my feelings...

[Guest guest]

we all are at different levels here i know this yet it is hard to

read all the good things that are happening to some of you and i feel

really left out - i can only imagine what any new members feel -

 

there have been a few posts that i actually picked up some vibes

from - but not many - i need to start trusting that these are k

related - for i know they are- it is like wearing a new pair of

shoes - it takes time to adjust to them -

 

new members: just hang in there - ask ?'s -sign up for a buddy - they

will help get you thru when it is too unnerving to ask on the post-

remember there is no ? that is too small or silly - this is your k

experience - you are unique and will process at your own pace- i am

still trying to grasp that concept- i posted a list of safeties from

a newbie point of view that i will find for new members.

 

trust your k - your k is an intelligent entity - you will be guided

by her- it takes time to learn to trust and listen to her-

 

i go over my safeties -

 

i love what is happening - so you know that you are a special being-

not all are into the k experience - i figure my k is just one of the

stronger entities -as is yours - you are here for a reason there are

no accidents ( not even chrism's borrowed truck - it happened for a

reason )

 

i trust what is happening - i may not understand it all but i am

being led by a smart cookie (k)

 

i am very grateful for i now see where all my life has brought me

here to this time and space- and to this group - i may not feel i

belong at times yet there is no place i would rather be

 

my prayers come out in a catholic manner - praying in structured ways

feels most comfortable for me - not like so many who can just open up

and let her rip in prayers to shakti- i never even knew about shakti

til about a month ago - the thought of a female god was in my head

but never a reality as now - so pray as you feel comfortable -

 

i surrender to my k - she knows what i need - she knows what i can

handle - and oh i am so fortunate to have a guide who knows what he

is doing - so many do not really see the big picture

 

service - always service - the world is in a not so good state right

now - it is not hard to find folks in need - if you can not seem to

find a way to service others - look up soldiers angels- find a

service man/woman to write to - they need TLC all the time - food

banks need food - there are thousands of charities - find something

that touches your heart and make it your service - i tend to give $

away to whoever needs it - that is a service - a smile as you walk

pass someone on the street - a thank you - graciousness at all costs -

 

 

i do not do this well on the phone - frustration sets in - like today

talking to the computer tech service - i could not understand the

lady - she was eastern indian - and the thought went thru my mind - i

am out of work and other americans are out of work and you get the

pic - that is not nice however - i found my self telling her i did

not understand her - nor the supervisor that came on the line - it

may not have been nice on the one hand yet to let people know so they

can improve maybe that is a service and to get that patriotic feeling

of why the hell are our companies giving our jobs away - ooooooo

sorry a sore spot for this unemployed lady and i sit here with a

computer made in malaysia service dept in india parts from china -

well i am just one global supporter of all countries at the expense

of my own - now that is world wide service -

 

actually i bring my service home - american soldiers - the lady at

the store - the bird who has a broken foot that i fed - little

things - and i know k will care for all peoples in all countries -

 

sorry - i try real hard not to get into this stuff but i sometimes

can not help myself - actually my k can get pretty hot - in oh so

many ways

 

so NEW MEMBERS- always work from the safeties - use them to get thru

your day all the little things will go so much easier if you learn to

use them

 

oh yes - inner joy - that is an easy one - i hear music and i soar-

as do some of the others on the list - i play my radio up real loud

and get lost in the melodies and the words - i dance now - sometimes

it is hard to do my exercises for i want to dance - and just be

happy - no worries - no problems - just " be'

 

meditate - this is new to me and i am not good at it - yet i find at

times i can actually clear my mind - and every now and then i feel

different - but mostly i just listen to soft music and keep pushing

thoughts out of my mind - or i just say the hell with it and listen

to my music - it wil come when k is ready for me to meditate for

real -

 

i am trying to take things slowly - but it is hard with all the

activity of the others on the list - it can be intimadating just try

to remember - we all go at out own pace - see i can say these words

yet they do not ring true for me - i get frustrated

 

