Watch previews, get listings, and more! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 4, 2007 Report Share Posted October 4, 2007 My biggy from the past is my third grade school teacher. She was a " bitch from hell " teacher. Her name was brought up in a conversation with my mom back in the spring. I cried all over again when I told my mom what that teacher had said and done to me that year. I never told my mom or anyone at the time about what was going on. She made me feel ashamed for even being alive. I am finding it really hard to forgive her. Mostly when I think about her all I can do is cry all over again. Linda , Claudia Lambright <newtfoodbowl wrote: > > Kudos for dragging that out of the depths of your memory, Sarita! I guess that's why keeps telling us to keep working at forgiveness...we never know when something that we had forgotten might surface. > > Blessings & love, > Claudia > > Sarita <sarita1969 wrote: > I realized with all this talk of forgiveness recently that I HAVE NOT > forgiven everyone. There was a triangle with my ex husband that was a > continuation from another lifetime. When my spirit guide led me > through a past life regression last year, it explained a LOT about what > happened in this lifetime. What I missed was the fact that this guy > let me down in the past life and again this time. > > I realized that I can still feel a bit of disappointment in what a wuss > he was both times. Not really anger, but a deep deep disappointment. > He is the old flame that has been in my dreams a lot lately. I guess I > still have some work to do... > > Sarita > Catch up on fall's hot new shows on TV. Watch previews, get listings, and more! > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 4, 2007 Report Share Posted October 4, 2007 so sorry to hear that Linda! I think it probably is so fresh BECAUSE you never talked about it. You have to feel sorry for someone like her though. Something happened to make her treat others that way. Sometimes looking at someone else in the view of what they might have suffered makes it easier to forgive. Sarita , " Linda " <crazycats711 wrote: > > My biggy from the past is my third grade school teacher. She was > a " bitch from hell " teacher. Her name was brought up in a > conversation with my mom back in the spring. I cried all over again > when I told my mom what that teacher had said and done to me that > year. I never told my mom or anyone at the time about what was going > on. She made me feel ashamed for even being alive. I am finding it > really hard to forgive her. Mostly when I think about her all I can > do is cry all over again. > > Linda > > , Claudia > Lambright <newtfoodbowl@> wrote: > > > > Kudos for dragging that out of the depths of your memory, Sarita! > I guess that's why keeps telling us to keep working at > forgiveness...we never know when something that we had forgotten > might surface. > > > > Blessings & love, > > Claudia > > > > Sarita <sarita1969@> wrote: > > I realized with all this talk of forgiveness recently > that I HAVE NOT > > forgiven everyone. There was a triangle with my ex husband that was > a > > continuation from another lifetime. When my spirit guide led me > > through a past life regression last year, it explained a LOT about > what > > happened in this lifetime. What I missed was the fact that this guy > > let me down in the past life and again this time. > > > > I realized that I can still feel a bit of disappointment in what a > wuss > > he was both times. Not really anger, but a deep deep > disappointment. > > He is the old flame that has been in my dreams a lot lately. I > guess I > > still have some work to do... > > > > Sarita > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Catch up on fall's hot new shows on TV. Watch previews, get > listings, and more! > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 4, 2007 Report Share Posted October 4, 2007 I think that you becoming aware of the grudge you have been holding onto is a good start. I was always one for grudges, or out for revenge. My boyfriends ex was a psycho with us for over a year, I was okay with her at first but when he and I got together she went batty. After all that time, it was hard not to have a bad taste in my mouth from her. She would apologize and then get crazy again. We have a video website with a forum on it and she would start her games there. Now all is civil and I accept the fact that she wants to be on the forum, and I have let go of that anger and frustration I have. She has since gone to some seminar and apologized to the both of us, and took responsibility for her actions after and during their relationship. There is also the JJ's mom story that you know about, and I loosely went into it here. I feel really good having been able to let go of these things. Its not worth the trouble and its so liberating to let go and forgive. If pride doesnt get in the way, that is. Amanda ---- Original Message ---- sarita1969 RE: Speaking of Forgiveness... Thu, 04 Oct 2007 16:14:38 -0000 >I realized with all this talk of forgiveness