Guest guest Posted November 19, 2007 Report Share Posted November 19, 2007 Hi, Tara! I, too, have noticed your absence and wondering how you are. It's good that your seizures are not epilepsy! The trauma you sufferered as a child at then hands of your father is a horrible thing, and I am sorry that you are still suffering from it. Perhaps you might step up your forgiveness part of the Safeties to help you deal with the vestiges of these past traumas and understandable bad feelings toward your father to see if that might alleviate the seizures...you mentioned the doctor said that, as these unresolved feelings and memories surface, it is contributing to the condition...so perhaps the 'treatment' you need is in forgiveness. Not the fast and easy way, but perhaps the sure one. My thoughts on this...I'm sorry that you are so blue. But so glad to see you back here! Please don't go away again! Love, Claudia tara jacoby <tjmassage7777 wrote: Hi Linda, sweetie. I'm sorry I've been so distant. I've been going through a lot, and it's been difficult for me. I went to visit a neurologist, for what seem to be symptoms of absence seizures. I never go to the doctors for anything. It has to be an emergency, for me to go. I usually rely on positive energy and prayer as my healing. I'd rather will it away. I got my hopes up, that he could give me something to take it all away. My insurance requires that I pay the first $400. so I couldn't get the tests. Still, he told me that according to the neurological exam he conducted, and my history, that whatever seizures I am having do not seem to be epileptic. He thinks they are almost positively, stress induced. In other words, there is nothing anyone can do. I've been pretty much down since then. I've been going over and over..the things in my head. I'm trying to get passed everything, even though I feel like I'm breaking. This is why Ive been distant. I've been feeling like I needed a break from every aspect of my existence. Just to have a bit of peace..and pull myself together. This has been me, the past few weeks. You've been on my mind though, and I was waiting for the perfect time, to fall back in, on the sight..and say hi. I hope you've been well. I've missed you too. Thanks for thinking of me. Love, love and more love, Tara >Linda <crazycats711 wrote: > Hi Tara, I was just thinking of you this morning and wondering how >you were. Haven't seen you post much lately and was missing you. - Happy rebirth, Elektra. Love, Linda , tara jacoby <tjmassage7777 wrote: > > Lektra..my love, > I'm sorry I'm so late, but I wanted to say > " Happy Birthday! " I hope that your special day was filled > with laughter, inner peace..and of course..lots of love. > Another birthday; my little 'Lektra is growing up! > Hee,hee! > With love and smiles, > Tara > > > > Be a better pen pal. Text or chat with friends inside Mail. See how. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 19, 2007 Report Share Posted November 19, 2007 Missin' ya over here too Tara... glad you're back! And with more beautiful poetry! Very sorry to hear you're having a rough go of it. Remember that brilliant light within you, and how it shines to the world around you! You're amazing, and we all know it. Try not to let what you're going through get you down; we're all behind you and you will get through this! I will send all the positive energy I can your way with the sincere hope that it will be of help... love, light & peace ~Jen~ , Claudia <newtfoodbowl wrote: > > Hi, Tara! I, too, have noticed your absence and wondering how you are. It's good that your seizures are not epilepsy! The trauma you sufferered as a child at then hands of your father is a horrible thing, and I am sorry that you are still suffering from it. Perhaps you might step up your forgiveness part of the Safeties to help you deal with the vestiges of these past traumas and understandable bad feelings toward your father to see if that might alleviate the seizures...you mentioned the doctor said that, as these unresolved feelings and memories surface, it is contributing to the condition...so perhaps the 'treatment' you need is in forgiveness. Not the fast and easy way, but perhaps the sure one. My thoughts on this...I'm sorry that you are so blue. But so glad to see you back here! Please don't go away again! > > Love, > Claudia > > tara jacoby <tjmassage7777 wrote: > Hi Linda, sweetie. > I'm sorry I've been so distant. > I've been going through a lot, and it's been difficult for me. > I went to visit a neurologist, for what seem to be symptoms of absence seizures. > I never go to the doctors for anything. > It has to be an emergency, for me to go. > I usually rely on positive energy and prayer as my healing. > I'd rather will it away. > I got my hopes up, that he could give me something to take it all away. > My insurance requires that I pay the first $400. so I couldn't get the tests. > Still, he told me that according to the neurological