My tales of fears and its whatever forms..... Igor -- anyone?

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Igor, do you know where this post can be found on the " Blade " or

masculine energy. I put those two words in search and it just

brought up your post you just made. I do feel I need balance, too. I

have not had very good male role models in my life. Elektra's post

recently has really brought that to life for me.

 

After being inspired my Elektra, yesterday I began a search to find

ways to help love the male side of life. I have not had such a good

relationship with any of the males in my life, the best of the lot

would be my hubby and my oldest brother, which hasn't been the

greatest, but it's better than none, I suppose. Of course Jesus has

been the greatest role model for me and if it had not been for Him I

would not even be here today. In the past I have tried to deal with

this problem, but didn't get very for with it. After many tears and

no improvement, I just pushed it down and didn't allow myself to

think on it any more, but I know now that this is the reason that I

began to feel distance between me and God/Jesus. Plus distance

between me and my husband increased. This is a very hard thing for

me to learn to love and trust the male. I need help with this. If any

of you feel lead to pray for me about this, I would appreciate it. I

need help. I know I will not be able to go any farther spiritually

with out getting past this. Please help me. I really don't know what

to do except cry and to forgive over and over. I am not getting any

where with that it seems. Just a lot of soggy tissues and a stuffed

up nose. I am grateful for my husband, that he has loves me and cares

about me enough to stay with me. I know he is hurting, too.

 

Linda

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

, Igor Alphus

<Alphu-s wrote:

>

> Becky its great to read of your experiences. If you know where to

go on the site,there are posts on ''The Blade''or Masculine energy

which starts to balance inside us.

> Truly we need the Male/Female balance within. As says Fear

is the first test.

> I would say Joan of Arch lived a life in which she had to overcome

the greatest of fears as tests. She is a guiding light to all of us.

> Igor.

>

>

> : beckyjeanrich: Thu, 8

Nov 2007 23:01:21 -0800 My

tales of fears and its whatever forms.....

>

>

>

>

> Dearest Group -Today I feel incredible peace, yesterday incredible

Love. Yesterday's feeling of Love was pretty intense. My heart felt

the Love of The Blessed Mother as she guided me into surrendering,

once again. I still can't believe how the word surrendering has

become the most important concept in my Now. It's something I express

in silence and in expression. Sorry to sound like a broken

record....I released my heart into the Universe as it spreads its

wings of Love to All That Is and as we say now " for the greatest

good " . I am not one to say what is the greatest good, and so I

consented my Love be surrendered to the Blessed Mother as she does

Her Divine Will.Kundalini carries forward Her timetable, though at

times, I often wondered what moment will the destination be reached

and if I am ever going to actually blossom to my total fulfillment.

The word surrendering is an unrelenting visitor, every angle of my

existence is drizzled with its presence. It's taking a breath of air,

some for me, most surrendered.There's something I've recently read

that keeps obsessing in my mind " In renouncing the gross body, you

hand yourself over to transformation and the old form goes. The

wicked demon to whom you gave your temperament becomes powerless. The

body's senses rise up and return to the Source, separating and

remingling with His original energy. The old feelings and cravings

return to irrational nature and the regenerated Man is reborn through

the sphere..... " I think its a profound thought.The agitations of

yesterdays of how this Kundalini thing had no right to take over me

has completely dissipated, my distress no longer subsists. At times I

have the arrogance to laugh at the face of fear, how daring. There's

so many unknowns " out there " that could be expected, and could give

rise to new angst in me. My cowardice side will emerge once again and

remind me that I am no Joan of Arc, but merely me, little me, a tiny

speck. I respect fear, for through experiencing fear and not

disregarding it I am allowing myself to recognize what is that I want

and I am permiting in my existence. Fear teaches.I imagine any

particular fear of mine taking a physical form, as I hold this form

in my mind I examine its validity. Through this simple exercise I

have been able to survey its origin and possible destination, of some

of my fears. I remind this fear that I am the one holding its

itinerary. It's been helping me not just with fears but with other

aspects of my personality.I am looking at each fear like a new

sneeze, with not much substance. Now THAT is damn daring, watch it

nip my butt! I am indeed not fearless, though I am trying to flourish

by also acknowledging its existence.Sending fearless Love to

All,BeckyDo You

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I can definitely relate, and I'll pray for you Linda... Hugs!

love & light ~Jen~

 

, " Linda "

<crazycats711 wrote:

>

> Igor, do you know where this post can be found on the " Blade " or

> masculine energy. I put those two words in search and it just

> brought up your post you just made. I do feel I need balance, too. I

> have not had very good male role models in my life. Elektra's post

> recently has really brought that to life for me.

