welcome & my story

[Guest guest]

hello to all the new members of KA - i have only been here for a few

weeks and it feels like i have been here a lifetime (in a good way-

feels like home.)

 

there has been some heavy discussions recently on the site - it can

feel scary and upsetting - so i wanted to throw a different

perspective out - i found an article on the net about a personal

experience that one man went thru with k he called it " the gentle

kundalini " that struck me as strange after readng so many unhappy

situations that have occurred to folks for a myriad of reasons. i

thought how wonderful to view the experience as gentle - he even had

drawings of some nasty stuff that came his way - he surrendered and

accepted and went with the flow of the k - so far i have only had

total vibrations and a few jerky things(kriyas?) and my left side of

face and head feeling numbness and like i was wearing a cap - i am

enjoying and loving every little movement - i have been seeking this

all my life and i now savor each tasty morsel that is dished up in my

body -

 

this man talked about acceptance - i am being positive - following my

guide and not expecting any problems - i am very fortunate that i had

no major symptoms before finding chrism- so he can monitor and guide

me -

 

my journey i know started long ago but i had no idea what k was -

this summer in ireland my friend told me how she and her hubby were

taking tantric sex seminars- and how wonderful it was for them - upon

my return i looked up sites on tantric/tantra and came upon k - i

found a group that offers awakening for a nice fee with a 1st level

teacher in fort lauderdale about 2 hours away from me - this teacher

has a session for all on friday eves 2 x each month.

 

so i went over there by way of a fella from st. pete's who i had

never met - he picked me up and we stayed with a friend of his who

does holistic work - very interesting folks -

 

at the session everything was very new to me - i walked in the door

and not one minute after this big fella came toward me with open

arms - i am under 5' my insides went wild and i backed off saying no -

my personal space is shared only by those i know or choose -so that

began my very uncomfortable night -

 

why i did not just leave i do not know - i had read a little but had

no idea really what it all meant - the leader was a gorgeous lady 20

years my junior all in black - moved like a ballerina - seemed

knowledgable to a point yet she did not know how to handle me - i

refused to do any work with the big guy - he scared me so everytime

there was a group task where we rotated - i would not even look at

him - she stopped the tasks 2 xs because of me - but i thought i have

choices to make and this is my choice - she was not too happy with

me - but the idea was to witness and let go - she had to work hard on

this - and it cracked me up when at the end of the sesison we were

asked to share something and one fella announces that he wants to

have sex with the leader- two thoughts went thru my mind - 1- who

wouldn't she was drop dead gorgeous ( not me but the guys ( and i

wondered if that was a requirement to lead these grups)(there were

about 7 men in the room and 4 women) 2. i thought you do not get it

this is not about sex -even i knew that much -

 

i decided that a lady younger than i who did not seem to have much

moxie was not the one to guide me - so i got on the net and found c-

i knew that i needed a male guide i knew it had to be someone who was

strong, knowledgable and totally accepting - so here i am -

 

i hesitate to say this but i am having fun with k - i giggle when i

feel the jerky things - my time may come yet i welcome it all with

open arms -

 

this has been one rough year for me - i have not worked in 6 months -

i lost my entire community - work was my life - i was in bed

depressed for 2 months then i went off to europw for 2 months and had

a ball when i came back reality set in

 

but i found my way here - so far i have had only one bump - a big one

regarding a choice i made on an ethical issue - i will pay big time

for this and i accept that - my k was stirred up last summer and i

have not been making good choices this year - i understand how easily

it is to be drawn to the negative - i am blessed in that i feel very

strong in many ways - and so many positive things are happening to me

and for me that it is becoming easier to stay focused on the love and

good -

 

i had applied to couchsurfing for a volunteer position in thailand -

i did not get the position but i was invited to come anyway - this is

a wonderful oppotunity for me - to live with a dynamic group of folks

nearly half my age - i told the fella who talked to me that i am not

like any old lady you have ever met -

 

i will be continuing my practice of k and hopefully be ready for the

dec shaktipat - that will be interesting being with a group - knowing

me i will be sharing with many and who knows maybe find one or two

that can relate - they will have a quiet room where i will be doing

my exercises and meditating - i am still in shock about all of this -

i have been smiling and telling folks all day - and they are excited

for me and big smiles back -

 

so big ?- anyone here in thailand? i am not sure where we will be

but krabi was mentioned - please get in toucn with me if there is

another member who lives there or near - i would love to meet you.

 

i wish you all a gentle k

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hi (Sawadee Khrup!),

 

Thank you for sharing with us! I have a carity question for you. It wasn't

the K that put you out of work for six months or in dpression for 2 months

right? Also, you are very fortunate to be in Krabi! Beautiful, simple place

with pretty beaches. Unfortuantely it is growing and it's simplicity will

change. Our friend and his wife own the Krabi Resort and some places in town.

They also own the island (koh) off of the beach. They started catering to

European backpackers years ago and it finally led to the resort growing. I wish

I could be there with you now to enjoy it! You are coming into the BEST of the

season weather wise! I will hopefully be there next June or July if all goes

well. I have to be in Bangkok at that time, but we are hoping to get to Krabi

or Phuket. If I do I will look you up!

 

Blessing and Love!

 

Sutape (my Thai name)

(Scott)

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

thank you for the info

 

i am not there yet - i go in dec/jan - i will be housed somewhere with 11

other folks - i really think k had much to do with my loss of job and my

depression - i did not know what was going on - i do now and i made some bad

choices - and others did also - as i was told then by many - this is probably a

good thing - daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! i am here how much better does it get? i had

worked in the one place for 15 years - it was my life my community - i lost

everything i knew and now have rediscovered " me " the " me " i like and want to

be - no more persona - no more hiding my thoughts and feelings - i am free and

loving every moment of it -

 

where do you live that you go all over the east?

 

am not sure if i am gonna be in krabi it was mentioned but if i am send me

your friends names and i will look them up - it will fit right into the reason i

am there - building community one person at a time -

 

i know there is a reason i am going there besides the volunteer work - it is

for me to discover- there is this path that keeps presenting from all angles yet

it is a straight path -

to my destiny - sounds heady but i feel it is true -

 

namaste

 

 

 

loro

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[Guest guest]

Dear and Scott,

 

I spend loads of time in Thailand (mother energy vright there), I lived in Pai

in Northern Thailand for a year and go every Feb/March to Koh Phangan.

Love it, maybe we can all meet up.

I would love that.

Anyone who comes to Thailand let me know x x x

Elektra

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

hey Elecktra:

 

I will be there in dec/jan - i do not know what trips we will take but i am

hoping we get out to some areas - i will let you knwo where i am and if we are

hesding anywhere - where are you?

 

 

 

loro

239-980-9090

 

 

 

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