exam he conducted, and my > history, that whatever seizures I am having do not seem to be epileptic. > He thinks they are almost positively, stress induced. > In other words, there is nothing anyone can do. > I've been pretty much down since then. > I've been going over and over..the things in my head. > I'm trying to get passed everything, even though I feel like I'm breaking. > This is why Ive been distant. > I've been feeling like I needed a break from every aspect of my existence. > Just to have a bit of peace..and pull myself together. > This has been me, the past few weeks. > You've been on my mind though, and I was waiting for the perfect time, to fall back in, on the sight..and say hi. > I hope you've been well. > I've missed you too. > Thanks for thinking of me. > Love, love and more love, > Tara Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 19, 2007 Report Share Posted November 19, 2007 Thanks, Claudia, I have been thinking about you, and was waiting for the right time to fall back in line. I've been feeling really bad, and thought I needed some time alone, but that wasn't it. I probably needed support, but sometimes a person guesses wrong, when their eyes are blinded by a thing that they are going through. Silly me. What on Earth was I thinking? He,he! You make perfect sense. My father still emails me. He only sends me forwarded jokes and such. I cannot look at them. I think you're right about pumping up my forgiveness. I find myself saying or thinking " Look what you did to me. " When I see his emails, and I ignore them. I guess forgiveness will help to heal me. I've had a lot of rage of late, which really never occurs for me. I feel the need to break something..or pound my fists on the wall and sob and cry. It's an unsettling feeling, but I know that it's all of the repressed emotions, finding their own way out. Thanks for the advice, and for your comforting words. I will heed them, and begin excessive forgiveness, starting tonight. With much love and thanks, Tara >Claudia <newtfoodbowl wrote: > Hi, Tara! I, too, have noticed your absence and wondering how you are. It's >good that your seizures are not epilepsy! The trauma you sufferered as a child > at then hands of your father is a horrible thing, and I am sorry that you are still >suffering from it. Perhaps you might step up your forgiveness part of the > Safeties to help you deal with the vestiges of these past traumas and understandable bad feelings toward your father to see if that might alleviate the seizures...you mentioned the doctor said that, as these unresolved feelings and memories surface, it is contributing to the condition...so perhaps the 'treatment' you need is in forgiveness. Not the fast and easy way, but perhaps the sure one. My thoughts on this...I'm sorry that you are so blue. But so glad to see you back here! Please don't go away again! Love, Claudia tara jacoby <tjmassage7777 wrote: Hi Linda, sweetie. I'm sorry I've been so distant. I've been going through a lot, and it's been difficult for me. I went to visit a neurologist, for what seem to be symptoms of absence seizures. I never go to the doctors for anything. It has to be an emergency, for me to go. I usually rely on positive energy and prayer as my healing. I'd rather will it away. I got my hopes up, that he could give me something to take it all away. My insurance requires that I pay the first $400. so I couldn't get the tests. Still, he told me that according to the neurological exam he conducted, and my history, that whatever seizures I am having do not seem to be epileptic. He thinks they are almost positively, stress induced. In other words, there is nothing anyone can do. I've been pretty much down since then. I've been going over and over..the things in my head. I'm trying to get passed everything, even though I feel like I'm breaking. This is why Ive been distant. I've been feeling like I needed a break from every aspect of my existence. Just to have a bit of peace..and pull myself together. This has been me, the past few weeks. You've been on my mind though, and I was waiting for the perfect time, to fall back in, on the sight..and say hi. I hope you've been well. I've missed you too. Thanks for thinking of me. Love, love and more love, Tara >Linda <crazycats711 wrote: > Hi Tara, I was just thinking of you this morning and wondering how >you were. Haven't seen you post much lately and was missing you. - Happy rebirth, Elektra. Love, Linda , tara jacoby <tjmassage7777 wrote: > > Lektra..my love, > I'm sorry I'm so late, but I wanted to say > " Happy Birthday! " I hope that your special day was filled > with laughter, inner peace..and of course..lots of love. > Another birthday; my little 'Lektra is growing up! > Hee,hee! > With love and smiles, > Tara > > > > Be a better pen pal. Text or chat with friends inside Mail. See how. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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