Seizure? Tara - Claudia

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One thing I must say though, Claudia,

Is that although I've only recently begun noticing

this, it

is something I've traced back a number of years. It is not a typical seizure,

with convulsions and such. It may look to someone as if I'm fully engulfed in a

daydream. My eyes stare off at nothing, but in fact, my sight has blacked-out.

I only began noticing this, as after many episodes and coming out of these

episodes..many times seeing worried faces of friends looking in at my face,

wondering what is happening to me. Sometimes, someone will be waving a hand in

front of my face, but because my sight has faded out, I will not be aware, until

I begin to snap out of it.

 

I was able to trace the black outs, back to my 12th or 13th year of age; the day

after I was slammed into a wall by my father. The back of my head was what hit

the wall, along with my body; and I remember sliding down to the floor, as I

felt the wall- since I couldn't see anything, because my sight blacked out.

It was the very next morning, I believe; when I whined to my mother about the

warm and sick feeling in my stomach, and my sight fading to black in the shower.

It happened on a regular basis for a long time, and then seemed to disappear. It

lasted months, and I may have eventually tuned it out, as I got used to

experiencing it.

 

I did my homework, and this is what I found out;

These absence seizures, if that's truly what they are, can be caused by head

trauma. They can cause temporary black-outs, a frozen- stiff appearance, staring

off as if in a daydream, and even moving from place to place with no particular

reason.

 

The last line, would explain the many times, when in my own apartment, I would

lose my keys or other belongings, after just having them in my hand. The entire

memory of having the object in my hand, would be missing. Still, I knew that I

had been feeling sad about a family discussion which opened up old wounds from a

painful childhood, and they would be flooding my mind again. Suddenly, something

would pass through my mind. Too quickly for me to remember what it was, but at

that moment, I would begin to stare. I would 'come to' while walking without a

purpose through the house. That's when I'd notice the object which had been in

my hand was missing. For the life of me, I could not remember what I was doing

when I had it. The only thing that seemed to stick out, was that there seemed to

be something dark, passing overhead or though my mind, when it began to happen.

Maybe that was my perception of negativity; since at the time, I was able to

actually see negative energy, although it showed itself as gray, not black. One

thing I must say though, is that

these have become more and more frequent, and they are brought about during

times of very intense emotion.

This makes me think that K could have something to do with it.

 

Intense sadness, or feelings of despair, are what cause these episodes;

An example, would be a day at work, when I spent much of my time tying perfect

bows on my cosmetic gift boxes for display. It was not easy, because it has to

be done in a particular way, and it is really trying to the nerves.

Still, I found joy in it, and made them all look beautiful. I spent a lot of

time on it, because we were having a special visit the next day, and everything

had to be perfect. I was admiring my beautiful counter, with its lined up,

wrapped gift boxes, when my manager walked up. She ripped all the bows off in

front of me, and threw them onto the dirt floor. I was so filled with sadness

and despair, and I was holding back my tears with all of my inner strength.

After she walked away, the intense emotion filled me all at once, and I went

into what seems to be an absence seizure; with the staring and the blacking out.

The whole time, I was filled with that sadness. My manager saw me like that, and

was walking past me and waving her hand in front of my face. I did not know

until I began to snap out of it, but then I saw her and the sadness filled me

again and I blacked right back out again. I heard her saying to me " Are you

alright? " but I couldn't see anything, and I didn't

know where she was. I had to follow the sound of her voice, and just nod my

head yes. Afterwards, I went into the stockroom to cry. I spent the rest of the

day running in and out of the stockroom, to cry over it. I felt very

irrational. It was as if part of me knew it wasn't 'that serious' but I felt the

pain in my heart as if it was.

 

I cried myself to sleep that night, and I even woke several times, to the

realization that I was crying in my sleep. It wasn't until I was crying very

hard, and heard myself say " You take everything away from me " . I had to stop and

analyze that, and I realized that my dad took all of my things away from me as a

child, and she reminded me of that. The feeling of despair, came from feeling as

though he was in her, speaking through her. As if I was thrown right back into

that childhood situation again. So I know that the emotion has very strong

roots, and is strong enough to bring about a panic attack. Maybe K is magnifying

it, or maybe I just need serious counseling. I will be looking toward God and

Shakti for help, as I'm not sure which direction to turn, and I don't want to

jump into medications, when I know that Shakti is helping so much, to fix me. I

don't want to undo her work.

