Hi again Linda/response to Linda

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Hi again,

 

Sure Linda no problem, hope I didn't upset you in any way...DH stands

for dear husband....

 

I'm very, very sorry to hear about your friend, I don't know what to

say...that must have been very traumatic. I'm glad you have worked

through that all.

 

That is SO weird about that church group -- really strange --

sometimes some of the churches can be such unhealthy relating groups

and that really sounds very unhealthy/dysfunctional to me. Glad that

you got out of there. I guess that taking on another person's role --

like assuming their persona when you act does have its issues, I know

I'd never be able to do that and come out of that whole. That must

have been tough.

 

SO cool that you were never sick as a child. That is very strange

about that one sickness you mentioned and how your family did not pay

attention to you -- it almost sounds like the same scenario with the

church group. btw, what are chem-trails? I've never heard of that

before. But I'm glad that you don't get sick much/often!

 

Well I can relate about what you mentioned about your dream and how

your not sure what it really was, I do feel that way sometimes too

with things.

 

I agree let's not really discuss the e thing anymore unless really

necessary. I do hope things get better for you and respect however you

choose to deal with your situation.

 

Hope today is a really good day for you. : ) Christine

 

 

 

, " Linda "

<crazycats711 wrote:

>

> Christine, thanks for being concerned about me.

>

> I do not know what DH stands for, but no, I don't want him doing

> anything. I do not want to have anything to do with magic or ritual

> stuff or channeling or any of that type of thing. From what Chrism

> has written to you, my consulting a medium back there in my past

> could be what open the door for them in the first place, I suppose.

> Also, my involvement in an esoteric occult thing, kind of like

> Freemasonery, where I had taken some oaths, not to mention playing

> with an ouija board in my younger years. Of course when I became a

> Christian, I renounced and I turned from all that. I did have some

> dealings with an ouija since becoming a christian, but I paid for

> that dearly. A lot of forgiving of myself had to be done there. I

> should have been strong and stuck to my convictions, but I did not. I

> gave in and it resulted in my best friend eventually committing

> suicide.

>

> I cannot say, that had anything to do with my health problem, for I

> had that even before meeting that friend. Right before, I began

> having the health problem, I played a part in a christian play of a

> very sick woman. I put my all into playing that part, and it was like

> I became that woman. I did seek Christian prayer and was even a

> member of the prayer circle at the time. When I finally got up enough

> nerve one night to ask for prayer for myself from the leaders of this

> prayer group, they began praying for me and then just stopped and

> looked strangely at each other after a little bit. They did not say

> anything else, just turned from me. It was like I was rejected. I

> never went back, nor did I ever go back to church after that. Not one

> person of the prayer group or church even bother to call me up and

> ask what's wrong. It was like I never existed to them.

>

> As far as the entity thing, I have had paranormal stuff happening

> since way back, even as a child. I never felt sickness of any kind

> the whole time growing up. I did not have childhood diseases or even

> a cold. I got sick for the first time when I was 18. I was sick from

> Friday afternoon until Sunday evening late. So sick and weak I did

> not get out of bed except to go to the bathroom. But I had to stop

> and rest every few feet and would take me forever to get there and

> then back to bed. The whole time I was sick there was this black

> rolling darkness, that was trying to take over me. That whole weekend

> not one family member came to see about me or ask what's wrong. I am

> pretty sure I was running a high fever. It was all so weird. My

> little sister came in on Sunday night and asked me if I would like

> for her to bring me a glass of tea. I said yes. After drinking the

> tea the sickness left, just as fast as it came on. I got up and went

> to school the next morning. It all seemed like a dream, like it

> didn't really happen somehow. After that I got colds and viruses that

> went around just like normal people, but maybe not so often, just

> once in a while. I have not had a cold now for years. I cannot

> remember the last time I had one. I did get sick, if you could call

> it sick, about a month after having my appendix removed. I just had a

> dry cough, I could not get rid of. It lasted about 2 months, but I

> did not feel ill from it. I think that might have been caused by chem-

> trails. There was a strange smell in the air that afternoon when it

> begain and I had a hard time breathing on my walk because of it. We

> had been having lots of the chem-trails for months prior, but they

> were high up and I did not smell them. Walking everyday, I watched

> the sky and would see them forming. A few times, I saw this long

> thing, if the sun caught it just right. When it was finished putting

> out the chem-trail, it would explode, but it was a silent explosion.

