A few things sorry, long

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Hello everyone,

A few things struck me in post 3931. But first, Chrism, I FINALLY got it. It was

the TITLE. Good Grief, was that really necessary? Okay everyone remember when I

spoke about the document in the files section? Well it is " The Secret of The

Flower of LIFE not Love; altho I could argue that they are the same thing! HA!

And the person who wrote it is Melchizedek. Don't know who he is, I will have to

google him because this document is quite amazing, a book, 2xx some pages.

 

Sarita, I totally agree with you about trying to find the source of the hurt,

which is under the anger. I also have days of short fuse, I'm not so much angry

any more, just irritated easily. I try to understand what is going on, why am I

so easily irritated today? But when I get angry it is important to me, to go

inside, find the anger, find the hurt, GO BACK all the way to the first source

of that hurt, because when we are hurt by things, a lot of the time (maybe all

the time) it is because we had a hurt when we were a child that could not be

healed because we did not have the wisdom to heal it then. So we can heal it

now, because time is an illusion.

 

Fenix, Anne and everyone, perhaps we are all alone in this for reasons. First,

we are forced to go within for help and this is exactly what we need to do,

also, we go out looking for other people to share this with and are then led to

places like here, where we need to be.

 

Last, I have been struggling with this whole idea of surrender. I surrendered to

my higher power when I got sober, and continue to do so every day. When I read

Becky's Declaration, I was bothered and still am. I found it too Jim Jones like.

Becky please don't be hurt, I am trying to explore my feelings, please try to

understand. I am not saying I feel you or any of you, are doing any thing wrong.

I am just trying to explore feelings. I don't see how I can surrender to any

person. I can see, as some of you have said, surrendering to the process, but

not a person, above my own personal higher power(s). Not a person, over my own

personal guides. These are my feelings. Namaste,

Carol