Some inner thoughts.....TO EVERYONE

[Guest guest]

Dearest Group -

 

As the days pass and Kundalini continues her journey through my outer and

inner being I ponder the thoughts of my life and how I have gotten to this

point. It didn't matter the how and when it happened, just that it did. As

most of you know I never meant to or went searching for such an extraordinary

blessing, I never knew it existed.

 

Reading and reading so many web sites about Kundalini including this one has

given me much understanding of where I am with this blessing. I state again,

how this gift has brought me into the realization of the wonderfulness of my

Life, regardless of the sumptuousness. I am seeing how this person that I am

has changed so much, how every day is not an every day, how every breath of air,

I take, is not the same as the previous one, how each moment's meditation is

different from the preceding one, how each surge of energy has a different

intensity from one another and each and every phenomena I experience has been

and is experienced and welcomed, post initial fears, with open eyed curiosity.

 

I hope some day I can inspire those who are willing to go this path, are

already on this path and those, like me, were not in any path at all until

Kundalini decided it was my time to journey on. I feel my blood rushing through

my veins with inner excitement for every second I feel Kundalini expressing in

me. Her infusions are inebriating. I still cannot believe the colossal fears I

had in my beginnings. I will admit, I still to this day, wake up in the early

morning and think that perhaps it was all but a wonderful dream.

 

Trust has been a huge issue in my life, in the beginning trusting was

brought with a measurable amount of hesitation. I questioned truth, who has

ownership of this truth? How can I trust someone who was so casual about what I

was experiencing? He was doing it, my impression, not because its not a huge

deal but because if I was to look at it in such light it would diffuse my

suffering, needless suffering. When explained to me that it was a

wonderful blessing, I wanted to stick my hand through the laptop monitor and

strangle him, how dare he? I am suffering the way I am and he calls it a

blessing? How can this debilitating fear be a blessing? Is being thrown off an

abyss a blessing too? Crazy man!

 

To those, new at this, trust is the beginning, surrendering to that trust is

vital. Once I began to surrender to trust and to Kundalini my life literally

changed inmediately. Having Kundalini in my existence would of been

destructive if it wasn't for the unmeasurable amount of trust I place in Her and

in Chrism.

 

I fall to my knees, very often, sobbing in joy for the Love I feel inside, a

Love I have never knew before. I have asked before " Is there such thing as

agony of Love? " I realized how it really isn't an agony but a struggle I placed

myself in for something I've never experienced before. If Kundalini was ever to

seize in me, I am left with an amazing amount of Love in me, a Love for you, a

Love for everything, a Love for my existence and the Blessed Mother, for that I

am eternally grateful.

 

It was around March of this year, as my relationship with my husband was doing

a bad downward spiral, I begged the Blessed Mother " Loving Mother, I want to

experience true Love " . In my small mind I thought prince charming was going to

come into my existence, take me away to a safe wonderful place where I could

experience this true Love I wanted to have so much. She had another idea of the

true Love I needed to experience. Yes indeed, true Love, but in such Divine

proportion at times it's hard to hold it all in and I am in the beginning of my

activation, wow. I might sound simple minded, but for me it is something that

I've actually been searching for all my Life. It's amazing how blind I have

been, true Love always existed in me, I always had it but didn't know it.

 

True Love was non-existent when I was born. I was, clearly, not wanted...I

place no blames, nor do I feel any regrets nor guilt for I have truly forgiven.

I am who I am today, I have what I have today because I am supposed to be where

I am today, as I am in the eternal Now that wasn't just a second before, or was

it? I wish this true Love to culminate everyone, every where, at some point in

their lives, right Now.

 

The readings I mentioned earlier had much bad experiences attached to them, so

much pain and suffering, so much disruption. It doesn't need to be that way,

Chrism's slow is good motto is the perfect motto for Kundalini. She is so

powerful it's like gagging with a mouth full of grapes as we try to chew one at

a time, one grape at a time is good. One of my favorite phrases by Borg of the

Star Trek series is " Resistance is futile " , that's how I feel about Kundalini,

resist and She'll still persist. She'll persist in a good way or not so good

way, depends on how many grapes you shove in your mouth. Slow is good, whether

you are awaken, activated, or have not experience anything at all. Look at

everyday with a childlike perspective, not with anticipation of Christmas

morning, but with the anticipation of how each day will unfold for you, one

grape at a time. It's my take.