recently that I HAVE NOT > >forgiven everyone. There was a triangle with my ex husband that was >a >continuation from another lifetime. When my spirit guide led me >through a past life regression last year, it explained a LOT about >what >happened in this lifetime. What I missed was the fact that this guy >let me down in the past life and again this time. > >I realized that I can still feel a bit of disappointment in what a >wuss >he was both times. Not really anger, but a deep deep disappointment. > >He is the old flame that has been in my dreams a lot lately. I guess >I >still have some work to do... > >Sarita > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 4, 2007 Report Share Posted October 4, 2007 Yes Amanda, I have seen you come a long way the past few months. It was a good move sending those flowers to JJ's mom. My issue isn't so much a grudge as a really deep sense of disappointment. I think it is because of the huge letdown in a past life and then again in this one. He dropped the ball big time back then and he did the same this time around. He isn't a bad person, so it was hard for me to admit I was angry with him. I just realized it yesterday in fact, 10 years after the fact! This is a weird one for me. LOL Sarita , " Amanda " <mi5anthr0pe wrote: > > I think that you becoming aware of the grudge you have been holding > onto is a good start. I was always one for grudges, or out for > revenge. My boyfriends ex was a psycho with us for over a year, I was > okay with her at first but when he and I got together she went batty. > After all that time, it was hard not to have a bad taste in my mouth > from her. She would apologize and then get crazy again. We have a > video website with a forum on it and she would start her games there. > > Now all is civil and I accept the fact that she wants to be on the > forum, and I have let go of that anger and frustration I have. She > has since gone to some seminar and apologized to the both of us, and > took responsibility for her actions after and during their > relationship. > > There is also the JJ's mom story that you know about, and I loosely > went into it here. I feel really good having been able to let go of > these things. Its not worth the trouble and its so liberating to let > go and forgive. If pride doesnt get in the way, that is. > > Amanda > > ---- Original Message ---- > sarita1969 > > RE: Speaking of > Forgiveness... > Thu, 04 Oct 2007 16:14:38 -0000 > > >I realized with all this talk of forgiveness recently that I HAVE NOT > > > >forgiven everyone. There was a triangle with my ex husband that was > >a > >continuation from another lifetime. When my spirit guide led me > >through a past life regression last year, it explained a LOT about > >what > >happened in this lifetime. What I missed was the fact that this guy > >let me down in the past life and again this time. > > > >I realized that I can still feel a bit of disappointment in what a > >wuss > >he was both times. Not really anger, but a deep deep disappointment. > > > >He is the old flame that has been in my dreams a lot lately. I guess > >I > >still have some work to do... > > > >Sarita > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 4, 2007 Report Share Posted October 4, 2007 I feel you on the dissapointment. I, truthfully, was very dissapointed I didnt get a reply from JJs mom. I was hoping in a way that I would, but at the same time, I was too nervous and scared to see an email from her. I know she knows I sent them, and thats what is important. Thanks Sarita. He still hanging around by chance? I have been feeling a lot better as far as missing him and getting down in the dumps. These things come and go. Love, Amanda ---- Original Message ---- sarita1969 RE: Re: Speaking of Forgiveness... Fri, 05 Oct 2007 01:49:50 -0000 >Yes Amanda, I have seen you come a long way the past few months. It >was a good move sending those flowers to JJ's mom. > >My issue isn't so much a grudge as a really deep sense of >disappointment. I think it is because of the huge letdown in a past >life and then again in this one. He dropped the ball big time back >then and he did the same this time around. He isn't a bad person, so >it was hard for me to admit I was angry with him. I just realized it > >yesterday in fact, 10 years after the fact! This is a weird one for >me. LOL > >Sarita > > , " Amanda " ><mi5anthr0pe wrote: >> >> I think that you becoming aware of the grudge you have been holding >> onto is a good start. I was always one for grudges, or out for >> revenge. My boyfriends ex was a psycho with us for over a year, I >was >> okay with her at first but when he and I got together she went >batty. >> After all that time, it was hard not to have a bad taste in my >mouth >> from her. She would apologize and then get crazy again. We have a >> video website with a forum on it and she would start her games >there. >> >> Now all is civil and I accept the fact that she wants to be on the >> forum, and I have let go of that anger and frustration I have. She >> has since gone to some seminar and apologized to