Gosh----Pam

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Hi Pam. What I mean was surrendering to the need to cry. " Tested " meaning by

people, patience. I had a board meeting last night and towards the end of it I

felt as if I just wanted to cry. The reason is I felt like some of the people I

thought I carefully chose as my boardmembers to help see my vision of helping

the needy come to life bringing joy to their hearts and lives want to make it

their own, changing it to their likings, with me doing all the work. I was so

frustrated and so heart broken that I almost walked out of the meeting giving it

to them to do. Had I not had a vision and a goal and the love for these people I

would have left. A friend of mine (Executive Director of the Daily Bread) tells

me that I have the burning desire in my heart to see this through and he always

tells me to " persevere " no matter what happens, what I encounter. Last night

those words, Gods plan, and my love for the service kept me there. I only wish

that I could read

the minds of these people, have discernment for their true motives. One of them

was really rude and disrespectful and tried to be very controlling. I guess I

had my vision of no struggle, no problems, I guess you could call it being

naive. This has plagued me all day long and I can't seem to shake the uncertain

path of my mission, my vision. I feel sad, I feel burdened, I feel hurt! Ego is

playing with my emotions. That is what is going on.

 

Love,

Katherine

 

 

 

 

Pam <mystick53

 

Tuesday, October 16, 2007 6:38:52 PM

Re: Gosh--Chrism

 

Oh, Katherine!

 

I am so sorry!!! What do you mean by " I am surrendering to it! " ???

If you do think that you are being tested, don't surrender! Go ahead

and have your cry, get that all out! But - be strong. This will

pass! If you " fail " this test, or make " a bad grade " , won't that

warrant another test, very similar to this one, on down the road?

 

You sound so tired, so frustrated, and scared ... We will all

continue to send you Strength, and Love! : )

 

Much Love, Many Blessings!

Fenix

 

Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , Katherine

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> I am sorry, it doesn't have anything to do with the group! I didn't

have a very good night and it has carried over to today! I am being

tested I know it, I am surrendering to it! I just think I just want

to burst out and cry! I have once, maybe twice is needed!

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> Love,

> Katherine

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