 

My wish for you, as I bore you to tears (yawn), that everyday brings you the

magic of being alive, being you as you are in the Eternal Now. Love and Love

deeply. I sincerely believe Kundalini actually activated in me the day I asked

the Blessed Mother " I want to experience true Love " , She just didn't jolt me

then. She had the grapes ready, but She's feeding them to me, one at a time.

Slow is good, no gagging please.

 

My Love for All of you, eternally

Becky

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Thank you for your thoughts below Becky. Beautifully expressed and

with such good advice, especially for those of us still waiting at

the bottom.

 

Much Love,

 

Melissa

 

, Becky Jean

Rich <beckyjeanrich wrote:

>

> Dearest Group -

>

> As the days pass and Kundalini continues her journey through my

outer and inner being I ponder the thoughts of my life and how I

have gotten to this point. It didn't matter the how and when it

happened, just that it did. As most of you know I never meant to or

went searching for such an extraordinary blessing, I never knew it

existed.

>

> Reading and reading so many web sites about Kundalini including

this one has given me much understanding of where I am with this

blessing. I state again, how this gift has brought me into the

realization of the wonderfulness of my Life, regardless of the

sumptuousness. I am seeing how this person that I am has changed so

much, how every day is not an every day, how every breath of air, I

take, is not the same as the previous one, how each moment's

meditation is different from the preceding one, how each surge of

energy has a different intensity from one another and each and every

phenomena I experience has been and is experienced and welcomed,

post initial fears, with open eyed curiosity.

>

> I hope some day I can inspire those who are willing to go this

path, are already on this path and those, like me, were not in any

path at all until Kundalini decided it was my time to journey on.

I feel my blood rushing through my veins with inner excitement for

every second I feel Kundalini expressing in me. Her infusions are

inebriating. I still cannot believe the colossal fears I had in my

beginnings. I will admit, I still to this day, wake up in the early

morning and think that perhaps it was all but a wonderful dream.

>

> Trust has been a huge issue in my life, in the beginning

trusting was brought with a measurable amount of hesitation.

I questioned truth, who has ownership of this truth? How can I trust

someone who was so casual about what I was experiencing? He was

doing it, my impression, not because its not a huge deal but because

if I was to look at it in such light it would diffuse my suffering,

needless suffering. When explained to me that it was a

wonderful blessing, I wanted to stick my hand through the laptop

monitor and strangle him, how dare he? I am suffering the way I am

and he calls it a blessing? How can this debilitating fear be a

blessing? Is being thrown off an abyss a blessing too? Crazy man!

>

> To those, new at this, trust is the beginning, surrendering to

that trust is vital. Once I began to surrender to trust and to

Kundalini my life literally changed inmediately. Having Kundalini

in my existence would of been destructive if it wasn't for the

unmeasurable amount of trust I place in Her and in Chrism.

>

> I fall to my knees, very often, sobbing in joy for the Love I

feel inside, a Love I have never knew before. I have asked

before " Is there such thing as agony of Love? " I realized how it

really isn't an agony but a struggle I placed myself in for

something I've never experienced before. If Kundalini was ever to

seize in me, I am left with an amazing amount of Love in me, a Love

for you, a Love for everything, a Love for my existence and the

Blessed Mother, for that I am eternally grateful.

>

> It was around March of this year, as my relationship with my

husband was doing a bad downward spiral, I begged the Blessed

Mother " Loving Mother, I want to experience true Love " . In my small

mind I thought prince charming was going to come into my existence,

take me away to a safe wonderful place where I could experience this

true Love I wanted to have so much. She had another idea of the

true Love I needed to experience. Yes indeed, true Love, but in

such Divine proportion at times it's hard to hold it all in and I am

in the beginning of my activation, wow. I might sound simple

minded, but for me it is something that I've actually been searching

for all my Life. It's amazing how blind I have been, true Love

always existed in me, I always had it but didn't know it.

>

> True Love was non-existent when I was born. I was, clearly, not

wanted...I place no blames, nor do I feel any regrets nor guilt for

I have truly forgiven. I am who I am today, I have what I have

today because I am supposed to be where I am today, as I am in the

eternal Now that wasn't just a second before, or was it? I wish

this true Love to culminate everyone, every where, at some point in

their lives, right Now.

>

> The readings I mentioned earlier had much bad experiences

attached to them, so much pain and suffering, so much disruption.