> Kind of like fireworks, but with no sound.

>

> Anyways, back to the subject. I am sure there are people here on the

> forum who pray for me. I do trust all of the ones here and would not

> want just anyone praying for me. Just being here and following the

> safeties has helped more so than anything. I do not feel I need

> anything else or anything from anyone outside this group. I am happy

> with the way things are going for me now. I do practice the inner

> joy. Anytime I start to think in a negative way, I change my thinking

> to something of a positive nature. It is just a matter of staying on

> guard of what one is thinking and feeling. Most of the negative

> things happen while in the dream state now. I don't seem to have much

> awareness in the dream state anymore. I not remembering them much,

> but usually know when I have had a " bad " one, by the way I feel when

> I wake up.

>

> Night before last I dreamed I was in the house I grew up in. One of

> my sisters came over and woke me up telling me that my older sister

> had seen a neg in the living room. She then went over to the door and

> peeked into the living room and then rushed back over to where I was

> with a frighten look on her face and said it was in there now. I sat

> up in bed and was starting to get up when we heard my little sister

> scream out in terror and the neg was now in her bedroom and was

> frightening her. I jumped up and ran to her room and ordered the neg

> to leave and not to ever bother her again. As I was saying the words,

> I woke up and the words were coming from me physically. I guess you

> could say I was talking in my sleep, but the words were coming out

> distorted, like in slow motion. I am not for sure if that was a dream

> or if I was back in time in an OBE. If it is a dream, I do not know

> how to interpert it.

>

> All I want for now is just to stick with doing the safeties and

> Tibetans and take part in the Shaktipats and see what developes. I do

> keep my mind off the entities as much as possible. They have been

> coming up a lot in the discussions here, so it's a little hard to

> do, but it good to read what others are going through and how they

> are handling their problems with them. Just little subtle things

> that happen, one doesn't know if it's their imagination or real.

>

> Linda

>

>

>

>

> Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-

> 1 , " mytussiemussies " <c-wood61@> wrote:

> >

> >

> >

> > Hi again Linda,

> >

> > Glad to hear from you and that your do have some good days: )))).

> > Glad that you have your strong relationship with Christ to hold onto

> > while you go through this: ))))). I can totally relate to what you

> are

> > going through and understand that the medical will never comprehend

> > what you are going through.

> >

> > I cannot link myself to you energetically right now as I think they

> > will sense me and then come for a visit. I am going to ask my DH to

> > pray for you, just that -- if want him to send you positive energy I

> > will ask him to -- only that. He does the clearing for me, when I

> do

> > it -- it isn't all that effective sometimes it is, but w/him doing

> it

> > and he isn't into the spiritual life as much etc. but does not fear

> > nor feel them.

> >

> > I do not ever think of any plans they have for anyone, the thing

> that

> > got me interested in K. is the person that is buying my home, their

> > Dad had a K. experience and is an amazing healer and has amazing

> > energy. He told me to never think of them, and to never think of

> what

> > I don't want, only what I do want, since it makes an energetic link

> etc.

> >

> > Keep letting us know how you are I would like to just know that you

> > are okay -- just a thought and of course you would have to check it

> > out with what you are doing with ChrisM but since you are Christ

> > centered -- have you considered putting yourself on a prayer list?

> At

> > one time I needed help for someone and found a website that had tons

> > of links for prayer chains, i put this someone on a lot of chains

> and

> > lots of prayers were being said for them...just a thought that may

> be

> > something for you?

> >

> > P.S. I never used to believe in the Astral plane but someone I do

> feel

> > is Mother Teresa, can you ask for her help? She has helped me at

> > times...another thought

> >

> > P.S.S. At first I thought I was attracting the entities because I

> was

> > negative, then David Furlong's theory was that I was trying to be

> too

> > positive and their neg. energy was a balancing thing -- I don't

> > believe any of that any more. That was very hard for me to think I

> > was attracting them to myself! Also recently read a book on Saint

> > Teresa of Avila -- her private notes...she also at times had

> > " encounters " so this gave me a great peace of mind...just sharing

> > with you...

> >

> > Best wishes -- keep posting to let us know how you are!!!

> >

> > : ) Christine

> >

>