>

> After being inspired my Elektra, yesterday I began a search to find

> ways to help love the male side of life. I have not had such a good

> relationship with any of the males in my life, the best of the lot

> would be my hubby and my oldest brother, which hasn't been the

> greatest, but it's better than none, I suppose. Of course Jesus has

> been the greatest role model for me and if it had not been for Him I

> would not even be here today. In the past I have tried to deal with

> this problem, but didn't get very for with it. After many tears and

> no improvement, I just pushed it down and didn't allow myself to

> think on it any more, but I know now that this is the reason that I

> began to feel distance between me and God/Jesus. Plus distance

> between me and my husband increased. This is a very hard thing for

> me to learn to love and trust the male. I need help with this. If any

> of you feel lead to pray for me about this, I would appreciate it. I

> need help. I know I will not be able to go any farther spiritually

> with out getting past this. Please help me. I really don't know what

> to do except cry and to forgive over and over. I am not getting any

> where with that it seems. Just a lot of soggy tissues and a stuffed

> up nose. I am grateful for my husband, that he has loves me and cares

> about me enough to stay with me. I know he is hurting, too.

>

> Linda

>

, Igor Alphus

> <Alphu-s@> wrote:

> >

> > Becky its great to read of your experiences. If you know where to

> go on the site,there are posts on ''The Blade''or Masculine energy

> which starts to balance inside us.

> > Truly we need the Male/Female balance within. As says Fear

> is the first test.

> > I would say Joan of Arch lived a life in which she had to overcome

> the greatest of fears as tests. She is a guiding light to all of us.

> > Igor.

> >

> >

> > @: beckyjeanrich@: Thu, 8

> Nov 2007 23:01:21 -0800 My

> tales of fears and its whatever forms.....

> >

> >

> >

> >

> > Dearest Group -Today I feel incredible peace, yesterday incredible

> Love. Yesterday's feeling of Love was pretty intense. My heart felt

> the Love of The Blessed Mother as she guided me into surrendering,

> once again. I still can't believe how the word surrendering has

> become the most important concept in my Now. It's something I express

> in silence and in expression. Sorry to sound like a broken

> record....I released my heart into the Universe as it spreads its

> wings of Love to All That Is and as we say now " for the greatest

> good " . I am not one to say what is the greatest good, and so I

> consented my Love be surrendered to the Blessed Mother as she does

> Her Divine Will.Kundalini carries forward Her timetable, though at

> times, I often wondered what moment will the destination be reached

> and if I am ever going to actually blossom to my total fulfillment.

> The word surrendering is an unrelenting visitor, every angle of my

> existence is drizzled with its presence. It's taking a breath of air,

> some for me, most surrendered.There's something I've recently read

> that keeps obsessing in my mind " In renouncing the gross body, you

> hand yourself over to transformation and the old form goes. The

> wicked demon to whom you gave your temperament becomes powerless. The

> body's senses rise up and return to the Source, separating and

> remingling with His original energy. The old feelings and cravings

> return to irrational nature and the regenerated Man is reborn through

> the sphere..... " I think its a profound thought.The agitations of

> yesterdays of how this Kundalini thing had no right to take over me

> has completely dissipated, my distress no longer subsists. At times I

> have the arrogance to laugh at the face of fear, how daring. There's

> so many unknowns " out there " that could be expected, and could give

> rise to new angst in me. My cowardice side will emerge once again and

> remind me that I am no Joan of Arc, but merely me, little me, a tiny

> speck. I respect fear, for through experiencing fear and not

> disregarding it I am allowing myself to recognize what is that I want

> and I am permiting in my existence. Fear teaches.I imagine any

> particular fear of mine taking a physical form, as I hold this form

> in my mind I examine its validity. Through this simple exercise I

> have been able to survey its origin and possible destination, of some

> of my fears. I remind this fear that I am the one holding its

> itinerary. It's been helping me not just with fears but with other

> aspects of my personality.I am looking at each fear like a new

> sneeze, with not much substance. Now THAT is damn daring, watch it

> nip my butt! I am indeed not fearless, though I am trying to flourish

> by also acknowledging its existence.Sending fearless Love to

> All,BeckyDo You

> ?

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[Guest guest]

Thank you Jen. I appreciate that so very much . You have been there

suporting me many years now. The last few years have been a big

struggle. I thank you and I am very grateful for all yours prayers

snd sending love and light my way. You are a wonderful person and I

am blessed to have you as a friend. A big hug back to you. Thank you

for the hug, I needed it!

 

Love you Jen,

Linda

 

, " Jen " <jen

wrote:

>

> I can definitely relate, and I'll pray for you Linda... Hugs!

> love & light ~Jen~

>

> , " Linda "

> <crazycats711@> wrote:

> >

> > Igor, do you know where this post can be found on the " Blade " or

> > masculine energy. I put those two words in search and it just

> > brought up your post you just made. I do feel I need balance,

too. I

> > have not had very good male role models in my life. Elektra's

post

> > recently has really brought that to life for me.