It doesn't need to be that way, Chrism's slow is good motto is the

perfect motto for Kundalini. She is so powerful it's like gagging

with a mouth full of grapes as we try to chew one at a time, one

grape at a time is good. One of my favorite phrases by Borg of the

Star Trek series is " Resistance is futile " , that's how I feel about

Kundalini, resist and She'll still persist. She'll persist in a good

way or not so good way, depends on how many grapes you shove in your

mouth. Slow is good, whether you are awaken, activated, or have not

experience anything at all. Look at everyday with a childlike

perspective, not with anticipation of Christmas morning, but with

the anticipation of how each day will unfold for you, one grape at a

time. It's my take.

>

> My wish for you, as I bore you to tears (yawn), that everyday

brings you the magic of being alive, being you as you are in the

Eternal Now. Love and Love deeply. I sincerely believe Kundalini

actually activated in me the day I asked the Blessed Mother " I want

to experience true Love " , She just didn't jolt me then. She had the

grapes ready, but She's feeding them to me, one at a time. Slow is

good, no gagging please.

>

> My Love for All of you, eternally

> Becky

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[Guest guest]

becky - thank you for the wonderful thoughts - i always enjoy reading your

words-

 

 

 

loro

239-980-9090

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Thanks dearest Becky, that was not boring in the

slightest, far from it.

So wonderful to read about your thoughts and your

love.

 

Funny you should mention this now (we are so

connected) I just prayed today to the mother to let me

know of her love, of her true unconditional love, I

asked her to allow me to be a beacon of this love, to

be a doorway for it to pour fourth in to this world.

Thats what I want, to know this love. To BE it.

 

Thankyou so much for sharing your wonderful

sentiments,

love you dearly my sister

Elektra x x x

 

 

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[Guest guest]

Thank you for sharing all this Becky!

 

Sarita

 

, Becky Jean Rich

<beckyjeanrich wrote:

>

> Dearest Group -

>

> As the days pass and Kundalini continues her journey through my

outer and inner being I ponder the thoughts of my life and how I have

gotten to this point. It didn't matter the how and when it happened,

just that it did. As most of you know I never meant to or went

searching for such an extraordinary blessing, I never knew it existed.

[Guest guest]

Great post, Becky...I hope all the new folks read it.

 

Love,

Claudia

 

Becky Jean Rich <beckyjeanrich wrote:

Dearest Group -

 

As the days pass and Kundalini continues her journey through my outer and inner

being I ponder the thoughts of my life and how I have gotten to this point. It

didn't matter the how and when it happened, just that it did. As most of you

know I never meant to or went searching for such an extraordinary blessing, I

never knew it existed.

 

Reading and reading so many web sites about Kundalini including this one has

given me much understanding of where I am with this blessing. I state again, how

this gift has brought me into the realization of the wonderfulness of my Life,

regardless of the sumptuousness. I am seeing how this person that I am has

changed so much, how every day is not an every day, how every breath of air, I

take, is not the same as the previous one, how each moment's meditation is

different from the preceding one, how each surge of energy has a different

intensity from one another and each and every phenomena I experience has been

and is experienced and welcomed, post initial fears, with open eyed curiosity.

 

I hope some day I can inspire those who are willing to go this path, are already

on this path and those, like me, were not in any path at all until Kundalini

decided it was my time to journey on. I feel my blood rushing through my veins

with inner excitement for every second I feel Kundalini expressing in me. Her

infusions are inebriating. I still cannot believe the colossal fears I had in my

beginnings. I will admit, I still to this day, wake up in the early morning and

think that perhaps it was all but a wonderful dream.

 

Trust has been a huge issue in my life, in the beginning trusting was

brought with a measurable amount of hesitation. I questioned truth, who has

ownership of this truth? How can I trust someone who was so casual about what I

was experiencing? He was doing it, my impression, not because its not a huge

deal but because if I was to look at it in such light it would diffuse my

suffering, needless suffering. When explained to me that it was a

wonderful blessing, I wanted to stick my hand through the laptop monitor and

strangle him, how dare he? I am suffering the way I am and he calls it a

blessing? How can this debilitating fear be a blessing? Is being thrown off an

abyss a blessing too? Crazy man!

 

To those, new at this, trust is the beginning, surrendering to that trust is

vital. Once I began to surrender to trust and to Kundalini my life literally

changed inmediately. Having Kundalini in my existence would of been destructive

if it wasn't for the unmeasurable amount of trust I place in Her and in Chrism.