 

Do you still think I should 'bother' with this?

 

Thanks Claudia.

You're the best. Always looking out for others.

You make my heart very happy.

With love,

Tara

 

 

 

>Claudia my dear,

>You are the best!

>I will ask him. Thank you so very much.

>Love,

>Tara

 

 

>Claudia <newtfoodbowl wrote:

> Hi Tara,

 

>Perhaps you should describe these 'silent seizures' to Chrism...it may well be

> the K. Have him 'take a look at you,' LOL. Seems to me that kriyas could

> mimic a seizure. Just a thought. I would sure ask before I took a

> medication.

 

>Love,

>Claudia

 

tara jacoby <tjmassage7777 wrote:

Sarita,

Did you ever take a medicine for seizures?

I'm sorry for prying. I was just wondering, because I remember

talking to you before, about getting off medicines because of Shakti.

I'm asking because I'm supposed to

go to a neurologist, because I keep having these 'silent seizures'.

My insurance through Macy's is not accepted by everyone..so I'm taking a

long time trying to find a doctor. I'm not in a big hurry, as I feel that this

could very well be a signal that I need to meditate more on my chakras, and

focus more on prayer and forgiveness. I have many of them each day, and although

it

seems to only last a few moments, it triggers a response in my humanness to

want to be medicated to stop it from happening.

My K awareness however, tells me to work things through it on my own.

I feel as though because they seem to only come on during times of

sadness and stress, maybe I need to focus on healing those traits in me before

trying to medicate. Anyway, I thought I'd ask you.

Thanks sweetie.

Hugs and love to you,

Tara

 

>Sarita <sarita1969 wrote: >Well, since I have been on this group I

have stopped all medications.

>I was on a pill for this and a pill to fix what got broken by that

>pill and another pill to even this out......ad nauseum. I have also

realized that a number of symptoms I had before joining this group

were related to the K, symptoms that doctors had no answer for OR

symptoms that I instinctively knew that I should mention to no doctors.

 

When I have a symptom I am unsure of, I consult here on the group

first. I have lost a lot of my faith in the medical community and

their ability to help me.

 

I am so grateful that the K and this group came into my life! I am

medication free and I feel better than I have since my accident.

 

Sarita

 

, " chrism "

<> wrote:

>

> You have Kundalini come into your life. It effects your organs.

Makes

> you feel different. You go to the doc who does lab tests. Your

organs

> give off lab tests that show they are not normal. You get put on a

> treatment schedule. You find out that Kundalini has an effect on

> organs that causes them to give those type of lab tests. Your doc

> doesnt believe in Kundalini. What do you do? - chrism

>

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hi Tara, just jumping in here, I think you could still

talk to chrism about them, maybe we could offer some

form of healing.

Have you ever tried to do the dynamic meditation that

comes in four parts?

To release old wounds? It's pretty powerful,

especially when done a few times, then wait a while

and allow the energy to settle, then try again a few

times (or however many times you feel to do it).

 

It helped me shift some old emotions, I could do with

doing it again mind you but my apartment is not as

private as my last one and people would surely knock

to see if I was OK!!! hee hee. They already think I'm

a crazy foreigner.

 

Hope you can find your ultimate peace, I know you can.

It's a long process, I know that, when you have

suffered any kind of abuse it's so deeply engrained

that it sometimes feels as if it is such a part of us

we can never move it.

We must persist in our forgiveness and prayer.

 

I also like to get the arch angels involved, AA

Michael is always a favourite of mine to be called

upon when facing my pain, he can help cut out the

wound, he is great to work with during dreams to help

with the unblocking.

AA Gabriel is great for helping nurture our own inner

child, and AA Azrael can bring comfort to our hearts.

AA Raphael for healing.

 

Hugs and love

Elektra x x x

 

 

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