 

REMEMBER- march 21-22-23 we are having a gathering in ojai

california - it is easter weekend (christian holiday) all members on

the group here are invited and friends can come - it will be an

exciting time for many of us have never met - although reading

the posts one would not know this - we will keep the costs as low as

possible - we will double/triple up - chrism will be lecturing- there

will be food and dance and lots of surprises - laughter/hugs/kisses/

a k -stock in ojai- lots of k-ing for all -

 

well that is my two cents -

and i agree with steve every time he writes - he loves all the group -

i know exactly how he feels - and they make me laugh - so very hard -

the jokes - well i told chrism about the playing while he is away -

he is ok with it - he loves a good laugh -

 

namaste

 

[Guest guest]

, thank you for pouring your heart out to us...nothing at all

wrong with that. We listen! I like your safeties for dummies LOL!!

Great. And boy do I know the state of frustration that you feel, too.

Been there, still there sometimes! Hang in there and hang with us.

Glad you're feeling some of the energy and you know what it is. It

builds over time too, you know? And I totally get it from reading

other's posts, even newbies ones, sometimes. It's all building.

 

And I want to say a HUGE thank you to you for 1) keeping us updated

on chrism's travels and travails and 2) for all you're doing to help

with the Ojai event! Absolutely awesome and so exciting to think it's

coming together, slowly but surely. I hope I'll be able to come to

it! I want to so much!

 

Thank you for being here (no accident as chrism says) and for all you

do and it's great to see you open your heart and keeping an open mind

about all this. I realize mind expansion goes along with new vistas

that have just been opened to you (and divine entities you never even

knew existed). I think of Shakti along the lines of Mary, Mother of

Jesus. Only even more powerful. But she gives you an idea of the

divine feminine.

 

Hugs to you, !

Valarie

 

, " "

. wrote:

>

> we all are at different levels here i know this yet it is hard to

> read all the good things that are happening to some of you and i

feel really left out - i can only imagine what any new members feel -

>

[Guest guest]

Dear -

 

I just wanted to second Valarie's thank you for this post. I am not

really a newbie, but not an old veteran either . . . kinda lost out

there somewhere and I have a looooooooong way to go. Your reminders

are a good review for all!

 

Love and Blessings,

 

Melissa

 

, " "

. wrote:

>

> we all are at different levels here i know this yet it is hard to

> read all the good things that are happening to some of you and i

feel

> really left out - i can only imagine what any new members feel -

>

> there have been a few posts that i actually picked up some vibes

> from - but not many - i need to start trusting that these are k

> related - for i know they are- it is like wearing a new pair of

> shoes - it takes time to adjust to them -

>

> new members: just hang in there - ask ?'s -sign up for a buddy -

they

> will help get you thru when it is too unnerving to ask on the post-

 

> remember there is no ? that is too small or silly - this is your k

> experience - you are unique and will process at your own pace- i

am

> still trying to grasp that concept- i posted a list of safeties

from

> a newbie point of view that i will find for new members.

>

> trust your k - your k is an intelligent entity - you will be

guided

> by her- it takes time to learn to trust and listen to her-

>

> i go over my safeties -

>

> i love what is happening - so you know that you are a special

being-

> not all are into the k experience - i figure my k is just one of

the

> stronger entities -as is yours - you are here for a reason there

are

> no accidents ( not even chrism's borrowed truck - it happened for

a

> reason )

>

> i trust what is happening - i may not understand it all but i am

> being led by a smart cookie (k)