 

I fall to my knees, very often, sobbing in joy for the Love I feel inside, a

Love I have never knew before. I have asked before " Is there such thing as agony

of Love? " I realized how it really isn't an agony but a struggle I placed myself

in for something I've never experienced before. If Kundalini was ever to seize

in me, I am left with an amazing amount of Love in me, a Love for you, a Love

for everything, a Love for my existence and the Blessed Mother, for that I am

eternally grateful.

 

It was around March of this year, as my relationship with my husband was doing a

bad downward spiral, I begged the Blessed Mother " Loving Mother, I want to

experience true Love " . In my small mind I thought prince charming was going to

come into my existence, take me away to a safe wonderful place where I could

experience this true Love I wanted to have so much. She had another idea of the

true Love I needed to experience. Yes indeed, true Love, but in such Divine

proportion at times it's hard to hold it all in and I am in the beginning of my

activation, wow. I might sound simple minded, but for me it is something that

I've actually been searching for all my Life. It's amazing how blind I have

been, true Love always existed in me, I always had it but didn't know it.

 

True Love was non-existent when I was born. I was, clearly, not wanted...I place

no blames, nor do I feel any regrets nor guilt for I have truly forgiven. I am

who I am today, I have what I have today because I am supposed to be where I am

today, as I am in the eternal Now that wasn't just a second before, or was it? I

wish this true Love to culminate everyone, every where, at some point in their

lives, right Now.

 

The readings I mentioned earlier had much bad experiences attached to them, so

much pain and suffering, so much disruption. It doesn't need to be that way,

Chrism's slow is good motto is the perfect motto for Kundalini. She is so

powerful it's like gagging with a mouth full of grapes as we try to chew one at

a time, one grape at a time is good. One of my favorite phrases by Borg of the

Star Trek series is " Resistance is futile " , that's how I feel about Kundalini,

resist and She'll still persist. She'll persist in a good way or not so good

way, depends on how many grapes you shove in your mouth. Slow is good, whether

you are awaken, activated, or have not experience anything at all. Look at

everyday with a childlike perspective, not with anticipation of Christmas

morning, but with the anticipation of how each day will unfold for you, one

grape at a time. It's my take.

 

My wish for you, as I bore you to tears (yawn), that everyday brings you the

magic of being alive, being you as you are in the Eternal Now. Love and Love

deeply. I sincerely believe Kundalini actually activated in me the day I asked

the Blessed Mother " I want to experience true Love " , She just didn't jolt me

then. She had the grapes ready, but She's feeding them to me, one at a time.

Slow is good, no gagging please.

 

My Love for All of you, eternally

Becky

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Wow, Becky!! I liked that alot. You have a way with words and word

pictures. I like the grape analogy. LOL, yep, feels like that

sometimes. I'm with you...slow is good, most definitely! I do NOT

want to be rolling down that steep hill with no brakes, no siree

Bob!! (silly American exclamation, damped down or cleaned up version

of " No way in Hell! " ).

 

You are sure feeling the Love now, Becks. And we love you, too.

Valarie

 

 

, Becky Jean Rich

<beckyjeanrich wrote:

>

> Dearest Group -

>

> As the days pass and Kundalini continues her journey through my

outer and inner being I ponder the thoughts of my life and how I have

gotten to this point.

 

" Resistance is futile " , that's how I feel about Kundalini, resist and

She'll still persist. She'll persist in a good way or not so good

way, depends on how many grapes you shove in your mouth. Slow is

good, whether you are awaken, activated, or have not experience

anything at all. Look at everyday with a childlike perspective, not

with anticipation of Christmas morning, but with the anticipation of

how each day will unfold for you, one grape at a time. It's my take.

 

Love and Love deeply. I sincerely believe Kundalini actually

activated in me the day I asked the Blessed Mother " I want to

experience true Love " , She just didn't jolt me then. She had the

grapes ready, but She's feeding them to me, one at a time. Slow is

good, no gagging please.

>

My Love for All of you, eternally

Becky

[Guest guest]

I think I am giving all my Love Potion # 9 to Becky!! That was incredible! You

have summed up what the real feeling of love is. It is overwhelming! It is

powerful! It is so beautiful...just like the words you used to describe it! It

is in everything around us, every leaf, every squirrel and bird. Your words

offer a lot of wisdom little Sister. We look forward to the next gift the K

will bring, the nexy little wiggle in our tail bone, instead of just enjoying

what we have been given so far and were we are at in the journey. Thank you for

sharing your experience and words of wisdom...you really shared your soul with

us and gave us lessons to grow by!

 

We love you too...eternally!!

 

Scott