the adventure begins#1 -gifts

November 11, 2007

my trip began yesterday by flying from fort myers to orlando (all of

20 munites in the air) i did not feel very well - was off usuallly

flying does not normally bother me at all - upon landing i got off

and walked a distance to the terminal for the next flight and was

feeling all this tightness? around my heart did feel like something

really bad was gonna occur - the feeling stayed with me on the next

plane - i was dizzy and disoriented oh my when they were banking i

really felt off center - i kept my eyes closed most of the trip and

keept trying to keep my finger locked they would not hold - i even

drifted off to sleep then started myself awake- i never sleep in a

plane - once off in chicago it hit me harder - numbness on the left

side - heart pain and me walking to the baggage area with my heavy

heavy case -

i was fortunate in that i got ahold of chrism who encouraged me to

take action if needed - i was really not all there in a sense - but i

got my ride and then thought i had not had my water most of the day -

hsrd to do while flying and i was hungry - so food/drink helped some

but the feelings of otherness stayed - off/on - i even took aspirin

which i never take - i got to speak with c again and was assured it

was k - so i then began to be much more ok with the sensations - this

is really a good thing for me -

i had not done my yoga earlier so i did those and relaxed in a hot

tub - this was a strange beginning to my trip - but one that has

opened my eyes -

i have to do the safeties no matter where i am or what i am doing- i

have to drink my water and eat properly - this is gonna be a

challenge but i have to find a way -

this smorning i feel better but still have th s ensations in my heart

area - will be going to a real church with my friends - let's see the

last time i was in a real church -ummmmmmmmm i can not remember - so

it will be good - i just hope i do not cry i always cry in church -

and i do not like that -

and i want to share another little gift i was given for my trip -

i had put out to the universe how i would love to experience a man

soon - and on wed of this past week - out of the blue appeared this

gorgeous - young fella - young 36- oh my - now understand i am 59 not

a looker as many - just an ordinary aging lady - so to be with a

virile young fella is tryly a gift - i told him that he was sent to

me as a gift - i do not know if he really understood yet i did - i am

very thank ful that my last few days in florida my last few days in

my home were shared with a lovely man - i told him i wished i could

pack him in my suitcase -

i do not understand why he appeared - and how i will keep from seeing

him when i get back to florida to get my car - he asked when i was

getting back and i had to tell him that i could not see him - i will

be on the 40 day no thoughts of sex timeframe- i know he did not

understand this - and realize that not seeing this guy is gonna be

really really hard for me -

so a gift and a test - all in one no waste of energy here -

what did i learn from my little encounter? i learned i really like

young men - really!!! - i learned it does not matter so much how old

i am - i am attractive to some and i learned that i need to be very

careful what i ask for now that i am being taken care of - ask and i

will receive -

so my trip began with many sensations - i am so grateful for all i am

experiencing and i am ready for whatever comes to me physically,

mentally and spiritually -

here in chi town i will be seeing my godmother and some relatives -

going downtown to the art museum where my favorite artist " monet " is

housed and to just walk along michigan avenue where my grandmother

and i walked about 49 years ago - sentimental journey

and more good news my friend that i am staying with wants to drive to

minneapolis to see her son who turns 21 next week - i will get to see

my sister and my niece that i have not seen for a while- and visit my

home of 12 years-

my this is beginning to sound like a sentimental journey - saying

goodbye to the old and welcoming the new -

i really feel this trip is a spiritual odyssey for me - i am trowing

off the old and embracing the new - feels good!!!

i am one blessed lady ...

November 11, 2007

Dear ,

I am happy to read of your learnings along your K path. These are good

things. These are the true 'gifts.' However, I don't see a sexual fling with

someone you just met as a 'gift.'

I find it very inappropriate that you are sharing your private sex life with

us. Elektra and others have shared sexual aspects of themselves of us, but

these were critical elements of their spiritual learnings. I see a difference

here...

If I am way off here, I trust that and other members will correct

me..but I felt compelled to say something...

My friend, the K path is a precious spiritual gift. We all love to hear of

each other's spiritual progress! Please share more of that with us, just leave

out the private stuff...

Many blessings to you on your journey,

Claudia

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