the both of us, >and >> took responsibility for her actions after and during their >> relationship. >> >> There is also the JJ's mom story that you know about, and I loosely >> went into it here. I feel really good having been able to let go of >> these things. Its not worth the trouble and its so liberating to >let >> go and forgive. If pride doesnt get in the way, that is. >> >> Amanda >> >> ---- Original Message ---- >> sarita1969 >> >> RE: Speaking of >> Forgiveness... >> Thu, 04 Oct 2007 16:14:38 -0000 >> >> >I realized with all this talk of forgiveness recently that I HAVE >NOT >> > >> >forgiven everyone. There was a triangle with my ex husband that >was >> >a >> >continuation from another lifetime. When my spirit guide led me >> >through a past life regression last year, it explained a LOT about >> >what >> >happened in this lifetime. What I missed was the fact that this >guy >> >let me down in the past life and again this time. >> > >> >I realized that I can still feel a bit of disappointment in what a >> >wuss >> >he was both times. Not really anger, but a deep deep >disappointment. >> > >> >He is the old flame that has been in my dreams a lot lately. I >guess >> >I >> >still have some work to do... >> > >> >Sarita >> > >> > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 4, 2007 Report Share Posted October 4, 2007 Amanda, He is still there, but not as prominently as before. Perhaps he is giving you the space you need to work things out. Sarita , " Amanda " <mi5anthr0pe wrote: > > He still hanging around by chance? I have been feeling a lot better > as far as missing him and getting down in the dumps. These things > come and go. > > Love, > Amanda > ---- Original Message ---- > sarita1969 > > RE: Re: Speaking of > Forgiveness... > Fri, 05 Oct 2007 01:49:50 -0000 > > >Yes Amanda, I have seen you come a long way the past few months. It > >was a good move sending those flowers to JJ's mom. > > > >My issue isn't so much a grudge as a really deep sense of > >disappointment. I think it is because of the huge letdown in a past > >life and then again in this one. He dropped the ball big time back > >then and he did the same this time around. He isn't a bad person, so > >it was hard for me to admit I was angry with him. I just realized it > > > >yesterday in fact, 10 years after the fact! This is a weird one for > >me. LOL > > > >Sarita > > > > , " Amanda " > ><mi5anthr0pe@> wrote: > >> > >> I think that you becoming aware of the grudge you have been holding > >> onto is a good start. I was always one for grudges, or out for > >> revenge. My boyfriends ex was a psycho with us for over a year, I > >was > >> okay with her at first but when he and I got together she went > >batty. > >> After all that time, it was hard not to have a bad taste in my > >mouth > >> from her. She would apologize and then get crazy again. We have a > >> video website with a forum on it and she would start her games > >there. > >> > >> Now all is civil and I accept the fact that she wants to be on the > >> forum, and I have let go of that anger and frustration I have. She > >> has since gone to some seminar and apologized to the both of us, > >and > >> took responsibility for her actions after and during their > >> relationship. > >> > >> There is also the JJ's mom story that you know about, and I loosely > >> went into it here. I feel really good having been able to let go of > >> these things. Its not worth the trouble and its so liberating to > >let > >> go and forgive. If pride doesnt get in the way, that is. > >> > >> Amanda > >> > >> ---- Original Message ---- > >> sarita1969@ > >> > >> RE: Speaking of > >> Forgiveness... > >> Thu, 04 Oct 2007 16:14:38 -0000 > >> > >> >I realized with all this talk of forgiveness recently that I HAVE > >NOT > >> > > >> >forgiven everyone. There was a triangle with my ex husband that > >was > >> >a > >> >continuation from another lifetime. When my spirit guide led me > >> >through a past life regression last year, it explained a LOT about > >> >what > >> >happened in this lifetime. What I missed was the fact that this > >guy > >> >let me down in the past life and again this time. > >> > > >> >I realized that I can still feel a bit of disappointment in what a > >> >wuss > >> >he was both times. Not really anger, but a deep deep > >disappointment. > >> > > >> >He is the old flame that has been in my dreams a lot lately. I > >guess > >> >I > >> >still have some work to do... > >> > > >> >Sarita > >> > > >> > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 4, 2007 Report Share Posted October 4, 2007 You know what's funny? I thought I had deleted that when I wrote it. Asking if he was still around, that is. Im losin' my marbles! Amanda ---- Original Message ---- sarita1969 RE: Re: Speaking of Forgiveness... Fri, 05 Oct 2007 03:11:02 -0000 >Amanda, > >He is still there, but not as prominently as before. Perhaps he is >giving you the space you need to work things out. > >Sarita > > , " Amanda " ><mi5anthr0pe wrote: >> >> He still hanging around by chance? I have been feeling a lot better >> as