> >

> > After being inspired my Elektra, yesterday I began a search to

find

> > ways to help love the male side of life. I have not had such a

good

> > relationship with any of the males in my life, the best of the

lot

> > would be my hubby and my oldest brother, which hasn't been the

> > greatest, but it's better than none, I suppose. Of course Jesus

has

> > been the greatest role model for me and if it had not been for

Him I

> > would not even be here today. In the past I have tried to deal

with

> > this problem, but didn't get very for with it. After many tears

and

> > no improvement, I just pushed it down and didn't allow myself to

> > think on it any more, but I know now that this is the reason that

I

> > began to feel distance between me and God/Jesus. Plus distance

> > between me and my husband increased. This is a very hard thing

for

> > me to learn to love and trust the male. I need help with this. If

any

> > of you feel lead to pray for me about this, I would appreciate

it. I

> > need help. I know I will not be able to go any farther

spiritually

> > with out getting past this. Please help me. I really don't know

what

> > to do except cry and to forgive over and over. I am not getting

any

> > where with that it seems. Just a lot of soggy tissues and a

stuffed

> > up nose. I am grateful for my husband, that he has loves me and

cares

> > about me enough to stay with me. I know he is hurting, too.

> >

> > Linda

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> > , Igor Alphus

> > <Alphu-s@> wrote:

> > >

> > > Becky its great to read of your experiences. If you know where

to

> > go on the site,there are posts on ''The Blade''or Masculine

energy

> > which starts to balance inside us.

> > > Truly we need the Male/Female balance within. As says

Fear

> > is the first test.

> > > I would say Joan of Arch lived a life in which she had to

overcome

> > the greatest of fears as tests. She is a guiding light to all of

us.

> > > Igor.

> > >

> > >

> > > @: beckyjeanrich@: Thu, 8

> > Nov 2007 23:01:21 -0800

My

> > tales of fears and its whatever forms.....

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > > Dearest Group -Today I feel incredible peace, yesterday

incredible

> > Love. Yesterday's feeling of Love was pretty intense. My heart

felt

> > the Love of The Blessed Mother as she guided me into

surrendering,

> > once again. I still can't believe how the word surrendering has

> > become the most important concept in my Now. It's something I

express

> > in silence and in expression. Sorry to sound like a broken

> > record....I released my heart into the Universe as it spreads its

> > wings of Love to All That Is and as we say now " for the greatest

> > good " . I am not one to say what is the greatest good, and so I

> > consented my Love be surrendered to the Blessed Mother as she

does

> > Her Divine Will.Kundalini carries forward Her timetable, though

at

> > times, I often wondered what moment will the destination be

reached

> > and if I am ever going to actually blossom to my total

fulfillment.

> > The word surrendering is an unrelenting visitor, every angle of

my

> > existence is drizzled with its presence. It's taking a breath of

air,

> > some for me, most surrendered.There's something I've recently

read

> > that keeps obsessing in my mind " In renouncing the gross body,

you

> > hand yourself over to transformation and the old form goes. The

> > wicked demon to whom you gave your temperament becomes powerless.

The

> > body's senses rise up and return to the Source, separating and

> > remingling with His original energy. The old feelings and

cravings

> > return to irrational nature and the regenerated Man is reborn

through

> > the sphere..... " I think its a profound thought.The agitations of

> > yesterdays of how this Kundalini thing had no right to take over

me

> > has completely dissipated, my distress no longer subsists. At

times I

> > have the arrogance to laugh at the face of fear, how daring.

There's

> > so many unknowns " out there " that could be expected, and could

give

> > rise to new angst in me. My cowardice side will emerge once again

and

> > remind me that I am no Joan of Arc, but merely me, little me, a

tiny

> > speck. I respect fear, for through experiencing fear and not

> > disregarding it I am allowing myself to recognize what is that I

want

> > and I am permiting in my existence. Fear teaches.I imagine any

> > particular fear of mine taking a physical form, as I hold this

form

> > in my mind I examine its validity. Through this simple exercise I

> > have been able to survey its origin and possible destination, of

some

> > of my fears. I remind this fear that I am the one holding its

> > itinerary. It's been helping me not just with fears but with

other

> > aspects of my personality.I am looking at each fear like a new

> > sneeze, with not much substance. Now THAT is damn daring, watch

it

> > nip my butt! I am indeed not fearless, though I am trying to

flourish

> > by also acknowledging its existence.Sending fearless Love to

> > All,BeckyDo You

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You're very welcome Linda, anytime! You've been a wonderful friend to

me as well, and I appreciate you more than you know. Love you too!

 

love & light ~Jen~

 

, " Linda "

<crazycats711 wrote:

>

> Thank you Jen. I appreciate that so very much . You have been there

> suporting me many years now. The last few years have been a big

> struggle. I thank you and I am very grateful for all yours prayers

> snd sending love and light my way. You are a wonderful person and I

> am blessed to have you as a friend. A big hug back to you. Thank you

> for the hug, I needed it!

>

> Love you Jen,

> Linda

>

> , " Jen " <jen@>

> wrote:

> >

> > I can definitely relate, and I'll pray for you Linda... Hugs!

> > love & light ~Jen~