>

> i am very grateful for i now see where all my life has brought me

> here to this time and space- and to this group - i may not feel i

> belong at times yet there is no place i would rather be

>

> my prayers come out in a catholic manner - praying in structured

ways

> feels most comfortable for me - not like so many who can just open

up

> and let her rip in prayers to shakti- i never even knew about

shakti

> til about a month ago - the thought of a female god was in my head

> but never a reality as now - so pray as you feel comfortable -

>

> i surrender to my k - she knows what i need - she knows what i can

> handle - and oh i am so fortunate to have a guide who knows what

he

> is doing - so many do not really see the big picture

>

> service - always service - the world is in a not so good state

right

> now - it is not hard to find folks in need - if you can not seem

to

> find a way to service others - look up soldiers angels- find a

> service man/woman to write to - they need TLC all the time - food

> banks need food - there are thousands of charities - find

something

> that touches your heart and make it your service - i tend to give

$

> away to whoever needs it - that is a service - a smile as you walk

> pass someone on the street - a thank you - graciousness at all

costs -

>

>

> i do not do this well on the phone - frustration sets in - like

today

> talking to the computer tech service - i could not understand the

> lady - she was eastern indian - and the thought went thru my mind -

i

> am out of work and other americans are out of work and you get the

> pic - that is not nice however - i found my self telling her i did

> not understand her - nor the supervisor that came on the line - it

> may not have been nice on the one hand yet to let people know so

they

> can improve maybe that is a service and to get that patriotic

feeling

> of why the hell are our companies giving our jobs away - ooooooo

> sorry a sore spot for this unemployed lady and i sit here with a

> computer made in malaysia service dept in india parts from china -

> well i am just one global supporter of all countries at the

expense

> of my own - now that is world wide service -

>

> actually i bring my service home - american soldiers - the lady at

> the store - the bird who has a broken foot that i fed - little

> things - and i know k will care for all peoples in all countries -

>

> sorry - i try real hard not to get into this stuff but i sometimes

> can not help myself - actually my k can get pretty hot - in oh so

> many ways

>

> so NEW MEMBERS- always work from the safeties - use them to get

thru

> your day all the little things will go so much easier if you learn

to

> use them

>

> oh yes - inner joy - that is an easy one - i hear music and i soar-

 

> as do some of the others on the list - i play my radio up real

loud

> and get lost in the melodies and the words - i dance now -

sometimes

> it is hard to do my exercises for i want to dance - and just be

> happy - no worries - no problems - just " be'

>

> meditate - this is new to me and i am not good at it - yet i find

at

> times i can actually clear my mind - and every now and then i feel

> different - but mostly i just listen to soft music and keep

pushing

> thoughts out of my mind - or i just say the hell with it and

listen

> to my music - it wil come when k is ready for me to meditate for

> real -

>

> i am trying to take things slowly - but it is hard with all the

> activity of the others on the list - it can be intimadating just

try

> to remember - we all go at out own pace - see i can say these

words

> yet they do not ring true for me - i get frustrated

>

>

> REMEMBER- march 21-22-23 we are having a gathering in ojai

> california - it is easter weekend (christian holiday) all members

on

> the group here are invited and friends can come - it will be an

> exciting time for many of us have never met - although reading

> the posts one would not know this - we will keep the costs as low

as

> possible - we will double/triple up - chrism will be lecturing-

there

> will be food and dance and lots of surprises -

laughter/hugs/kisses/

> a k -stock in ojai- lots of k-ing for all -

>

> well that is my two cents -

> and i agree with steve every time he writes - he loves all the

group -

> i know exactly how he feels - and they make me laugh - so very

hard -

> the jokes - well i told chrism about the playing while he is

away -

> he is ok with it - he loves a good laugh -

>

> namaste

>

>

[Guest guest]

thank you valerie/melissa:

 

i am so ready for a change - moving is for me a new start - anew beginning - c

says i am feeling the norm - being that it is new for me - it is not norm - yet

i am trying hard- i am sooooo happy to be where i am - i never feel as if i am

worthy of my life - what did i ever do to deserve all this ? i think shaktipat

will help lots - of course that is if i can keep up those safeties- i am happy i

will be alone here during that time - although i know my friends will want to be

with me to say goodbye-

 

have started to contact the couchsurfers in santa rosa - am so looking forward

to meeting some of these people- and all of you that can get out for the

gathering - c has many ideas and since i am an idea person we will keep each

other hopping - now if i can just find a way to make money while working on the

k stuff - i have a dream - if k sees it as a good thing then it will happen -

 

i am always trying to think of new ways to make things easier for the new

members- once the apprentice program really kicks in i think it will be possible

for the load to lessen for c - we will all have our work to do - kind of a team

effort - a team of k's how wonderful -

 

thank you again -

 

 

 

 

 

loro

239-980-9090

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

In what way do you feel left out ? I didn't think it was clear

from your post.