far as missing him and getting down in the dumps. These things >> come and go. >> >> Love, >> Amanda >> ---- Original Message ---- >> sarita1969 >> >> RE: Re: Speaking of >> Forgiveness... >> Fri, 05 Oct 2007 01:49:50 -0000 >> >> >Yes Amanda, I have seen you come a long way the past few months. >It >> >was a good move sending those flowers to JJ's mom. >> > >> >My issue isn't so much a grudge as a really deep sense of >> >disappointment. I think it is because of the huge letdown in a >past >> >life and then again in this one. He dropped the ball big time >back >> >then and he did the same this time around. He isn't a bad person, >so >> >it was hard for me to admit I was angry with him. I just realized > >it >> > >> >yesterday in fact, 10 years after the fact! This is a weird one >for >> >me. LOL >> > >> >Sarita >> > >> > , " Amanda " >> ><mi5anthr0pe@> wrote: >> >> >> >> I think that you becoming aware of the grudge you have been >holding >> >> onto is a good start. I was always one for grudges, or out for >> >> revenge. My boyfriends ex was a psycho with us for over a year, >I >> >was >> >> okay with her at first but when he and I got together she went >> >batty. >> >> After all that time, it was hard not to have a bad taste in my >> >mouth >> >> from her. She would apologize and then get crazy again. We have >a >> >> video website with a forum on it and she would start her games >> >there. >> >> >> >> Now all is civil and I accept the fact that she wants to be on >the >> >> forum, and I have let go of that anger and frustration I have. >She >> >> has since gone to some seminar and apologized to the both of us, >> >and >> >> took responsibility for her actions after and during their >> >> relationship. >> >> >> >> There is also the JJ's mom story that you know about, and I >loosely >> >> went into it here. I feel really good having been able to let go > >of >> >> these things. Its not worth the trouble and its so liberating to >> >let >> >> go and forgive. If pride doesnt get in the way, that is. >> >> >> >> Amanda >> >> >> >> ---- Original Message ---- >> >> sarita1969@ >> >> >> >> RE: Speaking of >> >> Forgiveness... >> >> Thu, 04 Oct 2007 16:14:38 -0000 >> >> >> >> >I realized with all this talk of forgiveness recently that I >HAVE >> >NOT >> >> > >> >> >forgiven everyone. There was a triangle with my ex husband >that >> >was >> >> >a >> >> >continuation from another lifetime. When my spirit guide led >me >> >> >through a past life regression last year, it explained a LOT >about >> >> >what >> >> >happened in this lifetime. What I missed was the fact that >this >> >guy >> >> >let me down in the past life and again this time. >> >> > >> >> >I realized that I can still feel a bit of disappointment in >what a >> >> >wuss >> >> >he was both times. Not really anger, but a deep deep >> >disappointment. >> >> > >> >> >He is the old flame that has been in my dreams a lot lately. I > >> >guess >> >> >I >> >> >still have some work to do... >> >> > >> >> >Sarita >> >> > >> >> >> > >> > >> > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 4, 2007 Report Share Posted October 4, 2007 I wish it was that simple, Sarita. If a person was greedy would you say someone made them that way? The way I see it no one made her that way. That is the way she choose to be. After the talk with my mom back in the spring, I do have more of a sense of what took place. The woman wanted my parent's property and my mom and dad refuse to sell it to her. In her anger of not being able to get what she wanted, she took out her frustrations on a 9 year old child...Me! She did not treat everyone else in the class that way. I was the only one she abused and it wasn't out of some injustice done to her that " caused her to do it " . She put me through nine months of hell because she didn't get her way. I had really thought I had forgiven her years ago, for my own sake, if nothing else, but it's obvious I haven't. The woman is even dead now, but that doesn't seem to matter. The pain and humiliation she put me through still hurts and still has an effect on me. I have never had any vengeful thoughts towards her, but if she were standing before right now, I think I would probably punch her in the face a time or two for what she did to that little nine year old me. Linda , " Sarita " <sarita1969 wrote: > > so sorry to hear that Linda! I think it probably is so fresh BECAUSE > you never talked about it. You have to feel sorry for someone like > her though. Something happened to make her treat others that way. > Sometimes looking at someone else in the view of what they might have > suffered makes it easier to forgive. > > Sarita > > ---> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 5, 2007 Report Share Posted October 5, 2007 Well done you Sarita, get stuck in there love.... The deeper we dig the more we remove . Great news, love Elektra x x x _________ Answers - Got a question? Someone out there knows the answer. Try it now. http://uk.answers./ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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