Surrender - Carol

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Hello Carol,

 

All your questions are necessary. We are all in

different stages of growth and not everyone is called

to apprenticeship at this time. Relax, enjoy where you

are now. Let things unfold for you. Seek balance and

freedom in forgivenesses, then new things will unfold

for you in their own time without struggle. Listen to

your inner wisdom and don't feel pressured to be where

you're not. Everything happens in its own perfect

time. imho Love, dhyana

 

--- " Carol S. Gunn " <cgunn1111 wrote:

 

> and everyone,

> First thank you for allowing me to ask that

> question. I hope you and everyone realizes it was

> extremely difficult and very scary to ask. I

> struggled for days over it. Finally I thought no

> other way to resolve it than just ask. Chrism, it is

> NOT the money that bothers me, altho if it got out

> of hand it might, I don't think that is my problem.

> My problem. I think first, it is a function of my

> ego. I do definately find it very difficult to

> surrender. To anything. Second, I think all the talk

> about spirits of the negative sort, which I never

> thought were real, made me a little paranoid. It was

> more like I was afraid of spiritual control than

> financial. Third, I really don't know you very well.

> I am not by my life experiences, a natural born

> truster. Or surrenderer either! I hope I did not

> offend you. Sometimes I don't say things very well.

> I also hope that we are laying foundations here, or

> marking out a path. To do that you need to even

> explore the

> scary areas too, right? I think I just need some

> time to get to know everyone. I hope you all will

> allow me to even ask scary uncomfortable questions.

> If I should have taken it pm, please let me know

> that too. I need to keep reading and talking. Thank

> you so much Chrism.

>

> Becky, if you felt I was being disrespectful, or if

> I hurt you I am deeply sorry. I really felt I had to

> voice my feeling. I admire very much what you said

> and did and do. I admire your surrender. I hope I

> can do it too. I have to ask the things I need to

> ask to get to where you are. Can you understand?

> Love to everyone and thank you. Namaste,

> Carol

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