 

Keep in mind that at the beginning, there can be a lot of emotional

swings. You may go from euphoria to depression/anger and back. You

are embarking on quite an undertaking moving across the country. It

is bound to bring up all kind of emotions.

 

Sarita

 

, " "

. wrote:

>

> we all are at different levels here i know this yet it is hard to

> read all the good things that are happening to some of you and i

feel

> really left out - i can only imagine what any new members feel -

>

> there have been a few posts that i actually picked up some vibes

> from - but not many - i need to start trusting that these are k

> related - for i know they are- it is like wearing a new pair of

> shoes - it takes time to adjust to them -

[Guest guest]

You will do wonderful !

 

Much Love,

 

Melissa

, loro

. wrote:

>

> thank you valerie/melissa:

>

> i am so ready for a change - moving is for me a new start - anew

beginning - c says i am feeling the norm - being that it is new for

me - it is not norm - yet i am trying hard- i am sooooo happy to be

where i am - i never feel as if i am worthy of my life - what did i

ever do to deserve all this ? i think shaktipat will help lots - of

course that is if i can keep up those safeties- i am happy i will be

alone here during that time - although i know my friends will want

to be with me to say goodbye-

>

> have started to contact the couchsurfers in santa rosa - am so

looking forward to meeting some of these people- and all of you that

can get out for the gathering - c has many ideas and since i am an

idea person we will keep each other hopping - now if i can just find

a way to make money while working on the k stuff - i have a dream -

if k sees it as a good thing then it will happen -

>

> i am always trying to think of new ways to make things easier

for the new members- once the apprentice program really kicks in i

think it will be possible for the load to lessen for c - we will all

have our work to do - kind of a team effort - a team of k's how

wonderful -

>

> thank you again -

>

>

>

>

>

>

> loro

> 239-980-9090

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

I've been there, too. Infact, I have a running joke

with another member that we visit the Group of " Left

Behind " occasionally. Sometimes its very busy there,

other times very quiet! Shakti ebbs and flows, and

then there are the plateaus where time is given for

the body to catch up. Someone once said to me, " It

doesn't matter where you are on the Path, as long as

your face is turned toward the Sun. " I never forgot

that. We're all right where we're meant to be, and

we're in good hands. imho Love dhyana

--- Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote:

 

> I totally understand what is talking about,

> as

> someone who came to the group with no active K in my

> body, and seeing everyone here who is either

> awakening

> or very active, as a newbie it can leave you feeling

> a

> bit left out.

> K has been a long journey for me and I still don't

> feel that much, I've had one lovely bliss experience

> and then not much, then you see others lighting up

> like candles, and you are happy for them, but some

> part of you yearns for it yourself.

>

> It's not that you mean to feel that way, it's just

> human nature.

> I still feel like that at times, it's not that I

> want

> to rush but I cannot help wanting what I see others

> having, waves of shakti moving through the body,

> feeling bliss and love, having visions and moving

> more

> and more into transformation.

> But, I think it's a good desire as it encourages me

> when I am tired and can't be bothered to do my yoga.

> It's what pushes me on every day.

>

> So, , I know what you are talking about love,

> you are not the only one.

>

> But, I know that Shakti has her own agenda and it's

> got nothing to do with my concept of time.... So I

> surrender to her whims.

>

> Love Elektra x x x

>

>

>

>

>

>

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